Clam Chowder In The Morning
Now Playing: Steve Harley and Cockney Rebel--"Make Me Smile (Come Up And See Me)"
After seeing the final installment of Cinema Guild's Mario Bava retrospective, Rabid Dogs (1975), I need a shower.

The weekend was pretty pleasant on average. I checked out a bunch of movies and went for a lot of long walks, now that the weather has improved considerably. I stopped at the Old Town for a couple of beers, and now like that place even more, as it's one of the few bars I still enjoy visiting around here.

My volunteer shift at WRAP yesterday made me think about my motives for volunteering (for WRAP and Planned Parenthood). I've pretty much come to the conclusion that it's a matter of self-interest (or selfishness), that volunteering makes me feel good about myself when nothing else will. There's nothing necessarily wrong with that--after all, it's still doing a good thing--but it's a little weird, if liberating, to fully acknowledge the pleasure component, for lack of a better word. If I can feel good about myself by doing good for other people (however little of that there actually is), then I don't really think I should beat myself up over it.

I'm going to start studying for the GRE this week, either getting a prep manual from Borders or ordering a used one from half.com, and hopefully retake it sometime this summer. I'm sick of being here with no reason.

Lots of movies this weekend. Friday, Lou showed the Howard Hawks double bill. I'd forgotten how incredibly awesome Scarface was. Violence, intrigue, possible incest, an Al Pacino-like frenzy of near-overacting at the end, and Ann Dvorak as Paul Muni's jailbait sister. Fabulous. Only Angels Have Wings, about a gang of bush pilots in South America, managed to pall in comparison, even with Jean Arthur and Rita Hayworth. There's really nothing like a pre-Code movie.

Larry Cohen's God Told Me To (1975), is about God telling people in New York City to become murderers. One of the most imaginative movies I've ever seen come out of this country. Ken Loach's Raining Stones (1993) has Bruce Jones from Coronation Street as a Mancunian shlub trying to get the money together for his daughter's First Communion dress. I watched it this morning while eating leftover clam chowder from work for breakfast. An unusually heartfelt movie from Loach, I thought--although I still haven't seen Kes (1969).

Rabid Dogs concerned the getaway of a trio of psycho crooks with three hostages. It was very well-done but very unpleasant; a young woman in the audience had to leave during a particularly nasty scene, and I was almost right behind her. However (and it was probably different for me, being a guy), I try not to let myself get defeated by these things. The only two movies I remember getting the better of me (i.e., my inability to make it through them) were Rock 'n' Roll Wrestling Women Vs. The Aztec Ape (1962) and Agnieszka Holland's Total Eclipse (1995), with Leo DiCaprio and David Thewlis in the roles of Arthur Rimbaud and Paul Verlaine, respectively. With actors like that, and with a scene where Romane Bohringer lolled around Verlaine's bedroom naked but for a top hat, it still managed to be one of the most stultifying movies I've ever seen.

I think I'm going to clear my palate this evening--maybe clean my room, maybe watch The Umbrellas of Cherbourg (probably just the thing after Rabid Dogs) and have some more clam chowder.

My life is almost overpoweringly stirring.