THE VICELAND
MANIC-DEPRESSIVE BI-POLAR SELF HELP ROOM
"Consider me a surivior of manic-depression and chronic
fatique syndrome.
The body lives on, but the spirit is gone?"
~ from the Christ Vice poem "Altered-Ego Maniac"
Let it not be a secret...
I, Christ Vice, have been diagnosed as bi-polar with
manic-depression, and now I take depakote to balance
my mood swings and neurochemical imbalance.
I've had, what I view as, some very intense
mystical and visionary experiences.
I've learned the rational, the logical, and the common sensical extra extra
well in order to balance myself and survive the mystical.
I've gotten really really high in normal everyday life, even ecstatic,
without anything artificial.
I've been really afraid, introverted, and
panic strickened
with paranoid irrational self destructive stigmata's and psychotic behavior.
I've been completely lethargic and energyless having to sleep
10-12 hours a night, every night.
I even believed incorrectly at one anti-climactic
point that I could fly for real.
I've used what God and nature gave to me physically, mentally,
chemically, intellectually, and spiritually.
And I've hopefully turned it into some good art with
a powerfully positive message behind it.
I dedicate this page to all of those out there
like me who
have suffered and are suffering from this neurochemical
disease affecting the mind and emotions.
Many don't even recognize what they have.
Many relapse, and don't admit it to themselves what they have.
Is there a connection between manic-depression, creativity,
God, and the mystical experience?
In my experience, I think there is.
So, do I think I'm mentally ill, or a true messenger of God?
The truth is...
Honestly, I think perhaps I am both.
Nevertheless, if you feel you have this neurochemical imbalance,
you might not necessarily like to hear this but...
It helped me, so I would suggest that you consider seeking
professional psychological assistance for it like I did.
And God bless you when you do.
1WORLD...
1LOVE...
1EVOLUTION,
Christ Vice
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