[tumbling]
So there I was staring at a divine invention
Something beyond the scope of what I had never dared to imagine
Something truly out-of-my-head
Something that really didn’t look much like me at all
Something that scared me to death and made me frightened of dying
All at once in my little-tiny brain
Overloaded by the possibilities of a paradise lost
Pushing the rest of everything
Out into the abyss that is the beyond-of-my-mind
The very empty darkness that fizzles in the limelight
The blue circle that corrupts and illuminates your vision when you look away from the sun
The abstract sense you get when staring at a city from high above and
Imagine the people ants
The way you feel when you have a profound thought hiding in the crevices of your cerebrum
But you just can’t get it out
No matter how hard you
Pull
Or bend
Or shove
Or dig
So damn frustrating
Something scared me the other day
Don’t know what it was
Made me fear for the tiny little specks of anti-matter that we might have created
When we thought to place ourselves in the midst of the universe
Edging out other possibilities
Specks of light that might have could have would have should have
Amounted to more than I can ever hope to be
As I travel through my life like a guinea-pig
Subjected to weird mind-numbing experiments like
Getting a job
Or fitting in
Something scared me the other day
Don’t know what it was
Unfinished business always comes back to haunt you
Never look over your shoulder when you think you are being followed
Just run
Flee to the corners of the mind that you can hide behind
To the recesses of your soul
That protect you from the pain
To the far end of the earth where they wear funny hats and speak with their tongues all twisted and peculiar
To the far reaches of space where sentient beings have realized the potential of a simple thing like hate
And have used it to destroy themselves time and time again
Something scared me the other day
I caught a glimpse as it hurled through the ether
Missed me that time
