Hey whut's up? I'm sick and this TOTALLY sucks! Anyways i have to congratulate my little sister! Like a week ago her cheersquad named her CAPTIN! Highest in rank...I'm so proud of her! I have to admit i was disappointed when she didn't run for School Spirit (normally you become captin if you win) like I did for my 8th grade year. My 7th grade year I was Commissioner of Communications for HER 8th grade year she chose that. Instead she kinda got the best of both worlds! Her and the Co-Captin (her friend) work as leaders anyways so now I have motive to go to her games lol. Actually I always did, her last game I ran into Cliff who was actually reffing the game, I run into him and Monica's brother who are both refs for CYO basketball, the first time I almost walked past him too haha. I haven't hung out with them in FOREVER! Monica's leaving next semester for Davis so when Jon goes up Cliff will probably go with him and in turn I'll probably end up going since Jon will be with Monica the entire time. (Don't think Cliff just can't go...Jon and Cliff are like Ren and Stimpy.)
I'm JUST getting over a cold. It SUCKED! I think I got it over the internet just talking to Joe, he was sick so yeah...I blame him haha. No actually I hate it when people blame other people for something they didn't really do. I think I ran my butt into the ground the first week of school but I'm adjusting now. I've had to make A LOT of adjustments being a Junior now AND living in Daly City. I don't have a 5-minute commute anymore and instead of getting up @ 7:30 I'm up at 6 sharp. And the work over load is CRAZY. Holly and I can't get over how much work they give us. Just a word of advice to all you future juniors...GET A SYSTEM! If you don't have an organized way of life your junior year you're screwed. Sorry. I have a system of getting home and getting done things that need to be done to free up my mind of education. The other day I did a load of laundry, gardened and pruned the plants, and watered the back exterior (the interior...the back lawn is dead and we have to tear it up) and THEN got to homework and studying. I was telling Andrea that I got hooked on the DMX station (AT&T digital cable) for Contemporary Christian Music...it's kinda cool that someone can sing about love and God while incorporating really fun beats.
I've tried to juggle a lot but ended up leaving my job (for more than one reasons). Decided to not come out of retirement for coaching, and only want to act at this point. It's kinda crazy but after leaving for not wanting to sing I'm singing again, who knows maybe someday I'll have something more exciting to talk to you about. For now, let's just say that me juggling acting, singing, and probably ITS will turn my fixes to probably Saturday or Sunday installments just barely making the marker of the week, so be patient. I have gotten plenty of emails and I'm getting around to answer ALL of them. Besides you have Mina to keep you occupied.
The first year Anniversary of September 11th is approaching us. I don't want to get into depth of what actually is affecting us right now but it is important. I have to tell you that the day it happened i went to school. I didn't cry, I was so angry and so confused that my heart didn't communicate with my mind. Our school called in lock down just after the first class, it was felt necessary that being in the "heart of the city" that there was potential danger being so close to City Hall, Chinatown, Japantown, Downtown, the Warf, and bridges. We were held in our Block 9 classes till our names were called over an intercom. Luckily my mom works a block away, I heard some people didn't leave and had to eat lunch in class. You have no idea unless you lived in the city how desolate the streets were. I was in the car down Van Ness with my mom, a MAJOR street and there were NO cars. It was eerie and I still had no tears, I was angry. I didn't understand what was going on, the morning of September 10th I didn't even know what the World Trade Centers were, the next morning I did. Things became a big reality check when I was watching the news on my parents bed and saw footage of people covered in ash and one of the remaining buildings topple down into a pile of rubble. I still never cried. Until later. After the dust had settled in my mind and at Ground Zero the very thought of the date of September 11th made me want to cry. I doubted my belief system in people, I doubted the human race, at one point I even doubted my religion and just hoped that when I prayed that God had time to listen to me. Just the other day my Ethics class (like Christian morality) watched a very graphic video tape called "Faith and Doubt at Ground Zero." It replayed planes flying into buildings I once never knew the function of and people at the hundreth floor, literally, jumping out of the windows. When the buildings started to collapse, they showed the reaction of people only a block away. I bit my lower lip with my hand covering my mouth holding back every thing. I tried so hard to hold it back that my eyes began to sting and ache, I walked out of the class and saw one of my closest friend Niki crying with tears streaming down her face. Our whole class learned to accept that we're a generation that's called "The September 11th Generation." We'll probably live in plenty other generations. Hopefully, we'll never live the World War III generation, I hope no one ever has to.
Why do I say this? Why did I just completely tell you all of that? Because on the Anniversary of September 11th I'd like to open up the message forum as a place for you to remember in your own ways September 11th, share your thoughts and what's on your mind. I'll also post something I found on the internet. I got it off this message board. It's an "open letter" to terrorists from an 18 year old boy in Florida, it's one of the most powerful things I've ever read.
Moving on, kinda hard to move on after that but I'll try. Moving on, a few of you asked me what's going on with the guys since it seems like they've been in hiding. Well they're not hiding. Dom's recooperating from his knee surgery, I have no idea how he'll pull of the A*Teens, LMNT show at all but let's just hope he doesn't do anything tough. If you see Dom tell him to lay off the knee and tie him to his wheel chair or crutch. They'll come out of hiding for all of us (Yay Area whhhaaaaaaatttt woo woo!) on September 21st at Stanford. Katie and Sara are coming home from college for the guys. Okay how incredible is that? How DEDICATED is that? They're such good friends, the guys are lucky to have that because I can't think of any other groups that have that kind of friends.
The Emails have overwhelmed me, I always forget to check it and when I finally check it there's a list that I have to go through. Amy says she has a To Do list and I've resorted to having one of those too for emails for the club and out of the club. But my favorite ones are the club ones. I like hearing how hott you think Ryan is...seriously, it keeps me young haha. But seriously I want to focus on the topic of a column A LOT of you have asked about which I've recently decided I could and would write about...no not Ryan's butt...but on a side note...he has a really nice butt. And no not Ryan's eyes...but on another side note...he has really nice eyes...I hope my kids have eyes that twinkle like his....ANYWAYS! (Don't tell Ryan I said that...I'd die if he ever found out I liked his butt and his eyes and his abs...right tell him something he DOESN'T know.)
So yeah A LOT of you have talked to me about the new townsendmusic.com site. I've heard mixed things everything from, "I think it looks sooooooooooo cooool" to "When is Townsendboys.com coming back?" to "Townsendstreetteam.com is better." (Townsendstreetteam actually is pretty darn cool...go Amy!) All those emails end with "What do you think?" I normally don't answer those right away because I don't know nearly enough about the site. I site there 5 minutes waiting for the intro to load if I have a friend over that wants to see it, enter, and run out of things to look at after like 20 minutes. The message board won't let me post, and I find that even though I enter my email for updates that those updates must magically get lost in cyberspace. I normally resorted to SpunoutRecords.com since I like the other artists too but that's under construction. Now though I don't ever have time do anything but answer emails and chat so it doesn't really matter.
I can't talk about the website not because there's like secret information but because it's I honestly don't have a "thought." I'm THERE that's it. It's like eating lumpy peanut butter, the lumps are THERE but it's not like I think about it too much, I just chew and swallow my sandwhich and that's it. I think it's a good site, don't get me wrong I think it looks good. The pictures are adorable, I love that one of the guys all on Ryan...cute. But for some reason I don't feel always motivated to go and check it all the time. Maybe it's me not accepting the status that they've reached, but I also think it's because it reminds me of my attachement to the old site and other Townsend sites that seem "family owned." I think the last time I checked it was probably the week the 4 guys did a signing at West Valley Mall in Tracy.
The site has brought up questions to what the guys are becoming as entertainers. I think one email compared the site to the Backstreet Boys site or I think the NSync site. I wouldn't know since I don't keep up with those two groups nearly as much as I used to. A LOT and I mean 10 to 15 emails a lot commented on the messages from the guys. What we all can definetly gather is that the guys wrote them, look at Ryan's message...how RYAN is that? HE WRITES LIKE THIS :) AND IS THE ONLY TOWNSENDER THAT HAS HIS KEYBOARD SETTINGS PERMANENTLY LIKE THIS!!! Then Matt is just Matt, I mean Matt has his own class of writing, you have this, which talks about butts, eyes, and abs and then Matt's...oh so eloquent.
I have a fully positive outlook on their careers but once again hurdles will come through. I got a couple emails questioning Dom's particular message. Um, I'm not sure actually what he's trying to say and no I highly doubt there's any subliminal messages. I have talked with Holly a lot about their careers and how hopefull it looks and how much they can get you know? But for a long time now I''ve probably spent some sleepless nights wondering what road exactly they'll go down. In my ethics class we study making moral decisions Virtues vs. Vices and being a teenager it's "Calling mom vs. Going to see swimfan" the guys is "Original vs. Cliche." God forbid they ever give into the vice of their careers. I know that they have strong willpower but it's human nature to be tempted isn't it? They'd be made of stone if they didn't once think that it would be cool to blow some event to go spend money at the mall or something.
What worries me is the future that is slowly coming though. The website is oh so professional...almost TOO professional for a couple hometown guys who consider the best things in life to be sour strawberry belts and a good laugh. But they deserved that and the world for being so patient. Now they have a video on MTV, world's HUGEST link to the music world, it's an international BIG DEAL. And on top of that to be backed by faces in the music buisness including Carson Daly is like God standing next to the pope and sayind "Yeah Johnny's cool." But with the backing of such a known name comes expecations. It's going to become so high that they'll no longer be able to rely on how wonderful they look, their sparkling personalities and their butts, it's going to come down to whether or not people will accept a boy band, a Def Leppard re-making boy band at that. *Knock on Wood* that the world takes them with open arms, but what happens let's say hypothecially that the guys' video comes out at the same time NSync, B2K, or another group does? That will jepordize everything including crediblity.
I wote this column because i've gotten emails saying "BE REALISTIC!" So I am...but that still doesn't change the way I feel that the guys are going make it. I'm sure they will and I KNOW they can. But the question is where does everyone and the world stand you know? Food for thought...
Stay Safe & Stay You
Love Always,
Kristen
Townsendette_Kristen@yahoo.com
xoxoxo