hey so yea i have been going to swimming at school i only have bikinis tho which isnt bad but yea dustin gave me his swim shorts to wear cus he didnt want me to have to much skin plus i didnt wanna feel so naked which i didnt but yea i just wanted to wear his shorts lol i love wearing his close so yea. but yea swimming i love it and i misscarried so i am not pregnant nemore which sucks me and dustin were really looking forward to it we miss it so much right now and i have been crying for days and he has been crying off and on but yea its from this chick who gutted me its sumone dustin was friends with but he hasnt seen her for 2 yrs now she is back to ruin his life and she knew i was pregnant. and yea now dustin is pist off he wants to kill her so bad they are in life a huge speech fight right now and he wants her to come to the schol monday so he can hurt her. he is pist off that she was beating me up there ididnt wanna move cus i was trying to keep my tummy safe so i took the beatings. but yea it was cus hte day b4 i kicked her ass for trying to beat me up and monday if i see her again i will kick her ass like i did the other day. but yea dustin is at work now he is trying to get everything out of his mind but its not working cus the only reason why he wanted a job was to buy me things which i told him i dont want him to buy me nething and also to take care of me and the baby but now he has the job for me this is the 3rd baby i lost and once again it was a girl me and him both wanted 3 kids 2 girls and a boy. the first time my mom forced me to abort it the second one i had taken sleeping pills. like i didnt know i was pregnant then and i have these seizers and everytime i get one i have to take a sleeping pill to control the seizers. i get seizers from when my dad used to beat me up but that was when i was a baby i dont see him i never knew him really. but yea so i lost it cus of the sleeping pills like afteri took it was bleeding and it wasnt my time and i wuldnt stop so i went to the doc and i found out there. yea so yesterday me and dustin are offically married yay i am so happy about that we are going ot have a second marriage after high school with everyone there our friends and faimly and all that. but i am not feeling so good so i am going to go now ttyl bye