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Apr.24,2003
br> Hey it's me I know it's been awhile since I have updated but you know how it is, I am constanly busy with things. Ok I don't know how many people have had things happen to you but if it's been something bad I am sorry to hear that. Ok now for something that just confuses me, how can someone be mad at me for not liking someone I just don't want to get to know because I knew when I first saw them that I wasn't going to want to get to know them, does that make sense to anyone. It doesn't to me, but you know what oh well I am going to just stop trying to figure things out and just work on having a life with no problems. Well anyways Later and if you think I should add some stuff to my site let me know and I'll probably do it I have plenty of room.

Mar.25,2003

Ok this takes precedent over anything that follows this plea and confession. Ok I have problems with my Christianity I need help there are times I am a lvl 5 or 6 Christian and then I go to a lvl 1 where it seems like God isn't even there, I don't want to be like that anymore. I want to be a lvl 6 but I would settle for being a lvl 5 because then I could be the man I wanted to be. But I can't do it alone I need the people who read this site to help me, becuase I am weak I am easily tempted and I tend not to think about the reprcussions of what I do sometimes. So I am begging you from the bottom of my beating heart to help me. I will do my best to get to the lvl of 6 but I know I will need help on the way, so please just be there to help me.



I need to adress a few things that I find really important to me. One is the fact people complain not just certain people but eveyone, we just place the blame on one person most of the time, you know what that is wrong. I am ashamed of myself becuase of what I have done to that person and what I have said to her sometimes. I know last night I did my fair share of complaining to my boy and one of my close friends.
The sencond thing I need to adress is the fact of cliques, I don't know where some of you people get the fact that there are cliques in the youth group, in my opinion it's the fact that people hang out with who they feel most comfortable with. The people I haven't hung out with, I'm sorry for that, but I don't feel comfortable when I around you, I feel like I can't be myself, but that just may be me being paraniod.


Ok now for something I have felt really strong about...Red you have hurt me so much but no matter what I still find good things about you so I don't know about what to do anymore. You have tried to be there for me, and I have tried to be there for you, but how can I be there for you when it seems to me like you don't want me to be there at times. I have done so much for you that I don't feel right when I am around you.




Ok this is something I just heard on tv and you know what it makes me think about lot of things, you know how I am always saying that men are jerks and are stupid and I will admit to that eveytime. I just realized that sometimes I am stupid by saying that other guys are stupid. I take back all the things I have said like that, I can't speak for the rest of man kind. But I know that when it comes to girls I am stupid, I will never learn what I really need to know and I will never figure out who I really want to figure out. The one I want to figure out more than anything I think doesn't really care. I really want to try and figure you out but your not helping me out by leading me somewhere and then just kinda leaving me there with no answers. Like the whole superficial reasons for not dating me you left me there trying to figure out why you just gave me those reasons. But you know what screw it I am done trying to figure you out.

Mar.17,2003

Ok I may have said somethings last night that pissed someone I care for off, but you know what your actions and attitude lately have pissed me off and alot of people that care about you off. I told you last night that you weren't stupid but your actions and attitude were. Another thing I pointed out it that you don't listen or you hear what you want that is going to get you hurt in the long run, you know better than neone if you get hurt I will be there before neone but you have to think before you say and do things I am begging you from the bottom of my heart to just stop and think about your past actions, some of your present actions, and what may happen in the future from those actions. I know my bro pissed you and your guy off but you know what the only thing I can say is don't try something stupid.

I told you last night I was mad at you and I still kinda am but I did not get a good night's for the first time in good month because all I could think about is how I pissed you off and I did not mean to but what did you want me to do hold it in and let it eat me alive. I don't think you do, but you know what I don't know what you want nemore namely because we never talk to each other any more and if we do it's because you are complaing to me about something, I am not a real big fan of what has happened to us over the last few months, but when we talk I want to talk like we used to, not just about the bad things which lately is all I have heard about. Well if you want to talk you know how to find me.
Ok I need to add something I just read my bro's site and Red he is right about a few things, you think your parents are being harsh they have nothing on what I would do what brad said is the begining but I would have done so much more. I honestly thought you had respect for your parents but with the way you have been acting lately I don't know if you have respect for anyone but your self, this may sound like I am saying your selfish and you can take it how you want, but you have to stop and think. I agree with brad to start the thinking process you might have to piss people off. You started my thinking process a long time ago when you told you you wanted to date my bro. The person that gave me the most hope was Bobo he told me that it probably wouldn't last, and to be honest that is what I was putting my faith in. But everynight I still had to stay up and think about what I was doing to you, I wasn't showing you the respect you deserved, and I was and still am sorry. But back to your parents they love you with all their hearts and so does everyone in the youth they are just pissed that you are making some bad decision's, I can't really speak for them but I think that is what is going on. You know how I feel and all of that but once again like I have done for the last 6 or 7 months is I am begging you to think about what you are doing, and also to just reconsider somethings.

oh and Erin I hope you feel better soon, and John I am praying for your aunt I pray that she gets better soon and you will be able to help your family through this tough time you are a strong man physically, mentally, and spiritually so just hang in ther ok if you need me for nething call my cell, erin should have the number if she doesn't call jeff, or just im me my screen name is Kameccolo10.

Mar.16,2003

Ok so there is no confusion if you know me I am going to use the nicknames I have given everyone. Number one Red you've kinda pissed me off royaly and I hate to say it, but you have, I figure I will get this out in the open instead of holding it in until I finally explode, you royaly pissed me off by dating someone 3 years younger than you and you told me that you would feel weird if we dated because I am 3 years older than you, I mean for crying out loud that kid has to ask his mom if he can go out and play. That pisses me off royaly, it makes me think of you as nothing but superficial and if that is too big of a word for you I will make it simple for you the only thing you care about is looks and material items. And the whole thing of coming to JP3's and the first thing you do is complain about the hair of all 3 of us yeah it's not your head so lay off. I am really tired of all the complaining in the youth group. This weekend was perfect till I heard about all the complaining that just shot my weekend all to hell.

Nunmber 2. All the Arab jokes just flat out piss me off to no ends I am not a f-ing arab, if I hear one more comment about me being arab I am going to go off on someone and it won't be pretty I don't care if you mean it as a joke I take it quite personally as if I don't get enough comments about me being black I am not going to put up with arab comments I am just as pissed about 9/11 as anyone else.

Number 3. When me and my bro invite people to do something we invite you not your friends because we haven't cleared it with the person that lets us do something at their place. When I am trying to watch a good movie I don't want to see a cell phone light come on every 5 min when I have add and am trying to see new things that I missed the first time I saw the movie I don't want a cell phone light coming on.

I care for Red alot but some of the things she is doing lately are pissing me off to the point I don't care what she does she can't cry on my shoulder because of her own stupid actions and I won't go into them for confiditiality reasons. But you know what if you want to know more call my cell phone I'll let you know what else I think you should know if it concerns you.

Number 4. Grover your family rocks and I love hangin out at your house your rents are probably some of the coolest in the world.


Mar.15,2003

Ok I am going to sum it up like this a few things pretty much pissed me off this weekend. I won't go into the details but I am going to say that it pisses me off. Don't get me wrong I have a sense of humor but a few of the jokes just kinda get boring all the time. I don't want to hear complaining from people about not being invited to nething, my friend and I planned a movie party this weekend and we invited everyone we knew so there is no complaining. This is probably going to be the last thing I put on the site tonight I don't want to hear nething about people not dating people because of age no excuses. It's because of a friend and something that I was told. If it makes you mad. Lah de friggin dah. I have had alot of things make me mad over the last few months and the whole age thing is one of those things. But you know what if you want to know more you can ask me in person. Night and Sweet Dreams. Feb.20,2003

Ok today's update, it's kind of a repeat from a previous date if you can find the date let me know. And you might win a prize.
Oh yeah I have this big problem I don't know how many else of you have it but it's called girls, I like one but I can't tell her bc I don't know what would happen and I am afraid of what might possibly happen. I still like one girl and will probably always will but I am going to let things play out and try to get a life that doesn't make me think of her all the time. O well.

Feb.17,2003

ummm.....yeah I don't know what to put up tonight so if you can think of something just let me know. I have realized that talking to one person has changed drastically but other than that I don't know what to put on the site. Well bye for now I'll update again sometime.

Feb.15,2003

Been a while hasn't it. Well where do I begin? How about this I am doing better than I was a few weeks ago. So that is a plus. dobie dobie do. I was working on a couple of things that you guys might like but I decided not to bc they sucked. I wish I had something ot do sitting at home is kinda boring. I don't know what else to put up here so here you go.

Feb.1,2003

9 hours till I no longer have a job at Metro, and I am happy about it.

Jan.29,2003

This takes precident over nething that comes after it. I am so sorry about some of the things I said a few weeks ago to a certain person that I would do nething for. I just don't know what to do nemore and I was finally pushed over the edge that night. I know you never ment to do hurt me but you did. I almost hurt you which I is the last thing I would ever want to do. If I did hurt you that night you should tell me now. I dont' care how you get hold of me you can call, email, message, come out to the house if you really feel you need to(I doubt you will), but I don't care how you do it just let me know if I hurt you. Once again I am sorry for some of the things I said, and I will always be sorry for those comments. Please forgive me.


3 more day's till I have life agian. And I have realized something over the last 2 to 3 weeks, when you try not to think about something it is what you will end up thinking about. I have tried so hard to not think of certain things by trying to think of other things but it just never worked. No matter what I do to try to get my mind off of it I can't. There are times when I just want to go to sleep to stop thinking about it but I know that I will just end up thinking about it the next day. Oh well. That's life and it sucks beyond comparison at times and you just want to give up but I can tell you from personal experiences if you give up then you will get nothing done. But I think at times you should give up. But that is another story. Later.

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