but, a problem has presented itself... i don't know what the fuck i want to do. i have so much shit swirling around at the moment, i don't know what piece to pick up, or if i should start TOTALLY from scratch. AGH!
no clue. not one clue in hell. so much shit. so much shit floating. it's odd. i'm so bereft of fucking ideas, half-assed schemes that i don't know what to do. i'm lost, and there's no grounding stone to grab ahold of. i have so much, in the very basic stages of planning i could go anywhere. and i mean basic like, just... maybe even, just a theme. a breed of character (like angels), or anything. i could do anything.... grr! i could always do a very rough draft of Right Hand of God :// A Story of Things to Come and on that note; i'm done with this. i need to add a title or two to my possibilities list. snerge.
adios ~ Chris
"to write is to think, to think is to create, and to create is to be god. let's be holy, if only for a second."
1o.2o.o3
goddamnit! i don't know. i just don't know. err... back to the drawing table, i suppose... :(
Mucho Dinero,
"To write is to think, to think is to create, to create is to be god. Let's be holy, if only for a second..."
1o.2o.o3 [Part Deux]
lalalaaa,
"To write is to think, to think is to create, to create is to be god. Let's be holy, if only for a second..."
1o.22.o3
1o.24.o3
okay... soo, i think i'm gonna go with Creep: Conditional Constant... and make it like a sideshow type story. but, that'd be kinda hard and require mucho research. hmph! damnit! fucholes! or maybe Cleanse well, maybe i could take the idea of Cleanse, and put it with the title Creep: Conditional Constant ... 'eh, who knows? i still have eleven days to decide. i just like the look and... feel of C:CC ... it has a spiffiness to it that none of the other titles do.
Chris
oh fuck! i just realized ~ if i'm this stressed, and it hasn't even begun.... i'm gonna fucking kill myself by November... fuckfuckffuccfuckfuck
Chris
Goodbye, you lizard scum!!!
thank you and have a nice day. i decided on a title, plot, and gave a very rough draft of the first chapter. yum. too bad everything else seems to be going to shit. in life, that is... but whatever. i'm just overanalyzing everything. as i do. it's all good, 'eh? so be it. so fucking be it.
'eh... i'm gone. have fun.
Chris
well, guess what, folks! it looks like i'm plotless again, damnit. i've decided that the plot i was planning on doing, well, it's turned to shit, and i'm not going to fucking bother with it anymore. so, back to the goddamned drawing board. but i am keeping the title. i like it. no lie. although, i may still keep the Arizona Bay element of the plot... just not the "misspent, angsty youth with an urge to hijack nuclear weapons bit...." and, i'm probably going to flip some of the characters around... hmph... gotta think... FUCK!
Chris
"to write is to think. to think is to create. to create is to be god. let's be holy, if only for a second."