Session Start: Tue Jul 07 23:59:23 1998
DCC Chat session
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Client: fixxxer1 (207.150.72.24)
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<Renee> hi
23:59] <fixxxer1> ummm
[23:59] <fixxxer1> hi
[23:59] <fixxxer1> so...
[23:59] <fixxxer1> did i surprise u
<Renee> kinda
<Renee> i was talking to someone
[0:00] <fixxxer1> oh
[0:00] <fixxxer1> what do u want me to do 
[0:00] <fixxxer1> go away
<Renee> nope, didn't say that
[0:00] <fixxxer1> what do u want
[0:01] <fixxxer1> so 
[0:01] <fixxxer1> u
[0:01] <fixxxer1> r 
[0:01] <fixxxer1> not mad
<Renee> i couldn't care less either way
[0:01] <fixxxer1> do you want to talk to me 
<Renee> you have a long way to go to prove you're worth my time anymore nick
[0:02] <fixxxer1> ok
<Renee> you think at all about what you've done?
[0:03] <fixxxer1> its been a pretty lonley month 
<Renee> yeah i can imagine
[0:04] <fixxxer1> now becky is talking to me
<Renee> that's nice
[0:05] <fixxxer1> you know what renee
<Renee> what?
[0:05] <fixxxer1> I have friends at my job now
[0:05] <fixxxer1> girls to
<Renee> good for you
[0:05] <fixxxer1> yeah
<Renee> that's great nick
[0:05] <fixxxer1> you can make fun of me if you want
<Renee> do they know what you're really like though?
<Renee> nooooo
[0:06] <fixxxer1> you can tease me and ask if they are taking drug tests to be my friend
<Renee> i'm not being sarcastic
<Renee> are they?
[0:06] <fixxxer1> no
<Renee> ok
[0:07] <fixxxer1> stephanie is so nice to me 
[0:07] <fixxxer1> brandi is to
[0:07] <fixxxer1> kerri
<Renee> do they do anything you dont approve of?
[0:07] <fixxxer1> and all the guys think i'm cool to
[0:07] <fixxxer1> no
<Renee> good! i know you can be a good person if you wanna
[0:07] <fixxxer1> they are decent humans who dont mess up there bodies 
[0:07] <fixxxer1> they dont wanna fail and mess up there bodies and die 
<Renee> ahhh
<Renee> so you're better than me
[0:08] <fixxxer1> now becky claims she quit drugs
<Renee> and i'm a failure in your book?
[0:08] <fixxxer1> whatever
<Renee> she's been clean for 31 days
[0:08] <fixxxer1> you fail to take care of your on self
<Renee> i take care of myself
[0:09] <fixxxer1> u fuck up your body
<Renee> my body is FINE
<Renee> and my MIND is fine
<Renee> i am NOT fucking twisted
<Renee> i'm not racist
<Renee> or homophobic
[0:09] <fixxxer1> your bodies not fine 
[0:09] <fixxxer1> it can't b
<Renee> and i do not fantasize of causing people m=pain
<Renee> why can't it be?
<Renee> you need to grow up nick
[0:10] <fixxxer1> i'm not a doctor but i know its not possible
<Renee> you know nothing
<Renee> you're completely clueless
<Renee> i dunno if that's your fault or your rents
[0:10] <fixxxer1> your gonna pay
[0:10] <fixxxer1> someday you'll die for your fucking drinking problems!
[0:10] <fixxxer1> bitch!
[0:11] <fixxxer1> ok listen to this renee
[0:11] <fixxxer1> someday
[0:11] <fixxxer1> heaven forbid u have kids
* Renee laughs
[0:11] <fixxxer1> what if they are clean
[0:11] <fixxxer1> like me
[0:11] <fixxxer1> when they are like 12
<Renee> you really wanna give me more to add to my page nick?
<Renee> then GREAT for them
[0:11] <fixxxer1> FUCK YOU RENEE 
[0:11] <fixxxer1> WHO'S GONNA READ IT!
<Renee> ummm
[0:11] <fixxxer1> NO ONE cares bout me anymore!
[0:11] <fixxxer1> no one!
<Renee> i had over a hundred hits in 4 days
<Renee> ummm, nick?
<Renee> people actually still care
<Renee> believve it or not
<Renee> -v
[0:12] <fixxxer1> i have nothing to lose though!
<Renee> so because you've ruined your friendship, you say fuck the world instead of trying to work on your problems?
[0:13] <fixxxer1> if you have kids are you gonna want them to associate with kids who do drugs and drink?!?!?!?IF SO AT WHAT AGES?!?!?!?
<Renee> ummm
[0:13] <fixxxer1> come on renee
<Renee> if and when i have kids, i will teach them how to responsibly make their own decisions
<Renee> do i do drugs nick?
[0:14] <fixxxer1> what ages
[0:14] <fixxxer1> no
[0:14] <fixxxer1> but your kids will
[0:14] <fixxxer1> if you dont fuck up
<Renee> and do i associate with people who do?
[0:14] <fixxxer1> yeah
[0:14] <fixxxer1> you talk to becky!
<Renee> and jesse
<Renee> and my BROTHER
<Renee> and lotsa people
<Renee> but that doesn't mean i have to do them
[0:15] <fixxxer1> yeah
[0:15] <fixxxer1> so
[0:15] <fixxxer1> its still wrong 
[0:15] <fixxxer1> for u
<Renee> and i don't criticize them for their decisions
[0:15] <fixxxer1> ok fine your gonna let your kids hang out with kids like that lol
<Renee> and they don't criticize me
[0:15] <fixxxer1> i doubt it
<Renee> it depends on the other kids i guess
[0:16] <fixxxer1> trust me
[0:16] <fixxxer1> either you won't care
<Renee> if the kids are pushing my children to do something they dont want to do, then no
[0:16] <fixxxer1> or you will care and they will be like me
<Renee> bullshit nick
[0:16] <fixxxer1> liek your fucking parents didn't care about your sorry ass!
<Renee> my children will NEVER be like you
* Renee laughs at you
<Renee> whatever nick
[0:17] <fixxxer1> hahah
<Renee> you're the one with the mental problem not me
[0:17] <fixxxer1> if you hadn't done all that drinking shit you'd maybe have a real job by now!
[0:17] <fixxxer1> bitch!
[0:17] <fixxxer1> and i'm enrolled in college ahhahahah
[0:17] <fixxxer1> u suck!
* Renee laughs
<Renee> i'm a junior
<Renee> what's your point?
[0:18] <fixxxer1> what?!?!?!
[0:18] <fixxxer1> your not going to school
<Renee> my class starts tuesday
* Renee laughs
[0:19] <fixxxer1> who the hell did u skip to juniior?
[0:19] <fixxxer1> how the hell i mean
<Renee> i've been in school nick
<Renee> actually, i'm 1 credit from being a junior
<Renee> i have 59 college credits so far
[0:21] <fixxxer1> u never told me
* Renee shrugs
<Renee> it's not important
[0:21] <fixxxer1> whatever
[0:21] <fixxxer1> its our future
<Renee> mine
<Renee> not OUR
[0:22] <fixxxer1> well u now what i mean
<Renee> yep
[0:22] <fixxxer1> colllege is my future and yors
<Renee> well..
[0:22] <fixxxer1> u fuck off if your gonna put me down
<Renee> can you honestly say you are happy with your life nick?
[0:22] <fixxxer1> i may have a gf soon
[0:22] <fixxxer1> !
[0:22] <fixxxer1> *grins*
<Renee> good for you
<Renee> have you gotten the mental help you need?
[0:23] <fixxxer1> no
[0:23] <fixxxer1> have u gotten help for your drinking
<Renee> then i pity her :(
[0:23] <fixxxer1> noooooo
<Renee> i have no drinking problem nick *laugh*
[0:24] <fixxxer1> oh whatever
<Renee> do your parents take communion at church?
[0:24] <fixxxer1> lol
[0:24] <fixxxer1> yeah
[0:24] <fixxxer1> why
[0:24] <fixxxer1> oh fuck off renee
<Renee> ALCOHOLICS!!!!!
[0:24] <fixxxer1> yeah i know its wine
<Renee> omg!
[0:24] <fixxxer1> u bitch
<Renee> they deserve to die huh?
[0:24] <fixxxer1> fuck offf renee 
* Renee shakes her head
[0:24] <fixxxer1> that is stupid
[0:25] <fixxxer1> i've had it you can't taste shit
<Renee> so is everything you've said
<Renee> so???
[0:25] <fixxxer1> its watered down i used to be an alter boy
<Renee> just cuz you can't taste it means it's ok?
[0:25] <fixxxer1> i was a kid forced to go to church
[0:25] <fixxxer1> all i went up there for was the bread cuz it tasted good
[0:25] <fixxxer1> i haven't been in YEARS
<Renee> we had good bread too *lol*
[0:26] <fixxxer1> yeah
[0:26] <fixxxer1> sure miss that but thats ALL i miss i hate church
<Renee> maybe cuz it was forced on you
<Renee> who knows
[0:27] <fixxxer1> yeah
[0:27] <fixxxer1> and everyone there teased me
[0:27] <fixxxer1> the ohter kids
<Renee> that sucks
[0:27] <fixxxer1> yeah renee see
[0:27] <fixxxer1> see
[0:27] <fixxxer1> \!]
[0:27] <fixxxer1> no one would talk to me
<Renee> but you can't blame them for your choices
<Renee> that kind of experience shoulda made you a better person
<Renee> more accepting to others who may be different
[0:29] <fixxxer1> well no
[0:29] <fixxxer1> i can't accept anyone 
<Renee> i noticed
[0:29] <fixxxer1> everyone hates me
<Renee> that's what's wrong
<Renee> nobody hated you til you trashed them nick
<Renee> not your frineds anyways
<Renee> angie, becky, me, jesse
<Renee> we all cared about you
[0:30] <fixxxer1> but
[0:31] <fixxxer1> your not understanding
[0:31] <fixxxer1> i just can't b friends
<Renee> why?
<Renee> everyone in the world is different nick
[0:31] <fixxxer1> cuz
<Renee> in one way or another
[0:31] <fixxxer1> i got teased for being diffrent cuz i'm greek and shit
[0:32] <fixxxer1> course when i was at church everyone was greek there but i was still diffrent
[0:32] <fixxxer1> i dont know why i'm just damn ugly
<Renee> i'm short
[0:33] <fixxxer1> shit
[0:33] <fixxxer1> i'm SHORT for a guy
<Renee> and smarted than average (geek)
<Renee> and i got teased and stuff
<Renee> but i got over it
[0:34] <fixxxer1> no one cares about girls being short
[0:34] <fixxxer1> I like shorter girls
[0:34] <fixxxer1> i dont like taller girls
<Renee> but that's you
[0:34] <fixxxer1> stephanie is taller then me damn it
<Renee> my best friend was 5'7"
[0:34] <fixxxer1> otherwise i'd go out with her....
<Renee> gorgeous
<Renee> awesome body, etc
[0:34] <fixxxer1> yeah but i'm tall and skinny to
<Renee> but she didn't like me less because i WASNT
[0:35] <fixxxer1> i have muscle but its not fantastic just good for my frame
[0:35] <fixxxer1> well thats cuz she is a girl
<Renee> nope
[0:35] <fixxxer1> i mean opposite sexes 
<Renee> that's cuz she's decent
[0:35] <fixxxer1> unless u really r a lessbian
<Renee> no i'm not, but that's beside the point
[0:36] <fixxxer1> lol
[0:36] <fixxxer1> i dont make guy friends based on looks lol
[0:37] <fixxxer1> just sucks that stephanie is taller then me.....
<Renee> you make female friends based on looks?
[0:37] <fixxxer1> girlfriends
[0:37] <fixxxer1> i dont have female friends
<Renee> why's that?
[0:37] <fixxxer1> stephanie is the first friend i've had 
[0:38] <fixxxer1> female friend
[0:38] <fixxxer1> we both have a crush on someone else at the store
[0:38] <fixxxer1> and we are gonna try and hook eachother up
[0:38] <fixxxer1> she likes this guy who works night crew 
[0:38] <fixxxer1> i like this girl thats a cashier
<Renee> but wait
<Renee> you just said you don't have female friends
<Renee> do you like her based on her looks?
[0:39] <fixxxer1> i haven't before
<Renee> oh
[0:39] <fixxxer1> well
[0:39] <fixxxer1> i'd go out with stephanie *grins* it just sucks she's taller thne me...
[0:39] <fixxxer1> she's sooooo nice to me she even said she loves me today!
<Renee> hmmm
[0:39] <fixxxer1> i mean i'd feel so damn stupid being with her
<Renee> so you'll only be friends with girls that look good enough to go out with?
[0:39] <fixxxer1> cuz i'm so damn short...
[0:40] <fixxxer1> i dont know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[0:40] <fixxxer1> its the first time i've even had a girl that was nice 2 me 
<Renee> no it aint
<Renee> that chick at your other job was nice to you
[0:41] <fixxxer1> yeah but i was wanting to go out wiht her
[0:41] <fixxxer1> bad lol
<Renee> i know
<Renee> i gotta question for ya...
<Renee> are you trying to be friends with me? sharing all this stuff?
[0:41] <fixxxer1> i dont know
[0:41] <fixxxer1> i just need someone to talk to
[0:42] <fixxxer1> i'm bored
<Renee> because i drink, therefore i can't be your friend
[0:42] <fixxxer1> if i'm harrassing u then fine
[0:42] <fixxxer1> i have nothing else to do 
* Renee shrugs
<Renee> i couldn't care less either way
<Renee> you know what?
[0:43] <fixxxer1> what
<Renee> it's strange, cuz most people still pity you...your lack of reality and decency
<Renee> not too many people actually HATE you
[0:43] <fixxxer1> decency?!?!?!
<Renee> we all think it's sad really
[0:43] <fixxxer1> i'm decent 
<Renee> you are NOT decent
<Renee> decency includes not gay-bashing, or being racist
[0:44] <fixxxer1> oh come on
<Renee> come on NOTHING
<Renee> the klan is not decent
<Renee> the nazi's are not decent
<Renee> the black panthers are not decent
[0:45] <fixxxer1> so
[0:45] <fixxxer1> i dont do any of that stuff irl
[0:45] <fixxxer1> i have black friends!
[0:45] <fixxxer1> woody,tyronne
[0:46] <fixxxer1> tasha
<Renee> anyone who bases judgement on another person solely by the color of they're skin is sick and sad
<Renee> tasha
<Renee> sounds female
<Renee> would you date her?
[0:46] <fixxxer1> lol
[0:46] <fixxxer1> she was tyrones girlfrined!
<Renee> if she wasn't
[0:47] <fixxxer1> no!
[0:47] <fixxxer1> she was cute and all
<Renee> why not?
[0:47] <fixxxer1> if u date some black guy i'm gonna laugh 
<Renee> why?
[0:47] <fixxxer1> when he comes and slices your throat off
<Renee> i dated a black guy once
[0:47] <fixxxer1> ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
[0:47] <fixxxer1> wtf!!!!!!!!!
<Renee> oh my fucking lord
[0:48] <fixxxer1> he's gonna come after you
[0:48] <fixxxer1> like OJ lol
* Renee laughs hysterically
<Renee> you are fucking sick in the head
[0:48] <fixxxer1> you only did it cuz u were do drunk probably
[0:48] <fixxxer1> so
<Renee> nope
<Renee> i was sober
<Renee> hmmm
[0:48] <fixxxer1> what if u had had kids with im on accident..jsut what iff...lol
[0:48] <fixxxer1> u'd have black kids 
<Renee> i need to find your black friends and let em know what you think of them
<Renee> so?
[0:48] <fixxxer1> no
[0:49] <fixxxer1> i dont approve on interracial 
<Renee> what's wrong with being black?
[0:49] <fixxxer1> any!
[0:49] <fixxxer1> nothing
<Renee> why not?
[0:49] <fixxxer1> interracial
[0:49] <fixxxer1> is sick
<Renee> why?
[0:49] <fixxxer1> cuz
[0:49] <fixxxer1> less white chicks for me lol
<Renee> we're all interracial nick
[0:49] <fixxxer1> lol
[0:49] <fixxxer1> i'm 100% greek
<Renee> and ummm
<Renee> every ancester before your rents?
[0:50] <fixxxer1> tyronne said inter racial stuff is sick
<Renee> and is stephanie 100% greek?
[0:50] <fixxxer1> lol
[0:50] <fixxxer1> no
<Renee> that's interracial
[0:50] <fixxxer1> my family is though
[0:50] <fixxxer1> nooooo
<Renee> so becky should only date hispanics?
[0:50] <fixxxer1> look i have black friends and they stick to their race cuz its so nasty and stuff
[0:51] <fixxxer1> yeah
* Renee laughs
<Renee> did your parents make you this stupid?
[0:51] <fixxxer1> yeah
<Renee> they shoulda never had children then
* Renee shakes her head
[0:52] <fixxxer1> whatever
[0:53] <fixxxer1> u threaten me
<Renee> i've never threatened you
[0:53] <fixxxer1> i have a point of view that interracial stuff is nasty and i have lots of friends black and white who think the same thing
<Renee> but you condemn others for their views
<Renee> and that's just plain stupid...like saying you had an opinion the earth is flat
[0:54] <fixxxer1> thats because they are messing up society by abusing drugs
<Renee> who is?
<Renee> i am?
<Renee> 90% of the population is?
[0:54] <fixxxer1> liquir is a drug
<Renee> yes it is
[0:55] <fixxxer1> so instead of saying liquir/drugs
<Renee> therefore90-95% of the population of the US is ruining things
[0:55] <fixxxer1> i say drugs it saves me time
[0:55] <fixxxer1> i doubt its that much
[0:55] <fixxxer1> i work in a grocery store
<Renee> i don't
[0:55] <fixxxer1> yes i see people buying shit
[0:56] <fixxxer1> so sad they should all be beaten to death
[0:56] <fixxxer1> but no no....i see lots of people NOT buying that
[0:56] <fixxxer1> you can buy PEPSI or something else i mean come on!
<Renee> who's stupid enough to buy at a grocery store?
[0:57] <fixxxer1> why???
[0:57] <fixxxer1> where do u buy it.
[0:57] <fixxxer1> oh yeah
[0:57] <fixxxer1> your job
[0:57] <fixxxer1> *duh* i forgot
<Renee> hell no
<Renee> i don't buy 3.2 beer
<Renee> it's called a liquor store
[0:58] <fixxxer1> oh
[0:58] <fixxxer1> i dont know bout that 3.2 stuff or whatever
<Renee> nm, dont worry bout it
[0:59] <fixxxer1> why can't u drink pepsi!
[0:59] <fixxxer1> why
<Renee> i do
[0:59] <fixxxer1> its awesome i love pepsi
<Renee> but i also like beer
<Renee> and some liquors
<Renee> and wine coolers
[1:00] <fixxxer1> cuz of what your friends do
[1:00] <fixxxer1> and cuz your parents didn't raise you right!
<Renee> nope
* Renee laughs at you
<Renee> i'm mentally stable
[1:01] <fixxxer1> if your parents had raised u right you wouldn't have broken the law!
<Renee> and emotionally stable
[1:01] <fixxxer1> not when your drunk!
[1:01] <fixxxer1> bitch
<Renee> do you speed nick?????
[1:01] <fixxxer1> *grins*
<Renee> ever?
<Renee> that's breaking the law
[1:02] <fixxxer1> oh no not me i dont speed
[1:02] <fixxxer1> lol
[1:02] <fixxxer1> course i do
[1:02] <fixxxer1> so who wouldn't with my car
[1:02] <fixxxer1> and my parents did raise me right!
[1:02] <fixxxer1> they think i drive slow
[1:03] <fixxxer1> your parents didn't care if you died from drinking to much did they
<Renee> my parents knew i wasn't stupid
<Renee> i dont drink and drive
<Renee> i dont drink in excess to where it could be unhealthy
[1:04] <fixxxer1> oh whatever
[1:05] <fixxxer1> why cuz your a wimp
<Renee> because i'm not stupid
[1:06] <fixxxer1> cuase you know its harmful for you in the first place!
<Renee> so is breathing
<Renee> do you eat meat?
<Renee> that's harmful
<Renee> have you ever had a suntan?
<Renee> that's harmful
<Renee> your ignorance amazes me, it truly does
[1:08] <fixxxer1> i dont tan
[1:08] <fixxxer1> i'm already tan
[1:08] <fixxxer1> remember
[1:10] <fixxxer1> damn u
<Renee> oh
[1:11] <fixxxer1> renee
[1:11] <fixxxer1> u want me to go away again
<Renee> it doesn't matter nick
<Renee> nothing i say seems to help
<Renee> you are a disturbed little boy, and there's nothing more i can do for you
[1:13] <fixxxer1> i'm finally trying to get a social life
[1:13] <fixxxer1> irl
[1:13] <fixxxer1> since i dont have any online friends anymore
<Renee> good for you
<Renee> i hope you're nothing like irl what you are here
[1:14] <fixxxer1> i'm not
<Renee> because your ignorance is frightening
<Renee> here that is
[1:15] <fixxxer1> i know
[1:15] <fixxxer1> but
[1:16] <fixxxer1> you can't possible say you will be happy and proud of you kid if he is a drug addict somday?!??!?!
[1:16] <fixxxer1> my kid will be outta the house in 1 second if i dont shoot him first!
<Renee> nope i cant
<Renee> but i would be just as upset or worse if my kid was a racist pig
[1:19] <fixxxer1> lol yeah but if your kids racist you wouldnt know it and he can keep it to himself 
<Renee> same thing with alcoholism or drug addiction
[1:20] <fixxxer1> it will kill u renee!
<Renee> but alcoholics at least only harm themselves, they don't drag people for miles behind cars
[1:21] <fixxxer1> and it costs u money
[1:21] <fixxxer1> ohh lol
<Renee> so will your racism one day
[1:21] <fixxxer1> that dude 
[1:21] <fixxxer1> oh whatever
[1:22] <fixxxer1> would u kick your kid outta the house if it was a drug addict
[1:22] <fixxxer1> cuz if they kids under age its your ass that gets busted if he's busted
<Renee> no i wouldnt
<Renee> i'd get my kid help
[1:23] <fixxxer1> why?!?!?!? u use a drug to and u didn't get help
<Renee> i'm not addicted
<Renee> there's a difference
<Renee> but your too stupid to understand that
[1:24] <fixxxer1> if u were smart u wouldn't touch the shit in the first place
<Renee> do you eat french fries?
<Renee> ever had sweet n low?
[1:25] <fixxxer1> french fries lol hell yeah
[1:25] <fixxxer1> sweet and low no i dont drink coffe thats nasty 
[1:26] <fixxxer1> i dont like the tastte
<Renee> frenchfries will give you a heart attack
[1:27] <fixxxer1> lol
[1:27] <fixxxer1> i can't help it 
[1:27] <fixxxer1> i'm starving i can't help it
* Renee shakes her hear
<Renee> head even
[1:28] <fixxxer1> so
[1:28] <fixxxer1> its not illegal
[1:28] <fixxxer1> why do u think u have to be 21 to drink
[1:28] <fixxxer1> my physics teacher at school was 56
[1:28] <fixxxer1> he told our whole class u should have to be 50 to drink
[1:29] <fixxxer1> he drinks but he said no one under 50 is smart enough to
<Renee> whatever
* Renee laughs
[1:29] <fixxxer1> i'm just sayin what mr. bell said
<Renee> his opinion i guess
[1:31] <fixxxer1> his experiences!
[1:31] <fixxxer1> admit it
[1:31] <fixxxer1> u could be something 
[1:31] <fixxxer1> if u had stayed clean
[1:31] <fixxxer1> i'll be a junior when i'm like 22 or something
[1:31] <fixxxer1> not old like u 
[1:31] <fixxxer1> but course u were to drunk at my age to know shit!
<Renee> nick
<Renee> i had WAY better grades than you
<Renee> i'm WAY smarted than you
[1:32] <fixxxer1> then why are u 25 or whatever working in a gas station
<Renee> i graduated with a 3.8, and a 4.0 from the hs i graduated from
[1:32] <fixxxer1> so i had a 3.1
<Renee> it's money, and i haven't decided a career route yet
[1:33] <fixxxer1> oh sure
[1:33] <fixxxer1> u wont admist
[1:33] <fixxxer1> admit
[1:33] <fixxxer1> u fucked up your life by drinking
* Renee laughs
<Renee> you're so STUPID it's pathetic ya know that?
[1:35] <fixxxer1> why am i stupid i know my brains not gonna mess up on me cuz i never drank
<Renee> nick, your brain is already fucked up
<Renee> you're beyond hope i think
[1:36] <fixxxer1> why
[1:36] <fixxxer1> cuz i am diffrent from u
<Renee> no
<Renee> because of the way you treat people
<Renee> and criticize
[1:38] <fixxxer1> what about when people do it to me
<Renee> you know nothing about me nick, nor do you know anything about the real world
<Renee> ahhh, that makes it all ok
[1:38] <fixxxer1> someday u will b sorry
[1:39] <fixxxer1> when your kids are dead!
* Renee shakes her head
<Renee> are you done?
[1:40] <fixxxer1> yeah
[1:40] <fixxxer1> someday some guys gonna turn u down cuz of your drinking
[1:40] <fixxxer1> then u will b sorry
<Renee> no nick
<Renee> i wont be
[1:40] <fixxxer1> girls turn me down for the opposite reason why not do it to u
<Renee> if a guy turned me down for that reason, it'd be his loss
[1:41] <fixxxer1> yeah right u'd wish u hadn't chosen sucha bad life style
[1:42] <fixxxer1> how old r u gonna want your kids to drink
<Renee> my lifestyle is GREAT
<Renee> i love my life
<Renee> and I, unlike you, have a date Friday
[1:44] <fixxxer1> fuck u
[1:44] <fixxxer1> thats not fair renee
<Renee> lol
<Renee> no thanks
<Renee> dinner and wine
<Renee> Mmmmm
[1:44] <fixxxer1> u can't say that shit to me ok
<Renee> why can't i?
[1:44] <fixxxer1> fuck yourself
[1:44] <fixxxer1> its nto fair
* Renee laughs
[1:44] <fixxxer1> it hurts me
<Renee> oh it isn't?
[1:45] <fixxxer1> i get off at 7:00 on friday
[1:45] <fixxxer1> maybe....i will
<Renee> you call me an alcoholic trash bitch and I'm not fair?
[1:46] <fixxxer1> i may have a date if i can ask traci out...stephanie is gonna talk to her for me i found out they are freinds!
<Renee> ahhh, how nice for you
[1:47] <fixxxer1> i'm trying 
[1:47] <fixxxer1> i wanna b normal and have a date and for once i may
<Renee> nick...
<Renee> you need a LOT more than a date to be normal
<Renee> THERAPY
[1:48] <fixxxer1> shutup
[1:48] <fixxxer1> i trusted u when i told you all that stuff..
[1:49] <fixxxer1> i really opened myself up i trusted u so much
[1:49] <fixxxer1> u promised me renee
<Renee> not just the rape shit nick
<Renee> EVERYTHING
[1:50] <fixxxer1> k
[1:51] <fixxxer1> well anyways i just pray this time a girl will like me
[1:51] <fixxxer1> god i hope so....
[1:51] <fixxxer1> please....
[1:51] <fixxxer1> u dont understand how hard it has been
<Renee> you can't pray nick
<Renee> you have no one to pray to
[1:51] <fixxxer1> i know its a figure of speech
[1:52] <fixxxer1> and neither do u bitch
<Renee> sure i do
<Renee> I have Jesus Christ, my Lord :)
[1:54] <fixxxer1> lmfao!!!!!!!!!!!1
[1:54] <fixxxer1> u suck
<Renee> think what you want
[1:54] <fixxxer1> christians suck
[1:54] <fixxxer1> u dont go to church lol
<Renee> your opinion means nothing to me nick
[1:55] <fixxxer1> u pray lol 
[1:56] <fixxxer1> thats a waste if there ever was one
[1:56] <fixxxer1> u know it
[1:56] <fixxxer1> your a waste of gods time anyway
<Renee> what would you know about my God?
[1:57] <fixxxer1> awwwww i really offended u didnt i
<Renee> not at all
[1:57] <fixxxer1> i know some stuff bout god i used to have to go to church lol
[1:57] <fixxxer1> i haven't gone in years since i got my job i never go anymore
<Renee> like i said, i couldn't care less what you say
[1:57] <fixxxer1> u dont go!
<Renee> what does church have to do with it?
[1:58] <fixxxer1> ok
[1:58] <fixxxer1> so u believe in ummm  all that religion stuff and u actually pray  
<Renee> i don't believe in "all that religion stuff"
<Renee> i have my beliefs though
<Renee> and I do pray
[1:59] <fixxxer1> ohhh
[1:59] <fixxxer1> i live in oklahoma
[1:59] <fixxxer1> i'm sick and tired of all this religion bullshit
<Renee> but once again, i dont push my beliefs on others
[2:00] <fixxxer1> haha
[2:00] <fixxxer1> u push your beleifs of inter racial stuff being ok
[2:00] <fixxxer1> and that drinking is cool
<Renee> nah
<Renee> i never ONCE said drinking was cool
<Renee> and i said discrimination is sick
[2:01] <fixxxer1> drinking is sick
<Renee> brb
* Renee laughs
<Renee> you wouldn't know
<Renee> brb
[2:02] <fixxxer1> i know it is sick
[2:03] <fixxxer1> u wouldnt know if discrimintion is sick unless u see what i see at my school
<Renee> and what would that be?
[2:04] <fixxxer1> u dont understand
[2:04] <fixxxer1> kids i've known since elementry
[2:04] <fixxxer1> just totally gone
[2:04] <fixxxer1> fucked up so bad
<Renee> that's bad
[2:05] <fixxxer1> yeah its bad!
<Renee> and alcohol and drug ABuse are bad
[2:06] <fixxxer1> yeah everyone....they all changed so much i'm still the same as i was since elementry
<Renee> life is about change nick
[2:07] <fixxxer1> its not a change 4 the better
<Renee> it can be
[2:08] <fixxxer1> how
<Renee> you grow and learn
<Renee> become a better person through experience
[2:09] <fixxxer1> by drinkin
[2:10] <fixxxer1> i'm gonna go damn it its late
[2:11] <fixxxer1> i'm gonna try and ask that girl out......
<Renee> good luck and God bless
<Renee> maybe one day you'll realize how sad you really are and change it
[2:11] <fixxxer1> change what....
<Renee> your line of thinking, your hatred and ignorance
[2:12] <fixxxer1> its all i ever get from others.
<Renee> bullshit
<Renee> i never EVER did that to you
<Renee> before all this shit started
<Renee> nor did becky
<Renee> or angie
<Renee> or Jess
<Renee> or Nikki
<Renee> or Jesse
[2:13] <fixxxer1> the list goes on i know
[2:13] <fixxxer1> i lost everything
<Renee> you can CHANGE nick
<Renee> but we can't do it for you
[2:14] <fixxxer1> bye
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DCC session closed
Session Close: Wed Jul 08 02:15:18 1998