Your Weekly Townsend Fix Column 43

Hey Everyone! Ok So that last column, that...well that was bad. I had it prewritten and wanted to get it out to you so I sent it. After posting that I got to check out what is so darn different between the Yahoo Clubs & Groups...NOTHING. Besides a couple different features and the fact it's visually different, nothing's really changed. But I have noticed a DECREASE in members. What's that for? I think it's because of the bulk mailing system that the groups have. Please don't unsubscribe! That makes me sad. Just be careful when you post and make sure you do it right k? So get this, I got into the Spanish Honors system at my high school but can't carry on a conversation in the language for more than a couple minutes. That's pretty sad considering 70 people out of over a hundred applicants were accepted. Scares me where our education money is going. Well, I know I've been absent. And I got good news for you...I'm not dead so Holly's still stuck with me until further notice. It's not that I've been avoiding online, in fact Ive been wanting to get online to send mail, post the column, and etc. but school's been weighing me down with a bunch of work. This week alone I've been scrambling to do work before the end of the quarter and have be trying to get extra credit work in, including going to a beyond boring lecture during my lunchtime about Nuclear energy on a submarine. I'd probably enjoy the lecture more if the kid in the front row wasn't such a smart alic, but hey, I'm all for the Navy. I've also started to read "Brave New World." The book was raved about...personally, I don't get it. If you saw the Arnold Swarchineger (sp?) movie "The Sixth Day" it's kinda like that with a more complicated text. Let's just put it this way, it's worse than "Lord of the Flies." Can someone tell me how teachers come up with this? We're also doing a play in Drama. I got to write out what my dream role would be. Ironically enough, my dream character "Alyssa Waters" (Don't ask about the name) reminds me of me. I wonder how that happened. I WAS going to drop into the NSync concert and then last minute came up with a little bit of conflict with schedule that required me not being able to go to the show AND the last dance before prom at school. I'm telling you if things stop popping up left and right for me I'll be happy. I do feel bad though that I've been so absent. I've been constantly trying to get on and do things online that didn't require some sort of nonsense. I feel bad that I haven't been able to get on and chat with you guys, answer emails quickly enough, and even email Bob and Wendy. I used to email them a good two to three times during the work week and only today was I able to send out an email since the beginning of March! And I can't use the excuse "I was burning food in bio class" because that only worked with my geo teacher. But don't think I've forgotten about any of you, I haven't. I was telling Holly that Townsend and all that it brings gives us something to absorb that blankness in our minds about 75% of our days. I know I do, so don't deny you don't. I can't think of one day for the past two years that something remotely Townsend related hasn't passed through my head. Really, if I see a similar car that one of the guys drive I always check the driver, if I see something that reminds me of one of the times I saw them, I smile. I live for every smile I can have and they've been a good number of them. For example, we had Sr. Helen Prejan come and talk to us. Genius people who set up the seats in the gym forgot a good 100 seats and I got seated on the floor. Well, I was looking at the seats and looking at the guys in my class in the seats and I thought, "God, they see a bunch of girls sitting on the floor and they're so busy with horsing around they don't even offer a seat." Then I remembered the time Matt gave me his seat at the Aaron Carter show because he's just that handsome caring guy that he is. I actually said "No that's ok" because i thought it looked really un-uniform for all the guys to be sitting and Matt to be standing but he said "Take it." Sweet huh? Oh the chair moments I've had...lol. It's the little things that make me happy you see? But Holly and I are right so don't deny the fact that you don't ever think about the guys unless it's obvious. You know that they've impacted you enough to make you smile at inadiment objects. I know for a fact that Amber (my twin sister separated from me at birth) smiles everytime she sees Dip 'N Dots. I know that Aileen smiles whenever she sees a blue ring pop. I know that a lot of us have those little things to turn to someone and go "I have the funniest story about ________." That's special though you know what I mean? If Holly and I had a penny for every time we thought about the guys for some odd reason, we'd be the richest girls in the world and we'd have a RPCC private plane for you guys to ride on whenever there was a show. Really, I know that there are some things in life that we won't let go of for the rest of our lives. Long after the Townsend rollercoaster ride has stopped and we've all moved on, we will still remember the time Ryan smiled at us, the first time we heard Todd rap, the first time Nick and Dom looked alike, and the first time Matt did something funny. We'll probably remember it with the person who sat with us on that ride. I mean the relationships builded towards everyone is incredible. I think that a few of us have already realized we can keep ourselves well entertained with each other with or without the guys there. Don't believe me? There have been PLENTY of times that the guys have been at an event and we did. Come on now, we don't spend ever waking second with the guys at those events...anymore at least. I think if we did...actually I don't know what it would be like if we did. But really, if you don't believe me, at the Great Mall Tamara of the Street Team taught me that the "Ass Grab" pictures are a lot harder to perfect without embarassment than I had thought. Let's just say that I'm scarred for life. Another time I was at lunch with some of the friends I had made through Townsend and we kept ourselves EXTREMELY amused with jokes, laughter, and a non-alcoholic drink called "The Kristen Margarita." Let me repeat that...NON- ALCOHOLIC....but it did have a nice punch to it. We keep ourselves so amused sometimes and I'm glad we do because it shows how beautiful friendships are past the initial thing that brought us together. It makes me happy, makes me smile, it gives me that warm tingly thing that's all fuzzy on the inside. And now I'll stop with that, only because I'm beginning to sound like a Valentine's Day card. I know I know, the guys, yes they will be friends of all of us after the ride is long over. The guys have realized since the very beginning that they are special to us. It's funny though when you think about it because they teach us so much and they don't know it. I can't describe it really but you learn from them like you learn from your parents. And I'm not saying that they're like parents...oh boy I'm going to hear about that comment. But let's face it, the friendship with us and the guys is great, and for most of us, we've gotten past the whole "you're a rock star" thing and have absolutely no problem with saying they're dorks or nerds or whatever. I personally know that if I stopped commicating with the guys after their romance with fame had ended. I mean they've given me so much that I owe them a lot. I look at the friends I"ve made and it's like "Wow" I feel special when i do get to be together with the guys and my friends at the same time because I think of how wonderful the past couple of years have been for me. For example, everytime I see Ryan, it's different. Rye, if you're reading this, you're not only incredibly hott but you're a wonderful person...blushing yet? I'll be honest with all of you, when I FIRST met Rye, I was so overwhelmed by him being hott that I pretty much didn't know how to handle myself. I had the nervous laugh, the nervous talk, the whole nervous mannerism that makes you pray to God that you don't look TOO stupid. In fact when I had my first interview with the guys my voice on the tape and the way I talk to them on tape is NOTHING like it is anymore...AT ALL. Now I'm still using Rye here as an example, today, I'm not as nervous, sure the guy's hott and of course that trip or stumble over wording, shakey feeling, jumpy thing takes over once in a while, (hey it's only natural...and it IS Ryan) but time has allowed me to look at him (as well as the other guys) and see past an exterior that a lot of other people see and really find deep down how special he is. I know that a lot of girls think he's "like totally hott" and he is... but think about it, how long can you like a hott guy with a bad attitude? Look at me man, I'm so fickle with guys that even my own mother thinks that I need to figure it all out. (Phsycologically, I think it's because lately the luck with guys...not awesome...trust me it changes like the weather.) But Ryan, he's one of those guys I can gurantee you will be the catch of a lifetime. Like the other guys, he isn't describable as far as what he has that others just don't...and I'm not talking about the car...it's something within the heart. Now, why did I go off on that tangent? I have absolutely no clue. I think it was because I was watching old tapes of the guys. Is it so bad to miss them? Anyways I'm out for now, it's only TUESDAY people! I'm telling you if this week goes by any slower we'd be frozen in time. I need sleep! Take care. Stay Safe & Stay You Love Always, Kristen xoxoxo

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