Untitled Chapters 1-3
Chapter One
¡°Jiwon, this is so wrong¡¦¡±
¡°What¡¯s wrong with being with the one you love Jihyun?¡±
Jiwon and I broke away from a very passionate kiss that we just shared. He and I both knew that our actions would get us in severe trouble. But we just didn¡¯t care. This was actually the fourth time that we had escaped together like this.
The beach was our special spot; no one could ever take that away from us. No matter how hard times got, or even if we both were suffering bad times, the calmness of the beach always soothed our troubles.
Sometimes when school was too much for the both of us, we would run here together. Jiwon and I would just talk, hold hands, or embrace each other without exchanging words. Tonight however was a special night¡¦ it made a year of us being together. It wasn¡¯t easy to stay together. The whole world was against us. I came from a somewhat rich family, and my parents totally disapproved of Jiwon. They thought that he was nothing more than a thug who was taking away the innocence of their daughter.
Jiwon on the other hand lived in a small home with his mother. His father died when Jiwon was 15 years old. Ever since then, Jiwon moved out of his normal neighborhood into a more residential place. His mother worked so hard to support him, and she often did not have any extra money to afford the things I had.
But I loved Jiwon¡¦ And our love proved to be the most important thing of all. Because we were still together and no one made me any happier than he did.
I looked up at the sky as the waves pounded against the sand. Jiwon snuggled closer to me as he took his hand gently into mine.
¡°What are you thinking about Jihyun?¡±
¡°You¡¦Jiwon¡¦ you are the only thing that crosses my mind. I just cannot believe how lucky I am. I¡¯m only 17 but I have found my true love already. I have to be the luckiest woman in the world.¡±
Jiwon pulled me even closer to him as I lay flat on my back. My entire upper body was positioned on Jiwon¡¯s lap as the rest of me lay on the sand. Our hands embraced as we looked into each other¡¯s eyes. This was pure bliss¡¦ a love like this truly came once a lifetime. I felt so secure and safe and just¡¦ happy at that moment¡¦ I closed my eyes and absorbed myself into Jiwon.
When my eyes opened again, Jiwon was still holding me firmly. I looked down at my watch and saw that it was past 12 o¡¯clock.
¡°Oppa, we need to start heading home. My mom is already going to kill me, let¡¯s not make it any worse ok?¡±
The two of us finally arose off the sand. Jiwon and I dusted each other as we walked over to his motorcycle. My boyfriend really did love me. He always gave me his helmet to wear and risked his own life. Jiwon raced me back over to my house.
I knew I was in trouble when I finally did arrive at my home. The lights in my house were still turned on and I saw my parents sitting on the living room sofa.
¡°Jihyun¡¦do you want me to come inside with you?¡±
¡°No, please I don¡¯t want them to take their anger out on you. We¡¯ll see each other tomorrow.¡±
I tiptoed up to Jiwon and planted a soft kiss on his lips and quickly turned away from him. But my arm was held back¡¦ I turned to face Jiwon and he pulled me close to him again. He took my head and gently leaned down to kiss me, this time putting more effort and love into it.
¡°That¡¯s the way we kiss goodbye Jihyun, I love you¡¦¡± he whispered.
My whole body completely loosened up as I staggered away from Jiwon. I looked back one last time at him before I went to my house.
This time I didn¡¯t even get a chance to open my front door. My mother opened the door and pulled me inside.
¡°Park Jihyun¡¦ you do not know how much trouble you are in!¡±
¡°Mother please. Tonight was Jiwon and I¡¯s anniversary. That¡¯s why I stayed out so late.¡±
¡°Do you have any idea how worried your mother and I was young lady?¡±
¡°I don¡¯t know why. I told the two of you that Jiwon and I were celebrating something special tonight. You always choose to ignore me whenever I talk about him. Can¡¯t you guys tell how much I love him?¡±
Suddenly I felt a hand glide swiftly across my face. I turned my head down and held my face in pain.
¡°You listen to me and you listen to me good Jihyun. Your father and I work so hard to support you. We will not let some rat off the street endanger our child! You are never to see him again Jihyun do you hear me?¡±
But by this time I had already ran upstairs into my room crying¡¦ I slammed the door as I laid on my bed thinking about what had just happened. It didn¡¯t matter what anyone did to separate Jiwon and I, we were never going to break up. I loved him too much to lose a year worth of love¡¦ it just wasn¡¯t worth it.
Chapter Two
I was probably the only student in my class who didn¡¯t have any friends. There were girls that I spoke to and all, but I wouldn¡¯t really consider them real friends, only acquaintances. At break time, instead of gawking over gayo magazines, I sat in the corner by the window and drew pictures of Jiwon and I.
Many of the girls thought that I was conceited and stuck-up. Jiwon was one of the cutest guys in the entire school, and I was dating him. Wouldn¡¯t you be caught up in him also? Just as I was putting the finishing touches on one of my drawings, I heard a slight tapping against the classroom window. I looked up and saw Jiwon signaling for me to come outside.
All the other girls in the class slowly turned around and looked at me. I grabbed my book bag and ran outside to where Jiwon was.
¡°Oppa, what are you doing here?¡±
Jiwon grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the front gates of our school.
¡°Come on Jihyun, let¡¯s spend the day together. It¡¯s so bright and sunny.¡±
¡°But Jiwon, we¡¯re in the middle of a school day. Do you know how much trouble we¡¯ll be in?¡±
The two of us stopped in our tracks.
¡°Does it matter if we both get in trouble? We¡¯re together always Jihyun, I have you covered¡¦ now let¡¯s go!¡±
As soon as I felt the fresh air on my face, I felt so energized. I ran to Jiwon¡¯s motorcycle and jumped on the back of it, giggling wildly. Jiwon raced behind me and took his usual seat in the front of the motorcycle.
¡°I¡¯ve never seen you so happy Jihyun.¡±
¡°Shh¡¦ let¡¯s just enjoy this day together.¡±
It¡¯s so hard to explain the feeling of having the wind blow through your hair. It¡¯s like nature¡¯s way of showing you it really is alive. Every single breath of wind rejuvenates your entire body all at the same time. It feels like heaven! Take that feeling and being with Jiwon, and you had a dangerous combination. All my senses were lost completely to this boy.
We rode down to the beach, to our usual secluded spot. But first we stopped at the store to buy some snacks and drinks. Jiwon took a seat down on the beach as I ran back and forth trying to catch the little sand crabs. Just as I was close to catching one, I felt a sting on my foot.
¡°Ow!¡±
I fell on the sand holding my foot in pain. Jiwon rushed over to me.
¡°What happened Jihyun?¡±
¡°Hehe, I think one of those little sea crabs got mad and stung me. I¡¯m ok though it just hurt for the first minute or so.¡±
I could see all the concern in Jiwon¡¯s eyes as I sat on the beach still crouching in pain. Then he did something that surprised me. Jiwon bent down to my side and scooped me up. He actually was carrying me back over to the spot he laid before.
¡°No more playing around for you Jihyun¡¦ from now on I¡¯ll keep you by my side always.¡±
We just sat there together holding hands and exchanging stories. No matter how many times Jiwon and I spoke¡¦ every time I discovered something different about him. He was a never-ending story that had a better chapter each time you read it.
¡°Jiwon¡¦ what are we going to do about the university. Will your mom help you pay the costs?¡±
Jiwon buried his chin into my shoulder and he hugged me tighter into his arms.
¡°I really don¡¯t know Jihyun. I want to go to the same university as you, but how can I afford to pay the costs of tuition. Most likely I will have to get a job for the first two years and save up for it.¡±
The thought of not having my heart with me where ever I went genuinely pained me. If my parents were different, I could have convinced them to help pay Jiwon¡¯s tuition. But they hated him so much. I know they would want nothing more than to not see him attend the same university as me. I lowered my head down and a single tear fell down my cheek.
I pulled myself up and looked Jiwon full in his deep brown eyes.
¡°Come on Jihyun, don¡¯t cry about this. We¡¯re going to get through anything life throws at us. I promise you, we¡¯ll work past anything. I won¡¯t leave you; I¡¯ll still be here for you even if we don¡¯t attend the same school. Now come on, let¡¯s get going. I don¡¯t want your parents on your case again.¡±
Jiwon helped me get up and put my shoes back on. We walked slowly back to his motorcycle and assumed the same positions as we did once before. Only this time, I held on to Jiwon even tighter than before. Deep inside of me, I had this feeling that something terrible might happen. Something that could necessarily tear the two of us apart. And this feeling was the only thing that occupied my mind as Jiwon rode me all the way back over to my house.
Suddenly he made a halt. I didn¡¯t even notice that we were at my house already.
¡°Do you want me to go inside with you?¡±
Yes please¡¦¡±
I held on to Jiwon¡¯s hand so hard as if he was going to slip away from me. He turned to me and looked at me with many questions in his eye. Jiwon knew when something was troubling me. The door to my house was open. When the two of us went inside, we saw my parent¡¯s along with Jiwon¡¯s mother sitting on my sofa.
My mother rose out of her seat slowly. ¡°You finally decided to come home¡¦¡±
Jiwon and I broke apart and quickly dropped to our knees in a bowing position. We held our heads down silently asking for forgiveness.
¡°You better show respect! How could you do this to me Jiwon? Do you know how embarrassed I was when I had to leave work today? Look at Mrs. Eun¡¦ she has to leave work to go down to her son¡¯s school because he¡¯s acting like a fool. Do you even realize what you are doing with your life?¡±
¡°I¡¯m sorry mother.¡±
¡°Sorry? Sorry Jiwon?¡±
His mother suddenly burst into tears and she too fell on her knees in front of him.
¡°Jiwon¡¦ do you know how hard it is for me to support this family since your father died? I sacrifice everything for you and this is how you reward me?¡±
I watched Jiwon¡¯s eyes start to tear up as he tried to hold back his tears. It was then my turn to get it from my parents.
¡°And you Jihyun¡¦ your father and I strive to keep this family running smoothly. We are so happy with what God gave us and you try to destroy this comfort. What goes through your head every time you¡¯re with this young man? I understand the two of you may have grown a fondness towards each other, but this is the time for school and studying not puppy love. The three of us have decided that it is in your best interest to stop seeing each other. I mean it Jihyun you cannot and will not continue this with Jiwon.¡±
If my head could drop down any further, it would be in my lap. I barely managed to shake my head in agreement. Jiwon¡¯s mother got up off the floor and pulled Jiwon along with her out the door.
As Jiwon was being pulled outside, I looked around and his eyes met mine. I knew those eyes¡¦they were full with sorrow and despair¡¦ as if our love was defeated.
Chapter Three
The past week hasn¡¯t been any fun at all. Jiwon and I have been dodging each other in and out of school. I never realized how lonely life could be without the one that you loved. Jiwon was really the only person in my life. And it hurt so much to ignore him and turn away from him.
On Friday afternoon, school had just ended. I was walking through the school gates to go home when Jiwon rode up next to me.
¡°We¡¯re not broken up you know¡¦ just is just some temporary crap that we have to get through to prove to our parents that we can keep apart.¡±
¡°Jiwon please¡¦ don¡¯t let anyone see you speaking to me. I don¡¯t want anyone to tell my mother.¡±
¡°Fine, ok I¡¯ll leave. But I want to be a perfect gentleman first. Can I take you home?¡±
I just laughed at Jiwon¡¦ how could I resist my prince. He got off the motorcycle and walked over to me. Jiwon pulled me close to his body and gave me a long kiss.
¡°Until we meet again Jihyun¡¦¡±
How did he expect me to just go home after what had just happened? It had been so long since I felt Jiwon¡¯s lips on mine, and the sweet memory brought me crashing down.
Jiwon got back on his motorcycle and was preparing to ride off when I ran up to him. I hopped on the back of his bike and wrapped my arms around his waist.
¡°Please don¡¯t leave me Jiwon¡¦¡±
¡°Then don¡¯t let go.¡±
We rode around the city on his bike until Jiwon finally was about a block away from my house. He stopped the motorcycle on the side as I stepped off gently.
¡°Here¡¯s your helmet back Jiwon.¡±
¡°Thanks¡¦¡±
¡°I¡¯ll see you tomorrow ok?¡±
But instead of Jiwon usually pulling me towards him and kissing me, he hugged me tightly.
¡°I hate this, I really do. I can¡¯t bear to not be with you.¡±
¡°I know but¡¦ I have to go Jiwon¡¦ I love you.¡±
I pulled away form Jiwon and started running down the next block to my house. My mother would probably be angry that I was coming home late, but I couldn¡¯t risk Jiwon taking me all the way home.
My mother was at the door waiting for me as I turned the corner to go inside. This was really starting to irritate me. Every time I was more than a minute late, she would be waiting for me to come home.
¡°Hi mom¡¦¡±
¡°Get inside.¡±
She pushed me into the living room roughly as I came tumbling down on the sofa.
¡°What is wrong with you? Why are you so mad?¡±
¡°It¡¯s 6 o¡¯clock and school finishes for you at 3. Why did it take you another three hours to get home?"
¡°I had to go to the library. I was studying for a test I have in math tomorrow mother. ¡°
¡°For the sake of argument, I¡¯m going to believe you. But the next time you have to go to the library after school, tell me so I could pick you up.¡±
After my mother left the living room. I pulled myself together and went upstairs to my room. Every night around this time, my mother started to prepare dinner. I used this advantage to try and sneak a telephone call to Jiwon.
I dialed the phone number as fast as I could and waited patiently for him to pick up the line. When Jiwon finally did answer after the third ring, my heart felt relieved. It felt great to hear his voice on the telephone all over again.
¡°Hello? Hello?¡±
¡°Oppa¡¦¡±
¡°Jihyun?¡±
¡°Yes of course it¡¯s me. I¡¯m sneaking to call you, so if I hang up in the middle of the conversation don¡¯t call me back ok?¡±
¡°Fine¡¦but Jihyun I really need to speak to you. It¡¯s about this hiding thing. I can¡¯t work with this anymore, I need to see you. I go crazy thinking about you, missing you Jihyun¡¦ please let me talk with your mother.¡±
I hated to hear Jiwon begging and suffering like this because of me. But I needed to prove to my mother that I was able to separate myself from Jiwon¡¦even though I couldn¡¯t really do it. If I went back on everything now, my parents would never trust me again.
Jiwon continued speaking to me when my bedroom door suddenly opened. My mother came in threw the door and saw me on the phone.
¡°Jihyun, dinner is ready. Who are you speaking to?¡±
¡°Um me?¡±
I pointed to the phone and I lowered my head completely.
¡°This is Saejin on the line. I missed my second period class because I was helping in the office. She¡¯s telling me the lesson and the homework.¡±
My mother walked over to me.
¡°I know you missed second period, but it¡¯s ok. I got the homework from the office already for you. So you can just hang up with her now.¡±
My entire head was pounding I felt so sick. Treating Jiwon like this wasn¡¯t helping the situation any more. I had to hang the phone up with him. After the phone call I was forced to eat dinner wit my parents. They babbled on and on about how happy they were that I was staying away from Jiwon.
But they had to be blind. Only a fool would not be able to tell how distraught I was. I needed Jiwon more than I really had known before. And after dinner, I couldn¡¯t even bear to be around my parents any longer. I walked back up to room, and sat at my desk to do some homework.
After about an hour or so, not even the constant drill of homework could keep my mind occupied. I put my head down at my desk as I dozed off to sleep.
There was a tapping at my window that caused me to stir. When I was awake fully, I got up from my desk and walked over to my window and looked outside. Jiwon was standing in the backyard looking up at me.
¡°Jihyun, help me up.¡±
¡°What are you doing here?¡± I loudly whispered. ¡°Do you know my parents are home?¡±
¡°I don¡¯t care, just help me up.¡±
I looked around my room for something to help Jiwon climb the third floor window. I finally decided to pull the sheet off my bed and hoist it down to Jiwon.
¡°Here climb this.¡±
At first it was a hard task getting him up safely through my window, but when it was accomplished, the success was amazing. Jiwon collapsed into my arms and he made it inside of my room.
¡°Jihyun¡¦ thank you. You need to listen to me. I can¡¯t take this any longer; I need you to come with me tonight. We don¡¯t need anything but each other.¡±
¡°Jiwon I can¡¯t leave. I just can¡¯t leave home. I know life is unfair right now, but running away from our troubles won¡¯t solve anything.¡±
Jiwon pulled away from me and paced my room for a good minute before he came back over to me.
¡°No, you¡¯re wrong about this one Jihyun. We¡¯re not running away from our problems, this is the solution. If you scared to do this, then I can understand that. But if you just don¡¯t want to go with me, then that¡¯s another story. I took the first step to reuniting us together, now it¡¯s your choice.¡±
He was so right¡¦ this is what we needed to get past this. I walked over to my closet and started pulling out my clothes and a duffel bag.
¡°Give me five minutes to pack¡¦¡±
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