your presence is known
everyone knows your here
their 'love' is obviously shown
mine is concealed by fear
what have you done?
why have you lied?
trust was quickly won
you took all my pride
to you this is a game
something easy to win
everyone knows your name
always ask, "how you been?"
you make me feel exclusive
like there’s just you and me
but then you become so elusive
and our time is just a memory
I’ve heard so many stories
so many people you touch
each gives me more worries
i feel I don’t matter so much
you control all changes
this game goes at your pace
this leaves me with rages
I can’t win the race
sometimes your so honest
other times your so fake
its hard to decipher
the feelings you make
I remember the laughter
I remember the silence
I remember tears after
your gone, I get so tense
but how could you do this?
to me, your loving friend?
I can’t see if its true bliss
or if its all pretend
you don’t know my true feelings
yet over years you’ve got a clue
pushed away, held close...meanings?
all I know is I love you
Did you make this happen too?
play me till I cannot breathe
I know the evil things you do
my feelings begin to seethe
to me you mean more than anything
id lay down my life for you and die
stronger is absolutely nothing
I hate how time is flying by......
those people have never known you
and they never really will
they’ll never know you the way I do
and yet I love you even more still
secretly know about every lie you tell
you use goodness to hide the bad
I think you were born and raised in hell
here to take my love and to make me sad
you torture me with goodness
I fear is just a disguise
your "blank" is peeking its realness
now I can see it in your eyes
yet still I get so confused
your hurting me with what they say
some times I feel like I so used
when they talk about you that way
and I cannot do a thing
for I think no one can know
too long I’ve been hiding
no emotion can I show
By: JaNe, 2000
