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"Lift
up the self by the Self
and
don't let the self droop down
for
the Self is the self's only friend
and
the self is the Self's only foe."
-- Bhagavad Gita, Chapter 6, Verse 5
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That said, don't take
yourself, or anything else, too seriously.
The word
Divine
means "relating to, emanating from, or having the nature of, a deity."
A Deity is defined as "A god or goddess." And finally, a God
is called "a being of supernatural power or attributes, believed in and
worshipped by a people; something that is worshipped and idealized."
Deities have been percieved in many ways since the concept originated (which
probably would have been around at least five or six thousand years ago
in the Mesopotamian valley, by my layman's estimate), from the capricious
super-humans of Greek myth, to the all-encompassing patriarchal
god of Judeo-Christian myth -- which is the predominant image of Deity
today, and has gone through many changes in and of itself, from a wrathful
and jealous Old Testament god, to the loving and beneficient Sacrificed
God of the New Testament. But today's dominant concept of Deity --
aside from being mostly masculine and thus supporting and even enforcing
the unhealthy and unbalanced patriarchy (read
His
Story by Nicholas Mann) -- is not only limited, but somewhat
warped.
God is seen as an inconceivable
and incomprehensible being beyond all known laws, and therefore, it would
seem, He is best not even thought about rationally. He is the lawgiver
and the punisher to whom all must answer, not here and now, but on some
distant and vaguely-conceived Judgement Day, or at soonest a post-mortem
afterlife. We are given laws and restrictions, and we are not to
question them, for we are not meant to understand the divine regulations
on human behavior. We are only to obey...blindly, and without question,
and this passive and mindless servitude is called "faith," and is highly
regarded as a most desirable quality in a person. No wonder these
congregations are so often referred to as "flocks" of Sheep who are tended
by a Shepherd.
We in the Church of Self
are (in the previously mentioned allegory) the Wolves, or at least we strive
to be as Wolflike as we can. To us, Deity is not found in some discarnate
and separate Shepherd whom we follow blindly and rely on for guidance.
Deity is found within us, in the hunger that drives us and the wisdom we
have found in the past, in the joy of running and mating, in the pride
we feel as powerful and competent creatures. Like wolves, we humans
are indeed social creatures, but that does not mean that it should be necessary
for us to meld our identities into a greater mass-self, and adore that
jumbled abstraction as the supreme Deity. It means only that it is
in our nature to work and live with others, that we naturally adhere to
some form of social structure, and that many of our feats result from the
cooperation of individuals.
The Deity is not in some
distant Heaven, awaiting mindless or emotion-driven servitude and shame.
The Deity is within the Self, and though the location of the Self cannot
be pinpointed physically (if it even exists as such -- as discussed in
The
Mind's I by Douglas R. Hofstadter), we all know "where" that
is in a non-physical sense.
PANTHEISM
This interpretation of
the Holy Bible's opening words is, from what I have studied of the translations
and languages, more accurate than the commonly accepted version.
The word Elohim is not, as is thought by most, the Hebrew word for
"God" (singular), but is actually plural -- "the Gods". Or more accurately,
"the Shining Lords". The early nomadic and pastoral Hebrews were
not monotheistic, believing that there was only one Deity in existance;
instead they were henotheistic, meaning they believed that many
Deities existed, but only worshipped one of the many -- the god of their
land, Yahweh of the solar desert. They
believed in many other Deities; such as the fire-god Baal,
the nightlord Moloch, and the fertility-goddess
Astarte
of of the agricultural goddess-worshippers in Canaan, and also the bull-god
El of the agricultural peoples Lebanon (near
Mt.Hermon).
The Church of Self supports
conceptual
polytheism, in the sense that it is often helpful or preferable for a worshipper
to conceive of the Divine Self as having many aspects, such as the five
deities of Celtic neo-paganism. But to call this viewpoint "polytheism"
is misleading, since technically the belief in multiple and separate Deities
would contradict the fundamental theory of the Divine Self; the Church
of Self does not support the belief that, in addition or exclusion of the
Divine Self, there are Deities that are completely unconnected to the Divine
Self. This may seem like a contradiction, due to the fact that the
Church of Self acknowledges that every person has a Divine Self -- and
thus is, in a sense, a Deity -- and it may seem therefore that the only
way the Church of Self has to avoid inconsistancy is to claim that all
Divine Selves are indeed the same Divine Self, thus supporting the very
mass-self, individuality-obliterating mindset that it claims to oppose
so vehemently. But -- and you knew there would be a "but", didn't
you? -- the saving grace in this matter is that, since there is no evidence
that any entity but the self exists, from the perspective of any given
self, all concepts of Deity which might be claimed to co-exist with the
Divine Self can only be regarded as theoretical, at best (see Descartes'
Meditations on First Philosophy, for his sceptical
view of perception).
Therefore, "pantheism"
is a better term -- the belief that, in its way, everything is divine.
EVIL
The concept of evil has
been much changed over the past one or two thousand years, and for the
worse. In Persian Zoroastrianism, Ahriman
was not a malicious and fearful dark deity, but simply the darker face
of God, the part of reality that held misfortune and disaster. Much
of the structure of Judaism, and therefore Christianity, was borrowed from
Zoroastrianism; but even in early Judaism, satan was only a title,
a position among the servants of God -- with ha-satan meaning literally
"the adversary", an angel who tests the faith of mortals. There were
many angels who held the title of satan, and it was not seen as
a remotely bad thing, though these angelic questioners could certainly
put a hapless mortal through the ringer with their soul-searching questions
and intense investigations. It was not until much later that transcendental
patriarchy of Christianity decided that it needed to create a dichotomy,
a great "evil" for the servants of "good" to fight against. Thus
was created, for the New Testament and the new spirituality, the myth of
the Angelic Rebellion and the subsequent Fall. The decadence, greed,
and malicious oppression of Imperial Rome was much-used as a symbol this
new Evil, to the extent that Sammael, a satan and the Angelic Prince
of Rome, was declared to have become one of the Lords of Hell after The
Fall. It is interesting to note that the same intolerance and hypocrisy,
of which the rebellious early Christians accused Rome, is a stereotype
now commonly applied to Christianity itself, especially after the hysteria
of the Inquisitions only a few centuries ago. And, at the risk of
encouraging the reactionary anti-Catholics, I would remind the reader that
the current center of the orthodox non-reformed Christian Church is in
Rome.
In any case, it was only
to serve the interests of an eager new dogma of utopia-seeking and
self-denial that the concet of Evil as a separate and embodied personal
force, was created. The Church of Self does not acknowledge the existence
of Evil in the third sense, with the capital E -- that of "an evil force
or power." Certainly, there is evil in the world, if by evil
one means misfortune, destruction, suffering, injury. This is in
fact something that must be acknowledged in order to overcome the transcendental
midset of the current paradigm; transcendentalism (in Christianity, for
example) teaches one to focus on some perfect Afterlife that will come
some time later, if one has managed to become worthy. This focus
on Heaven necessitates a certain ignorance of the more negative aspects
of cold, hard reality. Recognizing suffering as a natural and unavoidable
aspect of reality frees one from the delusion that somewhere, sometime,
everything will be Perfect; it also frees one from the need to create a
(non-existant) Satanic scapegoat and thus dualize reality into a false
dichotomy of opposition, as well as externalize their negative reactions
to these natural occurances. In less complex, layman's terms, we
have developed an addiction to funneling all the unpleasant things in reality
into a mythical Devil, a personal being whom we can hate and "fight against".
This makes it easier for us to deal with misfortune.
My point with all this
apparent errata is that, through acknowledging the natural place of misfortune
in the cycle of existance, one finds that there is no need for the baggage
and delusion of this ancient dichotomy. There is no Evil, no Archfiend
ruling in hell...the only dark god we need fear is the cthonic shadow-side
of the Divine Self, and we only need fear that if we are denying
it, or making it into something unhealthy.
MAGICK & PATHWORKING
There is magick in the
world. Are you tired of hearing that? On thousands of cartoons
and sentimental movies, inside too too many New Age paperbacks, on the
bumpers of neo-pagan housewives...it's everywhere. A sort of vague,
nearly desperate reassurance that this world is more than bills and schedules
and politics as usual. If you look hard enough, you can find "magickal
societies", and practitioners of "the Art" just about everywhere.
I once spoke with a waiter at Denny's who noticed some books I was carrying
and began to tell me about how he was a Druid, and how his daughter was
being taught by a renowned High Priestess up by the reservoir. And
perhaps they are doing valid, meaningful work. But there is the chance,
however slim, that they are filling their minds and their time with things
no more substantial or effective than lighting some candles and waving
a dagger around.
There is magick in the
world. But for you to accept that, we must first more clearly define
what magick is, in this context...or, perhaps first, what it is not.
RITUAL
Ritual is only useful
in some forms, when practiced knowledgeably and practically. Otherwise,
it is a meaningless clutter of gestures, words, and other actions, a delusion
to convince oneself that change is being created.
STYLE
"Style" is really just
a matter of aesthetic and personal choice. I personally have chosen
the Celtic style, for its sense of beauty, mystery, and mythology ... (quote
from His Story, p.??)
If that was all too complex and poorly-communicated, e-mail
me and I will explain it.
KNOWN
DEITIES
Nathan James Graham (Peregrine)
Shannon Leigh Miller (Meriadoc)
Brenda Michelle Blight (Silwen)
Sarah Michelle David (Ramina)
POSSIBLE
DEITIES
Julia
Wilder (Kyrie)
FIGHT
MASS RULE
DISCOURAGE
SELFLESSNESS
AND
MINDLESSNESS
THE
SEEKERS OF OBLIVION
FIGHT
REPRESSION
OF
NATURAL BEING: Sex, Death, Pain...
OPPOSE
THE DEFINITION
OF
VALUE THROUGH LABOR
SABBATS
Right now the Church
of Self has chosen to structure its primary celebrations along the annual
solar parade of the Equinoxes and Solstices. I will also be coordinating
gatherings for the White Sabbats, which include Samhuine, Imbolg, Bealtane,
and Lughnasadh. Descriptions of these festivals can be found on my
Wheel
of the Year page, once I post my writings there, and my Sabbat
Pages. Most of these gatherings basically consist of drum-circles,
feasting, and whatever merry-making seems appropriate, and any use of cycles
or myths for progressing and manifesting oneSelf during these times can
be done alone or with the support of others. Any member of the Church
of Self is welcome after contacting me to announce their intent to attend,
and after a brief series of screening conversations, for personal security.
The White Sabbats are primarily personal gatherings of friends and members
of my Clan, while the "Green" Sabbats -- the Equinoxes and Solstices --
are smaller but more symbolic and more strongly related to the Church of
Self. This is partially because these holidays are common to nearly
every cultural paradigm and do not give the impression of favoritism for
one culture over another.
DRUM-CIRCLES
& ESBATS
I am attempting to gather
a drum-circle for one night of every week in which the Lady Moon grows
full...if anyone out there in web-crawler land wants to join us at a circle
somewhere in Colorado (or perhaps nearby in a neighboring state), please
contact
me. A good drum-circle should consist of trance-inducing rhythm,
mellow but solid people, a bit of food and drink, maybe some dancing, and
only moderate amounts of mild drugs for those who wish them. It is
a celebration of sound, of sensuality -- the reality of the sweat of our
bodies and the resonance of the air around us, the support of the earth
beneath us that is our one world and a massive home to each and every one
of us who are children of dust. From the rhythm rises the the child
of the soul, and into the rhythm dies the ancestor of the heart.
Drums of good quality
can be made if one has the skill, but if not, they can be purchased for
anywhere from $100 to $300. Good places to look include Renaissance
Festivals, Earth Day celebrations, cultural specialty stores (Nepal-Tibet,
for example), music shops in college towns, and some "Head Shops"...some
coffeeshops are hosting drumcircles occasionally, but problems often arise
due to health regulations and the fact that drum-circles don't really attract
consumers, instead drawing bohemian and often Not Rich folk. If you
know of any drum-circles in your area, attend one or two -- it'll blow
your mind, there's way more to most of them than you might think.
And if you can provide them with a place to kick off their shoes and beat
out rhythms into the night, then please do so.
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