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A Dedication To You From Me

Artist: Boyz II Men Song: On Bended Knee Added by: webmaster Date: 2002-01-17 18:24:05 Darlin' I, I can't explain Where did we lose our way Girl it's drivin' me insane And I know I just need one more chance To prove my love to you If you come back to me I'll guarantee That I'll never let you go... CHORUS: Can we go back to the days our love was strong Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong Can sombody tell me how you get things back The way they used to be Oh god give me a reason I'm down on bended knee I'll never walk again, until you come back to me I'm down on bended knee So many nights I dream of you Holding my pillow tight I know that I don't need to be alone When I open up my eyes To face reality Every moment without you It feels like eternity I'll begging you, begging you come back to me CHORUS: Can we go back to the days our love was strong Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong Can sombody tell me how you get things back THe way they used to be Oh god give me a reason I'm down on bended knee I'll never walk again, until you come back to me I'm down on bended knee (Baby, Im sorry. Please forgive me for all the wrong I'll done. Please come back home girl. I know you can no longer trust in me, I'm sorry to let you down. Please forgive me girl.) Gonna swallow my pride Say I'm sorry Stop pointing fingers, the blame is on me I want a new life And i want it with you If you feel the same Don't ever let it go You gotta believe, in the spirit of love It can tell many things We won't hurt any more No I don't believe our love's terminal I'm down on my knees, begging you please Come home... CHORUS: Can we go back to the days our love was strong Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong Can sombody tell me how you get things back THe way they used to be Oh god give me a reason I'm down on bended knee I'll never walk again, until you come back to me I'm down on bended knee

Gloria, You have not read this yet, I just want to let out a few, not bad things, I know how hard it must have been for you to leave OHIO. Maybe it is what you wanted. I know I can't change a thing about where you and I are. I want you to know that as I was working on your site tonight the thought occured to me that maybe you don't know where I am coming from. I know there was only one year between you and I in age. I know you and dad hated eachother for some reason. I also know that I could have went with you and family services would have kept us together. But Gloria, did you ever stop and think that mom kept me out of school, she tried to put me in a school for retarded people. When you and dad had your disagreements, I never understood them. When you left for foster care the first time I never really understood what was happening. I WAS TOTALLY IGNORANT to what was happening. I didn't know that the ultimate outcome was that we would be permenently separated from dad nor did I know that dad would later betray me and abondon me as he did you. I just want to say,,,I didn't have a clue what was really happening. I knew you went away but you'd be back. when you came back, and then dad decided to sign that permenent surrender on you and I. I was so terrified that I wouldn't see eigther of you agian, I look back and wish I could go back and know what ever it was that you knew back then that made you strong made you understand, why you weren't scared. I'd like to know some of these things, and mostly want you to know I DID NOT UNDERSTAND what was going on. I was in slow learners to 4th grade, I went into normal classes my fith grade year, and it was the hardest year, everyone made fun of me and mocked me. They hated me because I was so much further behind them in class. I had to take speech Gloria, special reading classes,,,just to learn how to read, not to mention comprehension. It took me five years to get to the point of being able to "fit in with the other kids" My grades went up in 9th grade, so if you really think about it. when you were twelve and I was eleven, technically my MENTAL capacity was that of about a 6-7 year old. It was hard and a major struggle to learn and do good. So if there are reasons in the back of you head, maybe buried deep down inside your subconscience about maybe the fact that your sister abondoned you,,,well maybe you should re-think that thought. Heck you were buying me birthday gifts, sending me cards, and letters, I never did this, that was before you left ohio does this tell you anything,,,do you remember a friend I hung out with that lived close to that tabby girl-friend of yours, her name was debbie Montgomery,,,She was and to this day I see her, mentally retarded,,,,SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND.....I am just asking you to think about the reasons that you are choosing to forget me not call not write, ect especially with the technology today,,,There is a reason, I think I deseve an answer, I am still somewhat slow, not as slow, but yes I am and I am learning you quick lately, I am soul searching like never before. I need some answers...I also want you to know that when I went into foster care and up for adoption at the same time I was 13 about a year older than you were when you went up for adoption,,,that I called family services, and you know I ASKED TO go back to BOB and SUE's, dad didn't make that call. I just hated him at the time and wanted away from him like you but,,,,nearly 3 yrs later which confirms how much further behind you I was to you....Gloria You and I are the only BLOOD that is left as far as the possibility of salvaging what we can...I have a foster family too, I love them very much, However have never encouraged me to forget you, stay away from you ect... til lately and it is because they see the anger, grief, lonliness, resentment, and the hurt,,,,they want me happy and with out resolution with you they know I won't be happy,,,,everyone I know,,,best friend, todds friends, todd's family and my councelor all tell me to forget you because that is what you have done. I can't accept this,,,I try but it is hard. I want to .... what ever it is TALK TO ME,,Trips to Texas arent' out of my way to see you if I knew that is what you wanted and I know you could make the effort to come here. ...We could work this misunderstaning out....gotta go.LISTEN TO THE SONG