Your Weekly Townsend Fix Column 50

Hey Everyone! Well, busy busy weekend for me. Friday I had the day off so I went to take my Mom to go see "The Sweetest Thing." Fun but man movies are expensive. Saturday, Mel had a cheerleading competition. We have our pre-performance pep-talks. Townsend IS incorperated but that's part of what's kept secret. She performed and did awesome. I was so proud of my little sister! It was worth getting up hours early. Sunday Mel had to cheerlead again. At first I didn't plan on going at all since I have had enough cheerleading for one weekend. But I went anyways. Halftime came and there was only FOUR cheerleaders...I didn't know what to expect...how were they supposed to do a dance with only FOUR cheerleaders?! Well Melanie was up for it and did part of the routine solo...I was so proud of her, I never thought she'd have the guts to do it...but she did...I'm impressed. At the game I also ran into my friend Alicia. I met her a couple of years ago waiting in line for NSync tickets, I kept seeing her after that and kept running into her. Both of us were going to high school and she introduced me to who is now my best friend in high school...how cool is that? I ran into her at the Christina Concert in 2000 while passing out buisness cards with the guys....I told her that I wanted to introduce her to them and stuff with her friends and ever since then she was a Townsend fan. I saw her again today since her sister was on the team playing and we got to talking...looks like I ran into her the right place at the right time...I'll explain more if everything works out right later. She was telling me that her friends are such big fans that they chased the twins down when they saw them driving...wow the twins are chasable...whoo hoo! On Friday I needed to wake up...I was absolutely dragging from the night before. I had been working on Melanie's student council elections posters for her and glittered...EVERYTHING. And special thanks to Holly! Gurl you are the best thanks for helping Mel and I you're awesome!!!! But in order to get up I decided to slip on the headphones to listen to a little Townsend. I ran through all the songs and just stared at the ceiling (having "ceiling moments' lol Holly). I was trying to phsyce myself up to be able to pull myself out of my warm bed. Little memories of the guys sweeped in and out of my head as I smiled to myself remembering all the special times. I remembered the time that we were all at the Christina Aguilera concert especially...that was an ordeal to remember. JSG came on and I slowed down and started thinking about how special the song was. I had a bunch of memories just racing through my mind, everything from childhood memories to the airshow to now. With their voices whispering in my ears...tears weld up in my eyes and I cried. I was alone in my apartment crying in my bed. I had tears rolling down my cheeks, but the funny thing was...I wasn't sad, i was touched. It's challenging for me to listen to the CD sometimes. For me and others there are 2 ways to listen to the CD, the first was is to listen to it as a an actual CD, sung by artists who are successful and established. The other way to listen to it is listening to it as people you know. When Todd raps, Matt sings solo, Ryan sings his lines, and you hear the twins in the background you see their face in your head, you see people you know. It's hard to figure out which way you're listening to them half the time because you're singing along and stuff but are you singing along to artists or some friends of yours? If you like their songs do you like it because the musical talent and sounds are awesome or do you like it because you know the voices behind all the work? That's the challenge a lot of the time. When I listen to it as a regular CD without the relationships in mind, I like it. I can honestly say that if I had never met them and the CD was handed to me...I'd be impressed. When I listen to it as people I know...sometimes I just bust out a gut laughing. What were the insane chances of me EVER knowing these guys. What simple twist of fate had me meet these guys. Was it the right place at the right time? Was it my destiny to ever meet them or was it a sidetrack from everything and I met them by accident? My luck is average in life...at least it was...before I met these guys I was plain jane...I was boring and had the most average way of life you could think of. Everything was routine...after Townsend...EVERYTHING changed...and so did I. I became this like hyper, talkative, more social teenager who had so much more to do than the average routine. I became more out there, more spontaneous...more...more me. Now am I laughing because I remember the time that Todd scared the daylights out of me? No, i laugh because I'm confused. How did I ever meet them, why did I meet them...how could 5 guys change the way I am, how could they mold me into a 15 year old teenager with dreams and aspirations for my future? The only aspirations I had was to go to high school, college, get a job, and live in this house with a white picket fence with a dog and lemonade on hot days. When the guys rolled in it was like a whirlwind of new things and oppertunities. Today I took in all of the things that I want to do with myself. It's wierd. I tell people like my family and I get really mixed reactions. I get the whole, "Wow that's neat" or "I hope you know it's not easy." I tell them I want to entertain, act, sing, dance, whatever fits in the category. It's hard sometimes especially to be around one of my most critical influences, my parents and sister. What they say is 100% the truth. I get nervous because I'm scared of their answer, if they give me the thumbs up I'd be so motivated, if they laughed or said "You've got to be kidding me" not only would it knock me down, it would totally discourage me. My mom sometimes doesn't quite get how serious I am. She thinks I'm kidding half the time so she kids back. It's hard for her to take me seriously half the time so when I do want her to realize stuff like this I have to make sure the point is clear. I guess what I"m trying to say is, seeing the guys defy THOUSANDS and THOUSANDS of odds make me realize that sometimes, I just need to NOT care what ANYONE thinks and just do it. Sometimes I wonder how different I may be if I hadn't had the oppertunity to meet the guys, and in effect meet a lot of you. How different would I be? Would I be the same as I am now? I get wierded out by the fact that I may have a different perspective on life and stuff because I wasn't introduced to such a variety of personalities. Of course the occasional, "What do I want to do with my life?" comes up but instead of that picket fence with lemonade on hot days, there are a lot of goals and things I want to accomplish before I settle into a average lifestyle. I get emails sometimes from fans who say that the guys brought out a new side of them and stuff, for me I try and figure out to what extent they've influenced me, and they've influenced every bit of me. That's all for now peoples...I'll be back with a column I've been working on soon. Stay Safe & Stay You Love, Kristen xoxoxo

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