Lonliness
hey....this page is about lonliness. We all feel is some times and other
feel it all the time. You feel it in your heart, in your soul. You can't
escape it. When you long for someone's touch, even a hug no one is there.
When you need a friend, you know that special friend, you just can't seem to
see them. They're there somewhere, but you just have to find them.
A few times i thought i found that special "one" but everytime i get to close
they leave me. Everyone leaves me, my Dad did, my friends that i thought
were so close to me left and now what is left? A hope? A wish? A dream you
seem to have every night as you lay in your cold, lonely bed wishing someone
was there with you to share all your hopes, dreams, wishes, fears..everything.
I once had someone that i use to be able to talk to but everything screwed
up.
Reality is also something screwed. "Too each his own" I'm not sure who's quote
it is but it's true to what i just said. I don't even know what i'm writing
on this page. I'm just lonely. I want a friend...with me. I need that
someone to understand me, to know what i feel and know they feel the same
thing. Yes i found that friend but she's 1,000 km's away.
I'm just so sick of being alone all the time. Nothing cure's this lonliness.
I've been searching forever, since the day i started thinking and growing
up...i've been looking for that someone..and yes i found them but god damn!
i'm here and they're there. It's killing me
i speant so many of my years wishing and hoping for something else, for me
life to be something that it wasn't. I know most of this probably doesn't
make sense but then again i don't think i do. I know i'm not the only
person who feels like this....i don't have anyone to talk to so i'm trying
to express myself in this page.
Have you ever tried to kill yourself? You think about it and think of the
freedom that it offers you, the release from all this pain and suffering
one goes through. It's one tempting thought but one i cannot think about
anymore. I think sometimes that i'm not worth anything...and a lot of the
times i believe it but i'm not sure what gets me through all this anymore.
Maybe just the fact that i want to prove everyone wrong and make it through
this game of life.
Remember...everyone you reads this page and feels anything like me
there is something out there to live for. Someting worth while. Take Care
and "Live Life Look for Light" Quote me
If you feel the need e-mail at shadowworlds@hotmail.com
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