Does anyone really know me?
Does anyone look into the deep?
Can anyone really unlock my mind?
And if they do what rot will they find?
All they'll find is torment and pain,
All they'll see is my shame.
hAve I told you my strongest dream?
I always wanted my face to gleam.
I wanted to be someone to anyone,
But all I;ve witnessed is my ability to be shunned.
I'm so confused as to how I can smile through the tears,
Everyday I smile through all my jeers,
and all I wonder is if they can see through this facade
Can anyone see my pain through the odd?
I don't know how I go on,
When all I've loved is gone.
But does anyone notice my desire to die?
Does anyone see I smile less than I cry?
Can anyone see through these eyes,
Can anyone hear my inner cries?
Everyday I wake with hope in my heart,
But reality hits me cruely as a dart.
I"m sick of waiting for God to show me,
How to smile, how to love, how to be free.
I want everyone to see who I am,
I want everyone to see this soul so damned.
I put on this robe of where I've been what I've seen,
what i've felt.
What I can only ask - is was i rightly taught?
Who am I to me?
Who am I to be?
Who am I to you?
Who are you to prove I'm a fool?
Where am I heading in this life I'm in
I'm not getting anywhere with sin.
I'm not showing true to the Lord,
Give me the scissors to cut the cord.
If no one can see who I really am inside,
Never shall they understand the mysteries I hide.
Do my eyes show my cold,
Do my arms show I need to hold?
Such a distance between me and God now,
I don't think he ever gave me as much as a flinch in the brow.
I pray and pray but it doesn't seem to be there,
When all I want is to be able to share,
I want people to see in my torment
I want to be unbent
I need someone to listen to my cries,
I need someone to believe there are no lies.
I just want someone to see,
Who's this person that's really me???
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