Your Weekly Townsend Fix Column 7

Well, the past two days have been crazy, but I'm here and I'm early! I had registration on Thursday which is why I submitted the birthday column a day in advance. That day I went back to Town's End for brunch with my family and a set of twins walked in and I just thought it was so ironic it was the twins' birthday, then I realized that they looked like Todd! Haha Ok anyways...today was day one of school I guess you could say, I got out at 11:30. I met all of my teachers. Looks like this year will be ok. While I have Ms. Torres-Kelly as my drama (I can't help but think of Ryan in Drama)

So I'm in a Todd mode, don't ask me why I just AM. And since I AM in that kinda mode right now I'm going to let those of you unfamiliar with Todd in on Todd and who he is. For the Matt fans I'll probably be in a Matt mood next week expecially since I'm prepping for my 6th grade team's first volleyball game, the team really should be called, "Team Matt" because of the fan base he has in the 6th grade girls i coach. I met Todd in October. I had talked to him on the internet and his first words to me were "Here you go" at a Christina/TLC concert. I saw him for the FIRST time at an NSync concert before hand but never had the oppertunity to talk to him, ok honestly? I was too chicken to go up to him. I'm easily intimidated by cute guys. Anyways, being shoved into a WiLD 94.9 pick up kinda forced some sort of communication between me and him. I had seen him over the course of concerts and finally when I made the initial email to write them, Todd was the first one back. I know most of you guys thanks to Todd. My desire to knowing them wouldn't be so high if Todd had never emailed me back. I still have the email. Anyways, I met him for the first time after talking with him multiple times on the internet at the Planet Hollywood Meet 'N Greet in person. It was so great to give this guy that I've built a friendship with on the computer and give him a hug. It was funny because he had stuck his hand out for a handshake for the "wassup" kinda shake and I thought that was cool and he was sweet but thought he was even sweeter after he pulled me in for a hug. It's like that with the Dolcis (more on that later). I was nervous, I didn't know if it would be like re-meeting the Todd I had talked to on the internet. No need to be nervous, he treated me like I had known him in person all this time rather than on the computer. He was so awesome and so funny. From then to now, things have changed. For as long as I can remember I wanted a big brother. I saw what my 18 year old cousin Jennifer has with her 22 year old brother and my oldest cousin, Travis had. While he never let her out of his site, he still tossed her around and wrestled her like one of the guys. Part of me wished I had a long lost brother to skip all the rough housing and to get the "looking out" part of it all. Being the oldest of 2 I don't know what that's like. I always had hoped to have a long lost brother in Sibera but my parents assured me many times that that hadn't happened and that I have NO brother anywhere in other parts of the world. I was sad but meeting Todd, that made up for the whole Sibera thing. He is the long lost brother, really. He has all those qualities, knowing when to hug, knowing when to make me smile, knowing when to make me laugh, and knowing just exactly when he has to. It was wierd because I'm really glad that I had found all the big bro qualities in Todd. I wouldn't have chosen any other guy.

Like I said, things have changed. Things have changed a lot, he's known by a lot of people, loved by a community of awesome fans, sings, dances, raps, and is pretty much all over the place. That's how things have changed. He's still Wu-Todd Dolci. Still sweet, caring, funny, and lovable as before. That's what I"m glad HASN'T changed. And on top of that, those big bro qualities still came to work when I needed them to. As most of you know by now, the loss of my grandfather was tremendous to me. While the week seemed like it wasn't long enough to say goodbye to someone I loved, it seemed like a year at the same time. Father's day was on Monday, that was the last day I talked to him, Tuesday he passed away, Wednesday we grived and made plans, Thursday was the wake, and Friday was the funeral. I couldn't stand having a 5-day week like that. But the day my grandfather passed away, was the same day I got my first sympathy email. It was from Todd. The words were so sincere, while I cried while I read it, it made me feel like I wasn't alone, and it was ok to cry. It made me feel like someone was there for me and actually put my mind at ease enough for me to sleep a couple hours before starting day 2 of a long week. Something about Todd in general really makes me feel ok with myself.

My family had planned to go to Great America's Aaron Carter concert for Melanie's birthday. I was not in the mood to go at all. I felt so terrible that week. It was driving me deeper and deeper into depression and I dealed with it with no sleep, not a lot of eating at all, and just doing everything wrong. I was in no mood to go until my mom told me at I should go at 1:20. I didn't want to go but i semi-reluctantly went thinking that I'd at least see Townsend. My mom didn't go. Part of me wanted to stay with mom but I went anyways with dad, Mel, and one of her friends. I called Todd that day to let him know plans had changed and I was already there. Just hearing his voice actually made me feel better and calmer. I took a stroll to the front of the park to meet Todd who was going to be there in just a little bit. I leaned over the railing in front of the fountain that is right before the Merry-Go-Round at the entrance of the park. I put on my sweatshirt and adjusted my sunglasses and had a thousand things going through my mind. It was just racing, I was the only one next to my grandmother in the room holding my grampa's hand when he finally passed away, that moment and moments from the past week were just running in a loop through my head. I got up and stretched and while my arms were in the air I saw a shadow behind me and before I put my arms down the shadow came right up behind me and the person wrapped their arms around me lifting me up in the air. I lost all my reflexes and FREAKED out. This person who was a guy carried me feet before putting me down. I was going "Ohmigod Ohmigod Ohmigod" I wasn't sure if I should scream "Fire" or "Help." I eventually resumed breathing and smelled colonge. I knew it was Todd just by the way he smelled. I turned and Todd was laughing, and for the first time in a week, I did too. It felt really wierd but good. Like I've said before a good big brother to me is someone to make you smile, laugh and hug you at the right time. Todd did all of those perfectly. Part of me was relieved because that day was a good day for me. For the first time in days I was able to smile and laugh again like I did when my grandfather was alive. Part of me thinks he's still with me in spirit to be there when I laugh.

Todd isn't the only Dolci who is like that. His dad and step-mom is like that too. While I've practically adopted Todd as the long lost brother (minus the Siberia part) but I've also practially adopted Mr. & Mrs. Dolci (AKA Mr. & Mrs. TRex). Wendy emailed me the day after my grandfather's passing. We had never met, never talked, never even seen each other, but she took time to email me. Bob, who I often call Pops, had posted and responded to me when I wrote about everything so I already kinda felt close to him. But when I finally met Pops at the NSync show, it was a total Todd moment, hugging him was just something that I had waited for, for a very very long time, same with Wendy. I met her at the Airshow a coulple weeks after. She actually recognized me and when I finally did realize who it was, it was the same as hugging Todd and Bob a great feeling of comfort after only knowing her through email.

Todd is a person I will NEVER be able to put into words only because he's constantly going to give me something to add. He's a story with no ending that only gets better and better. I see him years from now being one great father with a successful career. He's an awesome person and I love this guy so much. He deserves the best no matter what. I can't even word how much he means to me because he's pracitcally family. I can go on and on about why Todd is awesome but I know you don't want a novel. But "understand this" (cute huh?) that Todd is beyond incredible. If I could ever give back the happiness he's given to me and my family I would but there's something about Todd that never settles for anything less than the best when he's doing something. I love you Todd! Thanks for being a big brother and a good friend luv ya lots.

That's it for this week, I might submit my next column early depending on what my schedule is!

Love Always,
Kristen

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