I looked him up and down, unable to get the image of him in nothing but a towel, out of my mind. His golden hair contrasting with that smooth tanned skin. I couldn’t get him out of my mind. Or, rather, I couldn’t get the things I wanted to do to him out of my mind. When he asked me what now, I was startled out of my fantasy. Stupidly, I said I didn’t know. Oh, I knew. Boy, did I know. We stood there for a few moments just being quiet. Finally he spoke up.
“Wanna watch a movie?” He looked at me.
“Uh, sure. Why not? I have nothing better to do.” I managed a weak smile. He smiled back and I think my heart stopped.
“Cool. I’ll go order it. What do you want to see?”
“I don’t care. As long as it’s not ‘Naughty Nurses 3.’” I laughed.
“Well, damn. You ruined the surprise. I was going to get it to set the mood.” He waggled his eyebrows. I laughed again, mainly out of nerves.
“It’s going to take more than a porn to ‘set the mood’. Much more.” I crossed my arms over my chest and set my jaw. He stepped closer to me and lowered my arms.
“What would it take?” He asked gently. He was so close. He leaned in slowly and cupped my cheek.
“Um, I’m hungry. Why don’t you order some food too?” I pulled away quickly. He looked at me and nodded, an unreadable expression on his face.
“Sure. Be right back.” He walked out of the bedroom to order everything. I sighed and flopped on the bed. //You are so stupid.// I scolded myself. //You had him right there and you let him go. What’s wrong with you?// I knew what was wrong, but wouldn’t admit it. The words Peter said still stung. I was scared that maybe after Nick and I…consummated our relationship that he would turn into a bastard like Peter. //No, that’s really stupid.// I told myself. And it’s true, I was acting dumb. I got hurt too much to trust anyone just yet. Still…there was something about Nick that made me trust him. I knew I could. Then why was I so scared? Before I could figure it out, he walked in.
“The food and stuff will be up in a little while.” He said softly. I sat up and looked at him.
“What about the movie?”
“I scheduled it so we can watch after we eat.” He smiled.
“Cool.” Was all I could say.
Slowly, he sat down next to me. He ran his hand down the small of my back and rubbed gently. It sent shivers down my spine.
“You’re really tense.” He mused.
“Well, I guess it’s because of today and all the shit that happened.”
“I guess. Turn around.” He ordered.
“What?” I don’t respond well to orders.
“Turn around. I want to rub your shoulders.” He said simply.
“You don’t have to…” I began.
“I’m just going to annoy you until you say yes. Better give in now.” He smiled determinedly.
“Um, ok…” I faced my back to him.
“Good girl.” He smiled.
Slowly, Nick pushed my hair out of the way and began to massage my shoulders. His hands felt heavenly and I nearly melted against him. He gradually worked out all the knots in my back. When he was done I felt so weak I leaned against him, my back to his chest. He wrapped his arms around my waist and held me tenderly.
“Did you enjoy that?” He whispered.
“Uh huh. I’m so calm now.” I murmured. I could have passed out from sheer relaxation.
“Good. I like making you feel good.” He kissed down my neck and I sighed. Any fears were laid to rest for the moment. I just let the wonderful sensations run up and down my spine. I moved closer to him, if that was possible, my mind completely lost. Suddenly, the doorbell rang. Nick looked up, frustration evident in his face. He left me sitting on the bed and went to the door. I was still limp from what he did to me. He returned a few moments later with the cart with our dinner.
“Here you go. Let’s eat.” He grinned.
“This all smells delish. I’m starving.” I sniffed the air and sighed.
“I know you are. You told me.” He smiled again, but his eyes held something else.
“Well, that’s because I am.” I bowed my head and started eating.
We ate in silence. Always that damned silence. I hate that we have to be awkward. I looked up at him, staring for a second. His head was bent as he watched the food in front of him. I couldn’t help but think about how beautiful he is. My blood boiled in my veins just looking at him. That’s when it came to me. It was time to stop being scared. I was going to have him. That very night.
