Christopher Gonzalez I retired my LiveJournal account this morning. MySpace is now my only active blog. I will likely refrain from posting on Neoseeker for the rest of the day, possibly longer. I may soon begin scripting direction for the bully film as well as my long-awaited DC - “More Than a Feeling” project. I still have three DV tapes to fill and plenty time in which to fill them. Since I have eagerly anticipated beginning production on the DC film since around a year and a half ago, I will do what I can to ensure its quality throughout, certainly with more editing time and perhaps in a wider variety of locations with a few new faces performing as DC’s key characters. I hope I finally manage to complete it before I die. I also hope AOL-Time Warner permits or ignores my use of their characters. A delicious dinner diminishes desire for dessert; something to think about when you weigh the quality of your chosen occupation against that of your weekends and vacations. The overall one-sided nature of In the Presence of Fear made reading it an unpleasant experience for me. I am happy to have its assignments behind me now. This has been quite the understated birthday. Nineteen feels rather old. Not so much in a good way, either. More like I am beyond something. I hope this doesn’t come off as too morbid or anything, but I feel like I am now closer to death than birth. Dreams fail me. What is coming that is so great that I must be around to experience it? Hmm, maybe I’m just tired. Maybe I am hungry. Maybe the lowest levels of my personal pyramid just feel unfulfilled today. Maybe I will feel better tomorrow, or later tonight, or in a couple of hours. Certainly, other people have pressing matters to which they choose to devote attention on 27 June. Where was I on their birthdays? Probably attending to my own matters as well. Okay, I’m back at the computer. I stepped away for a bit because the kids outside were blasting music through their truck’s stereo system (high bass, naturally) a little to the left of my driveway. They turned it off a short while ago. Where was I? Right, birthday. Well, I guess I don’t have too much more to say about that that would interest anybody, but hey, does anybody actually read these things? I don’t know how many people are here just for their GEs, but I am sure several people by now have ditched class a few times following the breaks immediately after the attendance sheet goes around. All of the journals up on the site right now are my own. How have I gotten my document to this length so quickly, anyway? I guess I just got into the momentum of it, the swing of things. It’s like I can’t stop typing. Drat. I stopped for a moment there. Must have been reverse psychology. Okay, this doesn’t even feel like a journal entry anymore. This just feels like rambling. Does that count as journaling? Hey, maybe I ought to have added more weight to the journal section of my student contract. With HTML coding included, this document is on its third page! Well, I suppose that about wraps up this entry. I wonder how much scrolling I will have to do to get to the bottom of this when its one the site. Hmm. Well there’s only one way to find out. Take care, everybody. I’ll see you tomorrow.