"Kim, honey, come out of your room. You've been in there for two straight days. You haven't been getting those bad cramps again, have you?" my mom asked worriedly on the outside of my room.
"No. Leave me alone." I called back out.
"Sweetie, please tell me what's wrong."
"No, I won't. Nothing is wrong, and even if there was something wrong, you probably wouldn't understand. Go away and leave me alone."
I heard my dad come up the stairs. "Kimberly Jean, come out now. I am your father and you will do what I say." he threatened.
"No, you can't make me. If you did, I would sue you for doing that. Go away. LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled.
My parents tried forever to get me out of my room. If it weren't for Jeff, I wouldv'e been with him now. Ugh, the thought is too horrifying.
"C'mon Doug. She obviously won't come out, and it doesn't seem like she will anytime soon. We'll try again later." I heard my mom murmur to my dad, and they went back downstairs.
I turned on my side and fell asleep once more in my bed.
The dream I had during that one and a half hour was a nightmare. Jeff and I were at the same party, and he went to get me a drink. I drank some of it, and the next thing I knew, I was on a bed and my clothes were gone. He had raped me. I could see him, but my eyes were closed. I tried to yell at him, but I had no voice. The drink had knocked me out unconciousness.
I shot up out of bed when the phone rang. The clock read 1:27 pm. Groggily sitting on my hands, I muttered to myself, "Saved by the phone."
Knock, knock. "Kim, you have a phone call," my mom said, "it's Taylor."
"Take a message, I don't want to talk to anyone right now." I called out, and cried for the millionth time.
I just about drifted back off to sleep again when there was a knock on my window. My window.
I looked over and saw Taylor motioning to me to let him in.
I shook my hand in disgrace back to him.
He mouthed, "Let me in, now!"
I opened my window. "What do you want?" "Why have you been moping around and being depressed since the party?" he asked. "Why do you think?" "Oh, big deal, you're acting like someone died." "How can you be so heartless? I mean, how would you feel if you saw your girlfriend-" "I don't have a girlfriend-" "Don't toil with me. If you saw your girlfriend sleeping with another guy that wasn't you, how would you feel?" "I don't want sex yet, so that situation wouldn't happen to me." "Oh, Taylor! That's not the point. It's your girlfriend that's cheating on you, for nearly two weeks; how would you feel?"
"I would ge going through what you are, but I wouldn't be overreacting. I would keep myself occupied to forget about it."
"Where's a good friend when you need one." I mumbled. A hurt expression came across Taylor's face, making me feel semi-guilty.
"Look, I'm sorry, it's just that, do you think you deserve to mope around and deject yourself for him when he's the one that hurt you? If he had really cared about you and for you, he wouldv'e known better than to be with another girl, let alone touch another female. You don't deserve it at all."
I just stared at the wall, and then turned around to face him. "You know, that really makes you think." He was right, no one would deserve that awful gratitude.
"Admit that I'm right, because I know you know that I am." he said conceitedly.
"I am not going to admit it to you yet, I will when the time is right, but can I just be alone then? I still need to recover even if that asshole caused it." I said.
"Sure. Call if you want to talk." he replied, and climbed out the window.
"And Tay?" I called out. "Yeah?" he asked, jumping from limb to limb down the oak tree. "Thanks." I said, cracking a small smile. "Anytime." he replied. I shut my window.
"Anytime." he muttered, and walked back across the yard.
That night, Jen called me and told me to meet her and some of our close friends in the Lone Orchard. She told me to bring everything that reminded me of Jeff, and I quote, "This will be good medicine for you," whatever that means.
As I was walking to the orchard, I saw smoke coming from the middle of it, the Lone Spot. I thought, "Oh my god, did the girls set it on fire? Won't the police come and find out about it?" Nah, it was 12:45 am. But I wasn't so sure.
I ran to the orchard, clinging my bag next my legs, it moving uncontrollably. I can't believe I'm doing this. Oh well, Jeff the Jerk-off deserves it, that bitch. I was glad Jen got me out to do this, whatever we were doing, but I had a pretty good guess. The smoke was a dead giveaway.
When I got there, there was a massive bonfire looming before me. One of the girls, Lynn, had a cooler full of cold drinks. There were about five of us, including me, there.
"Jen!" I called out. She turned around and walked over to me, "Hey! I'm glad you came, I haven't seen you in awhile. I'm not sure if anyone has." she said. "Ha, ha, very funny, " I said sarcastically, "It was a painful process." "Hey, I heard what happened at the party, and I'm-" "Please, don't be sorry, he was a slut flashing his shit all over town." "I was going to say I'm not sorry because you came here. But if you didn't come, I probably wouldv'e said I was sorry, or until you got over it." "Oh, whatever. Anyway, why are we here?" "C'mon, I'll show you."
"Okay girls, everyone is here. Listen up, we're all here for a reason." "Yeah, yeah, boo." everyone called out as if in boredom. "Hey, hey, I'm not done. We're here because we all went through a horrendous break-up with our ex's. Now, could anyone please tell Kim what we're going to do to make our time useful?" Jen speeched out. "Wait, wait, wait. Before anyone does, I'd like to take a guess," I stated, walking around the hot fire, "We're all here to trash our ex-boyfriends."
"Jenny, tell here what she's won!" Micki called out. "Well, your fabulous prize is to save your horror ex-boyfriend story for last. And, you get to make a toast to....well, what is there to toast to?" Jen asked.
"Probably nothing, except for the fact that we're here to have a good time and go nuts!" Kacey said.
"Girls, isn't this a bit much? I mean, c'mon, it's no big deal." I said.
"No big deal? Kim, you're probably going to be the climax of this early morning. I mean, you stayed in your room for two days with no contact to the outside world." Jen replied, surprised.
"Well, yeah, but you all just seem so crazy and hyped up about it." I said.
"Kim, c'mon, loosen up, we just want to have some fun. Here, have a soda and chill." Daphne said, cool as she always is.
"You're right. I have to relax. Well, what are we waiting for? Let's get this show on the road!" I yelled.
"That's the spirit!" Jen said.
"Oh, dammit, why can't I open this?" I mumbled to myself, having the hardest time sneaking back into my room without my parents waking up and trying to open the latch on the window.
"You stupid, fucking little-oh there, finally." I said, crawling into my room.
Sleepily, I changed into my pajama boxers and T-shirt and checked my beeper. "Oh Jeff, why are you beeping me? You know I'll never answer." I said after I heard the message, "Please forgive me, my love, I know what I did was incredibly wrong and I can't replace anything for that horrible incident. Please, please forgive me."
Screw all the the girls you want, at least I won't be there to be hurt, or to hurt yourself, I thought, and shut out the lights.