Aren't lives choices supposed to be made by the person who has to deal with them? That's what I always thought. When I was a little girl, I was like most little girls. I wanted to grow up, get a job, marry someone I love, have a big ol' wedding, then have a huge family and everything would be picture perfect right? Yeah, that's what I thought too.

But that's not going to happen. It never will. For my choices have been made for me. I have to abide by them. There is no way I can back down. No way at all. If you were me, you'd probably just pity me and walk away. But I don't need your pity. I need some sanity but no pity. Pity will get me nowhere.

Of course, sanity will get me no where also. What if all your choices were made by someone you loved dearly? Someone you thought loved you back. No matter how hard I would try to fight back, it will get me nowhere. Nowhere at all. Oh how I wish I could be a normal girl with her fairy tale life.

But like I said, I never will. I will never have the opportunity you all have. You are all lucky people to make your choices. So for those of you who have a hard time making your choices and complain that their too hard, think of me. For I will never be able to make those choices.