There is so much between us that needs to be said;
but whenever I try, my words fall dead;
I know that time is falling away fast;
And that soon you may become just a part of my past;
I know I need to say something extremely soon;
Or whatever relationship we had will be ruined;
How do we go on with all these lies?
You’d think that by now I’d see it in your eyes;
This is one thing I cannot understand;
Along with how I long to simply touch your hand;
I wish with all my heart that I could come clean;
And you would just simply KNOW what I mean;
But after six years I see this wont take place;
Its been like swimming in a sectionals race;
I’ve been killing myself to win your heart;
Ever since we met, at the very start;
I never wanted to push you away;
So I hid my feelings so things would stay;
I’ve paid the price for living a lie;
To everyone and I don’t even know why;
You mean more to me than anything else;
I tried to stop it but cant help myself;
Just like a race, its been long and hard;
Bending and breaking and scaring my heart;
Something about you keeps me going;
You became part of me, without even knowing;
So many wishes were spent in your case;
So many times of my life gone to waste;
Strangely for some reason it all seems worth it;
Even though I may walk away with nothing of it;
Just being in your presence means more to me;
Than anything else that can possibly be;
I know its sad, and that I’m not the first;
But what I’ve gone through can not have been worse;
I mean, what’s even harder than letting things go;
Is hoping and waiting and they never show;
Your leaving will not break my feelings;
Because pain over years has made my heart strengthened;
So I guess I just had to let you know;
Since now I know that you have to go;
And one more thing that I have to say;
Don’t let anybody else love you this way;
Please if you know that they feel for you;
Get it over with so they can see right through;
The longer you wait the worse it gets;
And I wouldn’t wish anyone else less;
Yes I know you knew and just let it be;
But that didn’t help me at all you see;
I still love you after six long years;
And this will only end in my tears;
Time isn't out, you can do something now;
But I dont think you will, I just wish that...somehow...
By: JaNe, 2001
