lyin’ in bed looking at the ceiling
no ones home but me it seems
the silence is killing me
cant move cause of this pain
darkness closes in on me
i can hardly breathe
i think I'm crazy.
then I hear your voice
but you aren’t really there.....
You’re
always here
yet you’re
always gone
how can you expect me to be strong?
wait you don’t
even know
you don’t
have a clue
I need to know what
I mean to you
I shake my head
and wash away the dream
real life suddenly washes over me
you say you’re my good friend
friends for six plus
yet sometimes we cant talk
you know to much
your hiding
and yet its not enough
You’re
always here
yet you’re
always gone
how can you expect me to be strong?
wait you don’t
even know
you don’t
have a clue
I need to know what
I mean to you
tossing turning remembering the things you said
you walked away again
each time fear grows stronger
fever burns up in my confused head
how do I know what to do
im helpless confused uselesss
so afraid of what you'll think
i dont want to lose you
but i will caus others will move in
do I act or play it off as just a friend?
You’re
always here
yet you’re
always gone
how can you expect me to be strong?
wait you don’t
even know
you don’t
have a clue
I need to know what
I mean to you
hiding these emotions isn't right
others let them go so fast
i wish i could be like that
its too late
you have to move
im too weak please understand
i need you
please dont leave
i love you more than anyone else can
You’re
always here
yet you’re
always gone
how can you expect me to be strong?
wait you don’t
even know
you don’t
have a clue
I need to know what
I mean to you
why cant you just say whats on your mind
i know you cant simply leave the past behind
do others know what ive longed to hear
waiting year after year after year?
secrets tangle into many knots
it makes all my thoughts clot
from you I hold so much you need to hear
but you need to listen to just me I fear
I cant tell you these feelings after so long
Ive tried my best to be so strong
but you know everyone has to break
their whole world tumbles down and shakes
I need so desperately for you to see
I live for every second you spend with me
By: Jane, 2001
