i don't want to fall
into a trap i fell
in once before
but
lately it just seems
that falling is
the thing to do
i never thought
i'd come to this
recalling my life's
grand mistake
letting go
my unbloomed flower
watching blossom
unfold
untouched
and now i wonder
when it's fully
bloomed...
now i wonder
can i pick it up?
will untrimmed thorns
puncture me
my soul
and draw blood?
will petals
drenched in fire
burn me
or be cool to touch?
this beautiful bud
i want so desperately
i have to pick it up
for i'm the one
who dropped it
i did not know
then
what lovely flames
that might arise
and now in
their warm glow
i find my comfort
so now i'm scared
to pick it up
but even moreso
should someone else
come by
remove this
beautiful flower
from me...
and so it must be mine.