a simple dream-
to love
i'm not in love
or am i?
i don't even know
for all the hell
i bring on me
scared to let go now
for fear it might
go bad
always waiting
holding out
for something better
but better never comes
there is no better
i can only make the best
of what it is i have
and what i have
is wonderful
like nothing else
i've ever had
and i know it's good
i know it's great
i just can't let go
my shield is still up
i can't bring myself
to run on pure emotion
that was long ago
and i can't let that
happen anymore
but i don't want
to live in fear
all my life
spend every waking hour
suspicious of the other
what's a lie?
what's the truth?
what's the difference?
i'm not sure
i know anymore
it's all the same to me
i'm cold now
and i fear
i can't warm up
to my dream
my simple dream...
...to love