I tried to make you happy,
I tried to make you care, I tried to clear the blurry,
and I tried to sweeten the nightmare.
I tried to let go-
I tried to hold on,
I tried to let my heart grow
and I tried to show myself you were already gone.
I wanted you to listen,
I wanted you to care..
I wanted you to question,
why I'm still around, waiting there.
I wish I could show you,
I wish you could see,
I wish you really knew,
..how much you mean to me.
I saw you grow on,
and you saw me through different eyes
I saw you but you were so far gone...
and this time you didn't try to answer my crys.
You tried to run away,
You tried to hate me-
You tried to decay,
You tried to betray.
You tried to hide from me,
You tried to stop caring,
You tried to show yourself empty,
..and away you kept moving.
You wanted to be alone,
You wanted to leave the friendship
You wanted to shine unknown,
..and you almost lost your grip.
You wished I'd forgotten,
You wished I walked away..
You wished I could run-
..but I couldn't find the way.
You saw me vaguely
You saw what we left behind ... but barely
but what you didn't see,
is that I'm still in the same place I always promised I'd be.
I'm still standing here-
Trying,
Wanting,
Wishing
Waiting for you to take my hand and hold it tight,
and tell me that it's going to be okay
and tell me it'll be all right.
it'll be the past, in slow replay
But until you want to try, read my cries
before you want to want, look at me without a scare
before you want to wish, look into my eyes,
and tell me you don't care.
My cries fear that you don't want to try for me
I'm scared that i'm not wanted in your life anymore
My eyes wish to see you again clearly
to tell you that I wont let you hit the floor
I don't think you care to see, I'm still where I
always promised to be, I'm still here.
..waiting for you to see,
That I'm standing, where you left me, with a tear,
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