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My Thoughts Page

This is where I post profound (translation:any) thoughts and predictions I have.

Some people think that if they do something bad and they acknowledge karma, they are exempt from karma.

It's wierd how an entire year can be summed up in a candle.

Darker, more gothic techno will become popular. Well maybe not, but it would be cool.

At first it matters what you look like on the outside, and if that works, then it matters what you look like on the inside.

It takes longer to come to respect someone than it does to come to despise someone.

People who talk too slowly doubt themselves, and people who talk too quickly doubt others.

I need a lot of sleep.

Strong minds can support the burdens of life, but weak minds will crumble under their own weight.

Events happen constantly but life happens in moments.

Calculus was the only class that made me feel dumber walking out than walking in. Probably b/c I slept through it half the time.

Look meek and be preyed upon by the desparate.

Love cannot be planned.

When you don't know someone you play truth and when you know someone you play dare.

Genius is insight and foresight.

Al Gore screwed himself over in the presidential debates.

Big people sleep less

The Lifecycle of Release - Kids act however they want whenever they want and have no responsibilities. They are in a state of constant release. Teens supress their feelings and have a few small responsibilities. They release by rebelling, which is a somewhat-constant act. Their release consists of periodic, conscious acts of rebellion, followed by the unconcious rebellion that comes with living day-to-day as a "rebel". Adults have many responsibilities and they suppress their feelings all week. To release, they party with total inhibition on the weekends. People's total need to act out is the same through life - only the supression/release patterns change. The model doesn't really apply to old people, though. They can do whatever they want but really aren't able to do anything drastic (like destroying things for fun, which would be the step after crazy partying). I think it's key to minimize suppression throughout your life so you can avoid blowing up and hurting someone, or becoming old too quickly - that is to become unable to act out.

I don't understand manipulative/doublespeaking/exploiting/hateful/egocentric/close-minded/party-obsessed/power hungry politicians.

It's too hard to remember what I think long enough to put it on this site so you'll just have to go on without my infinite wisdom and loveable sarcasm being served up frequently.

*Vulgarity warning* I wonder how much it hurts to have a baby. It must hurt a lot because when I have diarrhea, it hurts pretty bad.

What if your name was Paige Turner? Who cares?

If you do well in class, the teacher will like you more.

Rules for college.

1. Do your homework

2. Don't be stupid

3. Do whatever else you want

If I ever start teaching, I'm going to have a kid first.

Fred Durst - The other white meat.

Why do blind people tend to lift their heads up? Is it because they're straining to hear better or because our heads are naturally held up high, but people who can see are just used to looking at the ground?

College - Boot Camp for your life?

Hollywood people are fake. Your only image of them is their outer appearance, but when the press tries to find out what they’re really like as people, many of them get defensive or private. They keep their true natures hidden in case you don’t like what they really are and stop adoring them and/or giving them your money. I think that’s why Hollywood couples are always breaking up and getting together – they see someone for the image they project on screen, but when they eventually uncover the person’s real character, it’s not what they were expecting. I wish everyone would realize that they’re just actors, not role models, and that people should quit being obsessed with facades. I wish they’d stop living vicariously through E! and People magazine and Entertainment Tonight and get on with their own, real lives.

The other day my Dad told me life basically consisted of meeting people, sharing experiences with them, and then moving on. After 11 years of living in Vail, CO, he is now leaving with fewer friends than he had after living there just a year. Is this method of moving on the cause of his isloation? Or is Vail just full of snobs? I guess we'll see how things go down in Florida.

A Few That Aren't My Own

A real friend is someone who is there for you when he would rather be somewhere else.

It's easy to sit there and say you'd like to have more money. And I guess that's what I like about it. It's easy. Just sitting there, rocking back and forth, wanting that money.

It takes a big man to cry, but it takes a bigger man to laugh at that man.

I can picture in my mind a world without war, a world without hate. And I can picture us attacking that world, because they'd never expect it. (This is a joke people.)

If you go flying back through time and you see somebody else flying forward into the future, it's probably best to avoid eye contact.

Instead of a trap door, what about a trap window? The guy looks out it, and if he leans too far, he falls out. Wait. I guess that's like a regular window.

If you're a cowboy and you're dragging a guy behind your horse, I bet it would really make you mad if you looked back and the guy was reading a magazine.

I wish I had a dollar for every time I spent a dollar.

Why do they put Braille on the number pads of drive-through bank machines?

How do they get a deer to cross at that yellow road sign?

If it's tourist season, why can't we shoot them?

Why do they sterilize the needles for lethal injections?

Do they have reserved parking for non-handicap people at the Special Olympics?

When it rains, why don't sheep shrink?

If one synchronized swimmer drowns, do the rest have to drown too?

...and Now Back To Your Regularly Scheduled Thoughts

Further evidence of how good it feels to crawl into bed at the end of the day - where do some of the best parent/child conversations occur? When the kid's getting tucked in at bedtime and feels most secure.

A relative of mine was kind of drunk and he was talking about what’s gonna happen when it all falls apart. He said that your neighbors are going to turn on you and you’d better have guns if you want to keep your butter. I felt like saying something to him along the following lines, but my mom was doing a good job of it already. I thought if you fear your neighbors becoming hostile in a crisis, the fear may be unfounded or it may not be. (He’s from Texas, so it probably is founded). However, if your neighbors fear you becoming hostile in a crisis they are founded in that belief. If you eliminate fear and just trust each other, then there’s no reason to become hostile. If you both want food, then you could sell your guns and work together to grow more food, instead of just putting resources into keeping what you already have. The benefits of trust in place of fear are evident in everyday life. At a stoplight, we trust others to follow the rules and we trust the highway department to have signs that won’t cause accidents. If we stop trusting and start fearing what will happen if such-and-such happens, then we will panic. This will lead us to put our mental resources into identifying and solving what-if disaster scenarios, thereby taking our attention off the road and leading us to become less focused, more dangerous drivers. This is only one example of the benefits of trusting vs. fearing. If it all does come crashing down, then people like me may be killed by people like my relative, but he will also turn on his own kind if he starts to find them untrustworthy, while those of us who trust each other will survive and thrive together while those who fear continue killing each other for individual gain. In short fear = panic = bad, and trust = cooperation = good. Like the man said, “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” I think it was FDR.

My big and little toes are autonomous, but the middle three are basically tied together. Is my family line moving towards or away from webbed feet?

Why do I feel a sense of guilt whenever I so much as look at a black person I don't already know.

Some good movies that kept me thinking about them after the credits rolled - Magnolia, The Ring, Donnie Darko, Akira, Cool Hand Luke, Dogma, Bowling for Columbine,...I can't remember every movie I've ever seen.

Kurt Cobain = Jim Morrison re-incarnated. Who's next?

I dislike being treated like a fool. I hate being played for a fool.

I’m not a person who keeps score. Not because I'm not vengful, but because it's too hard to remember specific instances that make you hate a person. It's must easier just to have an overall disdain towards someone.

I fear for kids watching MTV and being influenced by it, but I fear even more for the people around them. Acutally this goes for TV in general, but especially MTV.

Growing up - creating your own destiny.

I paid for a haircut (at Great Clips) for the first time in a long time a few weeks back. They charged me $13 for 20 minutes of work. Everything was good except for the sideburns, which they left somewhat unkempt. I looked in the mirror recently to find them starting to cover the ear in the part between the main hair and the sideburn. The little diagonally-facing piece of hair. It occured to me that seeing this unkemptness would cause a person to want to fix it (i.e. get a haircut). If you don't trust yourself with scissors/a razor, then what better place to go to take care of the problem than back to Great Clips? They work it so someone with hair growth like mine will come back within a month. That adds up to $156 dollars a year in sideburn-kempting expenses. Wily. Or maybe the barb- ... uh, stylist ... just wasn't good at cutting hair.

Computer gaming - my own brand of self-destructive fun. Some drink, some smoke, some BASE-jump. I play Warcraft.

Anyone who calls themselves a playa is bringing down the hate.

On my door is a sign that reads:

Sleep before Games

Running before Sleep

Friends before Running

School before Friends

Work before School

My new priorities, from last to first, are thus: Comfort, Body, Heart, Mind, Future (or wallet)

I have lectured others on the dangers of smoking and often thought that not getting cancer at 40 was a undisputedly worthwhile exchange for going through a period of discomfort during withdrawl upon quitting. It left me perplexed as to why anyone would continue to smoke. Then I saw that any flaw in the way you live or in your personality that has a long-term affect on your life is the same as any chemical addiction. In order to change your ways, you must recognize the impact the flaw will have on your future. This may be hard to do. You must keep in mind that actions become habits, habits become values, and so on. The little things you do every day determine who you are. If you only smoke one cig a day b/c you think that's not very harmful, that's what you're going to be doing your whole life. And it will catch up with you. For me, the addiction is distraction. My lifestyle provides me with a large number of distractions (computer, guitar, friends, exercise), so I'm horrible at getting things done before they're due. As a result of this procrastination, my work has suffered. I've rarely been punished for turning in subpar work, as is evidenced in my grades. The reason for this is that my less-than-optimized output has always been good enough. I find A's and B's acceptable, as does the person who pays my tuition. What I've been failing to see up till now is how the constant procrastination will determine the way I work in the real world, where a performance appraisal results in a far more important outcome than a letter. So, I have posted the above sign on my door in a hopes that it will be an effective reminder that I must ignore distractions and grow up and get down to business.

Unprovoked acts of kindness, at a minimum, deserve reactionary acts of kindness in return.

Sometimes the reason adults get worked up about kids being exposed to adult material (e.g. violence and sex) is not because the kids can't handle it - they often can. It's that the adults themselves can't handle it, so they assume the kids really can't handle it. Kids are resilient and as long as their values are somewhat in place, they'll be able to take inappropriate behavior for what it is - not cool or fun, but inappropriate.

One dumb thing about racism is that for every bit of hate a racist directs towards a minority, the national majority directs an order of magnitude more hate toward that person. The catch is that racists don't care that they are the objects of more hate than their targets are, because racism thrives on hate. It seems like the racists win if we hate them. So we have to refrain from hating them. And that's what blows. They force us to work to change their minds in a peaceful, objective manner - i.e. the hard way - while they get to act recklessly and with furvent emotion. An effective, and possibly gratifying, solution would be genocide (gratifying if I didn't have to watch it). But, if were in a non-racist national minority in an alternate reality, I would not want the racists committing genocide to take care of me. So we have to slog it out and take the freaking high-road. I hate that. Sometimes I wish society was homogenized so there were no embedded problems that needed fixing, but took generations to eradicate. I guess it's good that I hate the idea of racism being a reality than the actual racists themselves. Why did I have to leave Vail and become exposed to this crap?

If rich countries eliminated all their trade barriers, the ranks of the global poor would shrink by more than 270 million over 15 years, estimates CGD Senior Fellow William Cline.

I kind of wish I'd picked a college major that was more about asking questions than answering them.

It doesn't have to mean anything. It just has to sound like it means something.

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