Ok whuuuuutssss up? Sorry this is a little later than the end of the week I've been BUSY! There will be another one out soon to make up for it. I'm out of my groove and totally feeling a lot better than last week. It started when my friend Corey gave me the biggest hug. Corey reminds me of Todd a lot I didn't notice it the other day when we were hanging out before our Chem class. I was like "I've had a bad past 5 days I want to go home!" And he just gave me this huge massive hug I honestly could've fallen asleep while hugging him. The whole week was just a massive rollercoaster of ups and downs. I went back to the cemetery on Wednesday to visit my grandfather's grave site and I cried. I was just with my mom, you'd think that time eases the pain but it really doesn't. Plus people tended to be on my nerves, I was talking with my classmate Niki how people can suck sometimes and whatever. You know how you have those revelations where you think that you know someone really well and then they turn out to be different? I've made those discoveries about people I know, a lot of them were good though. It was easier for me to see how my friends and I get along when they stayed over on Thursday and Friday. But one experience I realized when talking to a non-classmate. I figured that since we always talked and were practically sisters that I knew her well enough and that I knew how she was. Just a little while ago though I realized that she's really not who I thought she was.
Thursday Corey gave me my hug and some of my friends came over to spend the night. We watched Death To Smoochy (funny if u like vulgarity) and Monsters Inc. and pigged out...really bad haha. We didn't sleep till about 2 Am and I woke up @ 8:15 missing some of the interview they had with Ryan. As soon as I woke I reached over to hit the VCR in a panic and turned the TV on to see Rye. Let me just tell you this, if I were older or he was younger there would be some serious game on my part. But next to the flashback of Ryan and Jason with the small bucket of pennies my favorite moment was...no not when Rye almost fell into the water...but at the very END of the performance when Matt said "See you tomorrow morning at 3 o'clock at bloomingdales!" When did the official time service make 3'o clock morning? Or when did Bloomingdales open so early? Anywho, it was a nice thing, it was cool to have my school friends there watching it w/ me too. They actually watched the tape after i taped it because they were still sleeping when I slamed the VCR onto Record. I went to leave nick a voicemail and called Dom's cell really fast to let them know they did a nice job. 5 minutes later when the whole world is awake Nick calls after I leave him a message like 10 minutes earlier saying "Well i'm gonna go back to sleep now see you tomorrow." But it was nice, if I wasn't such a mean person I'd marry him. The spot they were performing @ was 5 minutes from my old apartment. Can you imagine me going down there with my friends in our pajamas? YAH RIGHT! It's yuppie land there, wouldn't be surprised if the residents had anything to say about the "noise."
I had a really long talk with my friends how the guys are and everything. They just kinda popped up into our conversations it was really wierd. I think me talking about them with my friends was kinda cool. There was a mutual respect for everything that we were all enjoying and the guys. My friend just told me flat out that she thought I was only hanging around the guys because i was "in love with them." When she realized what the entire situation was and that I wasn't in love with them she thought it was cool haha.
I honestly think that the guys are great. I went to Bloomingdales and saw you RPCC staff. Mina and Holly were there it was SOOOO great to see them! Katie and Sara came back from college, saw them too! I almost cried, it's really emotional for me to see us all growing up. It's different but not, I was telling Katie that it's hard because i know in my mind that she's NOT in Belmont but we still see each other as often as we always has.
Ok so I bet you want to know exactly what happened dont you? Well first of all everyone and their grandmother was there...literally, the twins' grandmother was there. Meg, Amy, Tamara, Courtney, Nikki, Joy, Shawna, Sara, Katie, Dream Team...and then some were there. It was really nice to finally see everyone again. I was talking to Kris from the Dream Team with Wendy and we all agreed that there should NOT be a period time where we don't see each other! It's like we rely on the guys performances a lot for us to all see each other again. We're like one big happy family! Or something like it haha.
Anyways it was a very very very nice follow up after Friday's appearance on Mornings on 2. (But Rye looked so damn fine on Mornings On 2...I was telling Mina and Holly that I wanted to "make out" with the television...let's just hope Rye and his parents aren't reading this one...) It was a lot of fun during the performance because I've reached the point where I'll take a few pictures of the guys during their performances but I'll be talking on the side to a lot more with people. Just a note: I was HIGHLY wired. I lived off of a chocolate, kreme filled krispy kreme doughnut and a tall double shot cafe borgia ALL day. I was wired like a bomb. I was all over the place and could NOT stay still and stop shaking...even my speech and thought processes were impaired haha. I talked with Joy, Tara, and Mina during the performances, danced, sang and just had fun. It was nice release but man was I WIRED.
I was running around and after the show I stood in line and eventually Holly, Mina, and I went up and let me jsut tell you this, and I'm sure everyone else who was in line would agree with me when I say that the Bloomingdales security and personel were line nazis. The guys were hella nice about it though. Rye was first and I said "we're going to take a picture" and he was like "yeah have a seat" so the first seat I noticed was him so I sat on him...this is how wired I was...I FELL over on him. My knees completely gave out once they hit a certain angle. I wanted Holly to be in the picture too but she couldn't get in...thanks Bloomies. Mina and I did our "OMG" with Ryan and he's like "My club!" How wonderful is that, you gotta love them. We didn't have a single thing for them to sign but I think the hugs and sweet looks were worth more than anything. I really don't remember what I said at all between Matt and Nick but I remember being rushed to the end of the table and saying hi to the sweaty Todd and sitting on him. I had my arm around his neck and it was really sweaty, the whole area was really warm I felt kinda bad that they didn't have water or anything. If there's one thing that I love more than seeing Grease or Dirty Dancing for the fifty millionth time it's my Big Brother. Only Todd will I sit on and not feel wierded out by.
Speaking of Todd, Bob and Wendy were there. It was WONDERFUL seeing them again. I think seeing them and being around all of my friends bring out the more "animated" side in me. I realllllllly missed everyone. It's come to the point where I write this and have so much more to say about everyone that's impacted me along this ride than the actual guys and it's crazy.
But seriously though, the guys, are the guys. I look at them from time to time and want so much for them to be able to accomplish what they want in their careers. For a couple of weeks now Dom and I have been really in touch. I told you before how distant I felt we had gotten. I had almost gotten uncomfortable in divulging my feelings with him but more recently wrote to him about it. Lately it's been like "the old times." Where we would talk about what was going on in the outside world than in his career. We talked about the wild card race, the Giants, and me having a bad day and feeling down in the dumps. Even though it was on a 2-way meant for buisness, it felt like the old times when there was no "buisness."
I know that there's going to be a day where I'm going to look back on the experiences I've had with the guys, the ups and downs and every single spat that we've had and I'm just going to laugh. I'm going to laugh at the sad times and the good times, the way I acted and the way I responded to everything. In the future, though, Townsend's going to be one of the MANY people that impacted our own personal lives but I hope that there will be twice as much for the guys.
Stay Safe & Stay You
Love Always,
Kristen
Townsendette_Kristen@yahoo.com
xoxoxo