The Return
"And
all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way
are blinding
There are many things that I would
like to say to you
I don't know how
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me"
-Oasis
It'd been a long journey back from
Malachor, but finally the Ebon Hawk descended out of the night sky and
into a decidedly dark and ominous hangar. They would all be glad for
the rest after the harrowing escape from the Trayus Core. All except
the Exile, of course. For her there would be no rest.
She sighed as she looked over Atton's shoulder. The last time she'd
come here from Malachor, it was aboard a Republic warship. A shuttle
had brought her down from orbit, and for the entire journey down, she'd
thought about what she would say when she stood before the Council.
She'd worked out several carefully rehearsed speeches and determined
she would pick the appropriate one when she once more stood before
them. But as with so many things in her life, things had not gone as
planned. There'd been a lot of indignation, anger even, rising within
her. Much of it was fueled by the open hostility of Atris. The
inflexibility and the lack of understanding by the other Masters was
little better, and she had responded with hostility of her own....It
quickly spiralled out of control from there, and she'd regretted ever
stepping foot in that place again.
"Hey, you all right?"
She realized she was still staring out the view screen at the dark
hangar even though the ship had landed and the engines powered down.
Atton stood looking at her with a slightly concerned look on his face.
"No, not really. But it won't get any better standing here," she said
finally. "Let's go."
She led the way out of the cockpit, through the ship and down the ramp
where the rest of her crew had already gathered, waiting expectantly.
All eyes except those of the two droids were on her as she came down.
Mira, Mical, and Visas stood, attempting not to stare at her
as she exited the ship. HK-47 had already taken up a guard position,
scanning
the darkness around them for potential enemies, blaster rifle at the
ready. T3-M4 had rolled over towards a darkened console nearby and was
attempting to interface with it. An instant later, the lights in the
hangar abruptly went on revealing an unpleasant scene around them.
Skeletal remains dressed in brown and black lie about the chamber. Sith
and Jedi alike lay dead in various
positions, weapons lying beside therms. Part of the hangar had
collapsed
off to one side, power conduit and broken wiring hanging from the
ceiling. Blood stains and blaster marks were scattered about the room.
No words were
necessary among the group. All of those who could feel the Force felt a
familiar twinge of what they'd experienced elsewhere in the galaxy.
"It's like Dxun," Atton's muffled voice could be heard saying.
Yes, the Exile had to agree with him. What she'd felt echoing from
those battlefields was indeed similar to what she felt now. She'd
hadn't even realized Atton was realizing his Force potential then
enough to sense it. But there would be plenty of time to discuss it
later.
"T3," she said, "turning to face the astromech still working away at
the console. "Try and get the power and communications up. Atton, once
he does that, take HK and head down to the communications chamber. See
if you can contact Coruscant Emergency Services.
Apprise them of the situation and request that they send us whatever
help they can."
The astromech squeaked in the affirmative and returned to working the
console. Atton nodded. "Okay, just be careful. Holler if you need us."
The Exile turned and led the rest of the group out of the room. "Be
ready," she cautioned them. "The enemy may still be here."
They made their way out into the corridor, and then spread out in two
groups to search the rest of the Temple. The Exile and Visas in one,
Mira and Mical in the other. "Contact us if you see anything,"
the Exile instructed them as they went their separate directions.
She realized she and Visas ought to have some sort of priority to how
they conducted their search, but even as she led the way through the
darkened temple by the light of her glow rod, there was no doubt
where her steps were taking them. So lost in thought was she that she
barely noticed more signs of combat in the corridors. They found more
skeletons lying about along the way. It was with a heavy heart that she
looked down at them. They'd died defending the Temple while she'd been
off in the
Outer Rim wandering. With each fallen Jedi that she passed, she felt
the anxiety rising within her. It wasn't fear for herself, but fear of
what else might lie in this place, what other scenes from the battle
they might find. Most of all she dreaded the thought that some of these
had been people she'd liked and respected, and now the blank stares of
the of toccasional skull facing upwards seemed to regard her with
accusation in its empty sockets. As nonsensical as it was, she found
herself purposefully keeping her eyes off the ground and away from the
remains.
But as they rounded a corner, there it was. An ornately carved
lightsaber that had once belonged to a Padawan she used to spar with on
Dantooine before the woman was sent to Coruscant. Rahara Noatun was her
name, and her lightsaber was unique, the handle carved with glyphs from
her homeworld. Many times she'd seen the purple blade spring from that
handle as she met Rahara in the training room. Now it lie next to a set
of remains in a brown robe flanked on either side by similiar remains
covered from head-to-toe in black. Sith assassins, their force pikes
lying beside them. Try as she might, she found herself unable to tear
her eyes away from the scene before her. As it all became more personal
for her, the full weight of the battle that had taken place in the
Temple settled on her all at once. The tension she could feel rising up
out of her chest, and she found herself swallowing hard to force it
back down.
"The battle that took place here has left a deep stirring in the
Force," Visas said. "Can you feel it?"
"Yes, Visas, I can!" the Exile said, a little more forcefully than she
intended, and then sighed again. She briefly put a hand over her face,
choking back a little emotion, and then turned to face Visas.
"Forgive me, Master," Visas was saying. "I did not mean to..."
"I know," the Exile said quietly, turning to face her. Of course it
wasn't a matter of Visas being cold-hearted. She'd been forced into
slavery by Nihilus after her entire world had been destroyed.
Was it any surprise if the emotion was burned out of her? 'There's
nothing for you to apologize for. None of us has suffered a greater
tragedy than you have. None of us knows loss like you do. It's I who
owe you the apology. This is all more than I was prepared for." She
wave a hand at the corridor around them, her eyes moving across the
remains of the dead once more. "Even after Kreia said the Temple was
empty, I didn't really know what to expect here. I guess I had this
vision that once we were done on Malachor that everything would just be
fixed. When you go off to war, it's usually with the knowledge that
you'll
eventually be coming home. Some place safe. But this war is everywhere.
Hearing about it and seeing it for yourself firsthand are two entirely
different things."
"You almost make me remember what it is to feel these things again,"
Visas
said. "It has been a long time. But know this. Whatever battles you
face, I will face them with
you."
The Exile smiled before
beginning to turn back down the corridor. But a hand on her arm stopped
her
causing her to look back at Visas.
"You intend to go looking for Revan?"
"Yes. At some point."
"Then I will accompany you. If you go to face the Sith, I will fight
with you," Visas said.
"Sure you want to come along? I can't be sure
what we're going to find out
there."
"Whatever lingers beyond the Outer Rim cannot be any worse than my
former Master."
"Probably true," the Exile. "I'd welcome your
company when the time comes. But we'll talk more about it later. Come
on, we'd better get moving."
They began walking again, and before too much longer, they reached
the place she had been traveling to for the past five years. A place
she'd dreaded and yet longed to see again.
The Council chamber was dark and silent, the night sky of Coruscant
visible through the skylights. The room had mercifully been left
untouched by the battle that had raged throughout the rest of the
Temple. The tall-backed chairs of the Jedi Masters stood empty in a
circle around them. The standing stone in the center still bore the
mark where her lightsaber had pierced it so many years ago.
As she stood there once more in the Jedi
Council chambers in their midst, she couldn't help feeling a wave of
distress move through her. Memories flashed through her mind of her
last time standing before them. Accusations had filled the air, and
looks of condemnation had surrounded her. It had been a mistake coming
back to Coruscant. She had hoped to find out why she'd lost her
connection to the Force, but they hadn't told her what happened,
instead being fixated on drawing an apology from her. At that moment,
nothing could have been further from her mind. It was they who needed
to apologize, she'd felt. Apologize to the entire Republic for delaying
to assist them in their time of need against the Mandalorians. The
memories alone were strong enough so that she found that her hands
had begun to shake and her breathing became forced. She could almost
hear
the distant echoes of their voices as they spoke to her on that fateful
day when they cast her out, and instinctively she turned to face the
chair that Atris had sat in, expecting to hear again those ugly tone
that she'd used that day. The empty chair stood before her, and in her
mind she heard the echo of a female voice asking, "Is your Revan
your master now?"
But as she stood there in the stillness, sensing the presence of Visas
behind her, the whispers were finally silenced. There she stood one of
the last of the Jedi with the enormous task of restoring an Order which
had existed for thousands of years. She who'd never risen above the
official rank of Padawan before leaving for the war. She who they'd
treated like a Sith now had the future of the Jedi in her hands.
A search of the Temple revealed it to be empty with the exception of a
few of Coruscant's non-sentient life forms who'd made a home there but
balked at challenging it's former masters for it. It was clear that the
invading Sith had plundered the building before they left. What they
hadn't taken had been further scavenged, no doubt, by those
looking to sell "Jedi artifacts" in some back alley marketplace.
When the Health Services workers arrived with their droid laborers,
they at long last set to work cleaning up and repairing the place.
DNA testing was done on the various sets of remains, and not
surprisingly some of the Sith remains were found to be of former Jedi
who'd once trained in that very building. Having not been maintenanced
in some time, the Temple required enough minor
repairs that T3 was soon overwhelmed, and eventually the Exile
contacted Bao Dur on Telos to request his help. Upon hearing about
their situation, he agreed to help. Days turned into weeks, and the
Temple once more began to resemble what it had looked like in better
times.
As time went by, the Exile found herself growing restless, her
thoughts far from Coruscant moving to Malachor and beyond. To the words
of Kreia as they stood in the Core. To Revan fighting the ancient Sith
her own way, alone as she felt she must without even her apprentice,
Bastila. And what of Bastila? Did her remains rest somewhere on
Korriban or was she out there still with the possible remnants of the
Sith? And why was she not on Malachor after having chosen the Dark
Path? Why had Kreia not spoken of her, of the only one who might have
known Revan's destination?
After repairs on the Temple had been made and her students set in their
functions towards running the place, the Exile, feeling the burden of
it all becoming overwhelming, at last took T3 and the Ebon Hawk on a
solo journey to find some inner peace, walking amongst the ruins of the
Jedi Enclave on Dantooine once more. From there she'd went to Kashyyk,
Tatooine and Manaan only partially conscious she was following in the
footsteps of Revan. But she found no peace on Manaan,
unexpectedly encountering Atris there for what she hoped to be the last
time and achieving if not understanding than a semblance of peace.
Still the encounter had been trying, though she felt stronger for it as
she made her way back to Coruscant. But when she returned to the
Temple, she found her mood once more sinking.
One morning in the Jedi Council chambers she stood surrounded by her
students Visas, Mical, Atton, and Mira. Trying to force down the
feelings of hopelessness threatening to rise up within her, she
explained to them the need of forming a new Council and
rebuilding the Order while
simultaneously mounting a search for Revan. As it was, she was faced
with the prospect of leaving Mical, Atton and Mira to the task of
rebuilding the Order while she and Visas went in search of Revan.
Either that, or leave Revan to her fate without ever having made
an attempt to find her nor to investigate the possible Sith threat.
Neither choice was particularly appealing to
her, and so it was with immense relief, that she sensed the presences
of the trio of Jedi drawing near to the Council chambers.
Masters Nomi
Sunrider, her
daughter Vima Sunrider and Thon, the mysterious Tchuukthai appeared
unlooked for that morning. Kreia had, perhaps, been more prophetic than
she knew.
She'd said
on Dantooine that for every Jedi destroyed, another would spring up. So
maybe it should have come to no surprise for three Jedi to have
returned to the Temple to replace those who fell in the clearing on
Dantooine.
The sight of them was to the Exile's immense relief, and she bowed to
each in turn. Visas, Mira, Mical and Atton mimicked her somewhat
awkwardly. The three Masters showed signs of exhaustion, but their
enthusiasm was clear and their resolve undiminished. They greeted
the other Jedi as they would have long time members of the Order. The
Exile felt her spirits soar so strong were they in the Force and so
reaffirming was the confidence they radiated.
"Masters," she said. "Welcome back. It is relief to see you alive and
well."
At this Nomi smiled, though with a hint of sadness in it. "Despite the
best efforts of the Sith, we
endure. The Order continues on as it always has. We have lost many
friends along the way, but we will rebuild."
From there, the three masters thankfully took charge. A new Jedi
Council of three took the place of the old one, and under their
guidance the Temple more quickly resumed a sense of order. The Republic
was notified of the official return of the Order to Coruscant, and that
the Sith threat had been put down, at least for the time being. The
beacon in the communications room was set to call any remaining
wandering Jedi home.
Vima Sunrider put the new Padawans to various tasks and took
the burden of their training on to herself. Atton, Mira, Mical and
Visas soon were experiencing true Jedi training. They found themselves
spending long sessions in meditation contemplating
their past experiences and undertaking a vigorous regimen. The
weaknesses inherent in each were brought into focus so that they might
finally let go of that which had held them back. They were made to
understand the true difficulties of walking the Jedi's path.
For the Exile, it meant long sessions in discussion with Nomi Sunrider
and Thon, recounting her experiences from the moment she'd left
Dantooine to join Revan's cause up until her most recent meeting with
Atris. During their discussions, Thon also told the Exile of the
Sunriders and his journey to Ambria, a place they knew well. There
where Thon had once trained Nomi as a Padawan, they'd attempted to
gather some of the younger Jedi, but even that place was attacked by
Sith assassins. Seemingly nowhere in the galaxy could avoid the sight
of whatever hand had commanded them, Thon told her. Little did they
suspect it was Kreia behind it. Only the three of them remained when
the battle was over. When every step of the Exile's journey had been
gone over to the satisfaction of the two Jedi masters, Vima was
summoned. The nature of the Exile's condition was examined anew by Nomi
and Thon, and they proclaimed her well on the way to healing the wound
that she had sustained at Malachor. It was then that the new Jedi
Council held a session and called her before
them.
"You're Exile status is lifted. You are once more a member of the Jedi
Order."
"Thank you, Master," she said bowing.
But Thon was not yet finished speaking, "Furthermore, the Council
confers on you
the rank of Master in recognition of your accomplishments on behalf of
both the Order and the Republic."
Of course she'd been expecting her status to be changed, but not the
promotion. Not so soon anyway. She was entirely unprepared for the
surge of emotion which suddenly rose in her, settling in her throat,
preventing her from speaking at first. She felt her eyes beginning to
mist over, and she quickly bowed again to hide her reaction. "I am
overwhelmed," Jedi Master Alinia Sher said. As she bowed again, eyes to
the ground,
she did not notice the smiles spreading across the faces of Vima and
Nomi that just as quickly disappeared so as not to embarrass her.
Slowly she rose and met their gazes feeling slightly flushed.
"But Master Sher," Nomi said, her tone becoming more serious. "We do
have misgivings about letting you go off into the unknown regions, and
about your taking this former Sith with you. We do not feel she is
ready for the challenge of meeting the Sith, particularly should you
find the Sith Empire. We must deliberate further on this. We request
your patience."
"As you wish," Alinia said. She turned and stepped
out of the room, feeling not disappointed as she had thought she might,
but
a strange sort of elation. Satisfaction even that the proceedings had
went
better than expected, and if they had not immediately agreed to
her search for Revan, at last her reaction this time had been more to
her
liking than when she had last stood before a Jedi Council. The faces of
a hostile Atris and Vrook finally faded giving
way to Council members who greeted her with warmth rather coldness.
Later that day found her walking with Vima through the Room of a
Thousand Fountains, newly restored with the help of droid laborers, the
sounds of the water flowing over the rocks and splashing into the pools
beneath. Coupled with the sounds was the fragrance of the plants that
grew out of the pools, a gift from the Senator from Alderaan. Combined
the sensations brought a sense of a peace to Alinia that she had not
felt since as a Padawan on Dantooine, before the call of Revan reached
that planet and brought discord to the students there.
"Are you sure this is the for the best, you're taking this journey? You
assume Revan wants to be found and that she can be brought back to the
light," Vima said.
"Confronting Revan is only one of my goals, and not necessarily the
most important. If the Sith do exist out there, if they are preparing
for war, then time surely must be running out for us. We may not have
time to gather our strength here. If I am able to confirm that they are
gearing up, then striking a blow there may delay them further, and if
not, then at least I can send back a warning."
"I've no doubt you see it that way, and your reasoning is sound. But
does it not strike you as odd that Visas came to you in your hour of
need to help you strike down her master. That after years of Sith
training and walking the dark path, she abruptly turns about and
becomes your Padawan?" She turned and faced Alinia. "I respect your
compassion for her and even your identifying with her as another exile,
but, Alinia, I have to ask if perhaps your feelings are not clouding
your judgment. We cannot afford to lose you. As for Visas, with time,
we can be sure her convictions about the path she has chosen are
secure. Whether you trust her or not is not in question, but if you
take her there, you will subject her to a enormous pressure to revert
back to her old teachings." Then looking at Alinia, she sighed and
said, "I
imagine now I sound like one of your old Masters on Dantooine telling
you not to join Revan's cause. I hope I will not provoke the same
reaction as they did."
"No, Vima," Alinia said. "I'm not the same Padawan who felt the call of
the Mandalorian Wars, and you won't easily be mistaken for Vrook. And
then with slight smile, I assure you that you bear no resemblance to
him.
This prompted a brief chuckle from Vima, but still their was concern in
her eyes.
"In
understand your concern," Alinia continued, "and I want you to
know I will respect
the Council's wishes. If you decide I should stay, then I will. I'm not
without my regrets over the war. If the Jedi Council knew a better way,
I would like to think I would have respected it back then. It just
didn't seem that way at the time. But this is now, and this Council,
I will accept the judgment of. I just hope that if I am not to go
that some
provision is made for Revan. That she is not abandoned out there."
"And you are certain that she does not intend to lead a Sith force back
her to finish what she started?"
"Oh yes. If that were here intent, she would arrived on Coruscant some
time ago," Alinia said.
Vima turned to face one of the fountains, regarding it thoughtfully.
"I'm just not sure if I'm willing to take Kreia's word for it. It seems
to me that madness overcame her, and anything she said to you on
Malachor must be suspect. It's not just all the killing we've
experienced, all the brushes with the Dark Side, but a great many
strange things happening over the last few years. I grew up amongst
troubled times, the war with Exar Kun and Ulic Qel-Droma. I can
scarcely remember happy times. I'm hoping this is the beginning of a
time of peace for the Republic and for the Order."
"So do I, Vima."
And once more Vima turned to look at Alina. "I will see what I can
do..."
The following evening, the Council gave Alina the approval to search
for Revan, and agreed to allow her to take Visas along. They passed on
such wisdom and advice as they could find within them, and informed her
there would be a place on the Council for her when she returned.