Chapter 5-

 

            Everyone ran for the nearest safe place they could find. Some hid under the picnic table, some in the shed, others behind trees. Screaming was coming from everyone and no one knew what to do. Soon after the shooting stopped and everyone slowly made their way out of their hiding spots.

 

“is everyone ok” Brians father asked

 

“yeah” everyone said looking around to see if anyone elses was hurt. Almost all at the same time their eyes fell upon the life less person sprawled out on the ground covered in blood.

 

            Nick and Gina were too far away from the house and too far out in their own world to hear the comotion going on at the house.

 

“what did you say” he asked

 

“I said im pregnant” she repeated

 

“but…” he looked at her strangely “how”

 

“Nick, if you and your father havent talked yet than you better hurry the hell up and go see him because…”

 

“no, I know how it happened, but we only had sex once”

 

“well then there was some sort of accident” she said

 

“no” he stood up and shook his head. “no no your not pregnant, I never had sex with you. Theres no way that babys mine” he said taking the ring off his finger. “Gina how can you lie to me like this”

 

“Nick” she also stood up and faced him. “how can you deny that this baby is yours, you were my first and only time”

 

“how do I know that, for all I know you slept with everyone and their brothers” he said with a look of disgust “here” he handed her the ring and walked away.

 

“but…” Gina whispered then fell on the ground sobbing.

 

Nick walked back over to where everyone else was. They were all crying and crowded around something. Nick walked over and pushed his way through.

 

“what happened…” he stopped and his eyes popped out “Howie” he scremed

 

“hes dead Nick” Kevin cried looking over at Nick who was in shock.

 

“but how” Nick choked out

 

“they got him” AJ added letting his tears flow freely.

 

“those fucking bastards will pay” Nick screamed at the top of his lungs.

 

            Two days later back in florida, orlando was basicly shut down for the funeral of one of the backstreet boys. The streets were lined with sobbing fans and lines of firneds and relatives followed the casket to the cemetary.

 

Gina had barely enough time to think about Howie and how much she was going to miss him because she was still shocked that Nick had done that to her. She cried constantly and everyone thought it was because of Howie. She hadn't told anyone else about her being pregnant afraid that they would react the same way as Nick. She tried talking to him the night before but he was still to shooken up over the death of one of his best friends.

 

Laura and AJ followed the casket the rode in the hearse slowly down the road.

 

“AJ” Laura cried softly

 

“yes” he looked over at her with tear stained cheeks.

 

“we were making fun of him, just a minute before he was killed, what kind of friends are we. The last thing we said about him was that he looked gay”

 

“I know Laur, and I fell awful” AJ sobbed “I just don’t know what we can do”

 

“we have to find those assholes and make them pay”

 

“that’s for sure, those bastards will pay”

 

Brian and Melissa were riding in one of the cars because of Melissas broken leg. Brian was devastated and Melissa didn’t know if she could do anything to help him cope with Howies death besides hold him and tell him that everything was going to be ok. And that’s what she did. Besides that Brian was upset another one of his proposals was ruined.

 

“im sorry Brian” Melissa whispered while giving him a soft kiss. “do you need anything”

 

“no thanks” he smiled softly. “thank you though”

 

“I love you Brian” she gave him another kiss.

 

“I love you too” he leaned back and sighed. ‘why is this happening to us’ he asked himself.

 

Nick was walking beside AJ Kevin Jennah Laura and Gina. He felt bad for Gina because it looked like she could really use someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on. But he wasn’t about to go and say that the baby was his. He was too young to be a father, wasn’t he?

 

            A day after the funeral everyone – Nick Kevin Brian AJ Jennah Laura Gina and Melissa met up at AJ and Lauras house to discuss what they were going to do.

 

“sooo” Kevin was the first to break the silence “what should we do”

 

“I know we always said it would just be the five of us, but I think Howie would have wanted the group to go on” AJ spoke up quietly

 

“yeah” everyone agreed

 

“that’s ok but touring wont start back up for a while” Kev said “what should we do until then”

 

“go home” Brian said “take some time off and try and figure things out”

 

“hes right” Nick said “I could use a little time off”

 

“ok so why don’t we all just keep in touch for a little bit” Kevin suggested

 

“ok” they said standing up. They gave eachother hugs and said bye. Kev Brian Jennah and Melissa were going home to kentucky, AJ and Laura stayed at AJ’s, Gina and Nick shared a house and didn’t know what was going to happen with that yet. Megan had gone home to her family after Howies death.

 

Everyone was gone except for Nick and Gina, Nick was talking to AJ and Gina wanted to talk to Nick. When he finished talking with AJ he walked over to her and motioned for her to follow him.

 

“where are we going” she asked quietly as she followed him out of the house.

 

“home” he answered opening the door for her and shutting it after she was in. She didn’t want to ask what was going on between them so thought of another topic to break the silence.

 

“are you alright” she asked softly

 

“im ok, I guess” he sort of shrugged and made a face at the same time. “are you”

 

“yeah” she replied “I cant belive it though, I mean if we werent over on the side of the house talking about the…” she stopped herself before she said baby. “…the ummm yeah, we could have been dead” he pulled over to the side of the road and leaned back. he let out a small sigh,

 

“our baby could have been killed, along with its beautiful mother” he said looking over at her.


”and its father” she said, it was more of a question than a statement.

 

“yeah and its father” he let a little smile cross his face. “im sorry”

 

“I love you Nick”

 

“I love you too Gina” he leaned across the console and gave her a kiss.

 

            A few days later Brian and Melissa were at their house they were both still a little upset over Howies death.

 

“Melissa” Brian asked

 

“what” she said

 

“do you think that its our fault Howie died”

 

“what no” she said loudly “how in the world would it be anyone but those stupid guys fault”

 

“your right, but I feel guilty” he said quietly

 

“I know its only normal” she leaned over and gave him a hug. “don’t worry about it though, im sure Howies alright up in heaven with his sister”

 

“yeah” Brian smiled a little and gave her a kiss.

 

            AJ and Laura were at their house planning a party.

 

“why are we having a party again” she asked

 

“because we all need something to take our minds off what happened” AJ replied

 

“that’s true” she shrugged “but were going to have Kev Brian Jennah and Melissa fly all the way here for a party”

 

“its optional” he said making a guest list. She glanced over at it and saw the he had written down ‘Howie’.

 

“AJ baby” she asked quietly 

 

“yeah”

 

“you wrote Howie down on the list” she pointed out as gently as possible.

 

“wha…” he looked down at his list and sighed. “I miss him Laur” AJ started to cry again and Laura took him into her arms.

 

“don’t worry AJ, its gonna be ok” she soothed rubbing his back with her hands.

 

“I don’t know Laura, I mean he was my best friend. I'll never see him again”

 

“right, you wont see him. That doesn’t mean he wont be with you”

 

“I guess your right” he said staring at the name he had written down. He walked outside and looked up at the blue sky. “Howie your invited to the party, bring your sister too” he yelled “bye” he smiled and walked inside closing the door behind him.