I'm such an asshole
God I'm such a stain.
I just keep fucking up
again and again

I don't believe
I don't believe
I could be so stupid so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
That there is nothing
nothing left for me

You crawled inside my mind
When you crawled into my bed
Said everything
I've ever longed to hear
So perfect so alive
Once inside you sucked me dry
You used me up
And left me here for dead

I don't believe
I don't believe
That I could be so stupid so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
That there is nothing
Nothing left for me

I crave it desperately
Itīs a cancer eating me
An addiction
To intense to be denied
Worthless I'm a whore
Crawling back for more
Itīs pathetic how I feed off this abuse

I don't believe
I don't believe
That I could be so stupid so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
That there is nothing
Nothing left for me
God I feel so stupid

You told me that you loved me
And I believed you loved me
And you swore that you loved me
And I believed
Now I know it was a lie
Now I know it was a lie
Now I know it was a lie

I don't believe
I don't believe
That I could be so stupid so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
That there is nothing
Nothing left for me
I don't believe
I don't believe
That I could be so stupid so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
That there is nothing
Nothing left for me

I only see myself
Reflected in your eyes
So all that I believe I am
Essentially are lies
And everything I hoped to be
Or ever thought I was
Died with your belief in me
So who the hell am I

I don't know if I agree without you
What is left of me without you
I don't know what's real without you
How can I exist without you?

I'm wandering round confused
Wondering why I try
The more that you deny my pain
The more it intesifies
I pray for someone to ache for me
The way I ache for you
If you ignore that I'm alive
I have nothing to cling to

I don't know if I agree without you
What is left of me without you
I don't know what's real without you
How can I exist without you?

I stare into this mirror
So tired of this life
If only you would speak to me
Or care if I'm alive
Once I swore I would die for you
But I never meant like this
I never meant like this, no
I never meant like this.

I don't know if I agree without you
What is left of me without you?
I don't know what's real without you
How can I exist without you?

How can I exist without you?
How can I exist without you?

You make it hard to breath
Its as if i'm suffocating
And when you're next to me
I can feel your heartbeat through my skin
It makes me sad to think
This could all be for nothing
I wish there was a way
Only for you to see inside me
I've never felt this way
About anyone or anything
Tell me

What do I have to do
To make you happy
What do I have to do
To make you understand
What do I have to do
To make you want me
And if I can't make you want me
What to I have to do

I know exactly what you're thinking
But I swear this time
I will not let you down
I'm not as selfish as I used to be
That was a part of me
That never made me proud
Right now I think I would try anything
Anything at all to keep you satisfied

God I hope you see
What losing you will do to me
All I want is one more chance
Tell me

What do I have to do
To make you happy
What do I have to do
To make you understand
What do I have to do
To make you want me
And if i canīt make you want me
Just tell me, tell me
How can I
how can I
how can I
What do I have to do
To make you want me
What do I have to do
To make you understand
What do I have to do
To make you love me
And if I cant make you love me
Just tell me
What to I have to do

To forget about you

I am not here
I think Iīve never
Been here at all
Or ever will
I feel like a place
Where no one goes anymore

Why can't you see that everythings broken
And why canīt you see that my lifes turn gray
I can't believe in anything sacred
When I don't believe that I am real

I need someone to break the silence
Screaming in my head
And in my soul

It seems so bizarre
But none of this matters
Thoughts disappear
And hopes have died
But now I am safe nothing can hurt me here

Why can't you see my need for forgiveness
The truth and the lies so confused as one
I can't believe in anything sacred
When I don't believe in anything

I need someone to break the silence
screaming in my head
And in my soul

I am alone locked in my memories
There's nowhere left for me to hide
I am not real I've made all I am with lies

Why does it seem that everythings different
And why does it seem that only you are real
I don't believe in anything sacred
So why do I feel so damn alone

I need someone to break the silence
Need someone to break the silence
I need someone to break the silence
screaming in my head
And in my soul
And in my soul
And in my soul
And in my soul

I feel your lips
I taste your skin
I need to know
I need to feel you from within

As your blood burns through my skin
I feel complete
I breath you in
Its where you end and I begin
If only I could stay here....forever
So much to tell you
And so much to give you
So much to confide
Now that I'm inside you

We are flesh
We are one
So why do I
Feel so much guilt for what I've done
As your blood burns through my skin
I feel release
I breath you in
Its where you end and I begin
If only I could stay here....forever
So much to tell you
So much to give you
So much to confide
Now that I'm inside
Now that I'm inside
Now that I'm inside
Inside
Inside
Inside you
Inside you

So much to teach me
So much to show me
So much to give me
So much to tell me
So much to teach me
So much to show me
So much to give me
So much to teach me.......

I'm tangled
And broken
Left scattered on the floor
Its useless now
These pieces, they
Can never make me whole

This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my everything
Comes crashing down on me
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my fucking world
Comes crashing down on me

You wither
You blister
I watch you burn and peel

Its not like you
Can save me
Itīs not like you even care

This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my everything
Comes crashing down on me
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my fucking world
Comes crashing down
Crashing down on me

I'm finding it so hard to hold on
I'm finding it so hard to hold on
I'm finding it so hard to hold on
I'm finding it so hard to hold on

This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
Apart
Falls apart
Apart
Falls apart
Apart
Falls apart
Apart

Waste thoughts of you
Wasted prayers to you

Give me back my mind
I'm empty inside

And it's so wrong that I need you
It's so wrong that I need abuse
And It's so wrong that I need you
So wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

What have I become
Everythings undone

A candle burns in your honor
My soul a shrine I've built for you
There is nothing left inside me
Nothing left inside but you

And it's so wrong that I need you
It's so wrong that I need abuse
And itīs so wrong that I need you
So wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

Can't seem to pretend
This night needs to end
I can't fill this hole
You are all I know

And it's so wrong that I need you
It's so wrong that I need abuse
And It's so wrong that I need you
So wrong that I need abuse
And it's so wrong that I need you
So wrong that I need you
So wrong that I need you
So wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me
I'm feeling the weight of everyday life and it's crushing me

How much more will it take
How much more until it breaks me

This world is crushing me

I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me
I'm feeling the weight of everyday life and it's crushing me

How much more will it take
How much more until it breaks me

This world is crushing me
Is crushing me

I'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crushing me
I'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crushing me
I swallow the hate, betrayal and lies
Swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me

I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me
And it's crushing me
And it's crushing me
And it's crushing me

I swallow the hate, betrayal and lies
Swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me
How much more will it take
How much more until it breaks me
I'm feeling the weight of the world
I'm feeling the weight of the world
And itīs crushing me

She's been here so many times before
She can't remember
When she last felt anything at all
But this fear and anger
She stares intently at the door
Listens for his footsteps
She
Knows exactly whats in store
And the knowing makes it worse

Floating high above her bed starring at her fathers head
Wishing one of them where dead
Floating high above her bed starring at her fathers head
Wishing one of them were dead so this hell could finally end

When he calls her daddy's little girl
She doesn't hear him
When he crushes her
She can't feel
Her screams are silent
Hides
In the corners of her mind
Where she plays contently
She
Leaves this nightmare far behind
She escapes inside her dreams

Floating high above her bed starring at her fathers head
Wishing one of them where dead
Floating high above her bed starring at her fathers head
Wishing one of them where dead so this hell could finally end

I feel it slipping away
I feel it slipping away
I gave it all but no one cared
I feel it slipping away

I feel it slipping away
I got it slipping away
I gave it all and no one cared
I feel it slipping away
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping away

No more pain no more fear
I feel it slipping away

I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping away

I just can't learn to forget
Now I'm choking on the memories
Choking on regret
I tried but I can't find a way
To untangle all the pieces
After they've been thrown away

I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping away

I will not suffer this loss
Of you again and again and again
I refuse
To continue to live
In this perpetual nightmare
I decide it ends right here
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping away

I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping
Everythings slipping away