Chapter 4
The next morning Nick woke up next to Jayme but feeling like they were miles apart. He wasn't gonna let her just give up on them without a good reason, he knew something was wrong but he didn't know what and if he could just get her to tell him he would do anything to make it better. He decided to take a shower and let her sleep some more. But before he went into the bathroom he made a phone call that could either make or break his relationship with Jayme. He looked at Jayme and sighed, he did everything for her. She had to know that.
After he showered he stepped into the room to see Jayme waking up. He smiled and walked to the phone next to her to order room service. He kept his eyes on her and she stared back at him with a sad expression on her face. He didn't think he could take fighting with her again so instead of asking her what was wrong he just smiled and rubbed her leg.
"I called and arranged for us to go back home tonight." He told her.
Jayme's eyes widened and she set up in the bed, "you did what?"
"Your not happy here Jayme and I want you to be happy and stress free on your vacation." Nick looked down at the floor and smiled to himself. "So anyway we leave in about two hours." He then stood up and began gathering his things to put into his suitcase.
Jayme just sat there, she didn't know what was going on but she had hurt Nick she knew that much. He wouldn't just give up like this. Something wasn't right with her, it wasn't him, she just needed time. She began crying and rested her head in her hands. Nick quickly came to her side rubbing her back and wrapping his arms around her tightly, "Baby what's wrong?" He asked her.
"I don't know Nick, I don't fucking know. If I did I probably wouldn't be crying." She said angrily.
Nick backed away. He didn't wanna upset her anymore. "I'm sorry, I'll leave you alone." He told her, someone knocked at the door and knowing it was room service he went and answered. Jayme just laid there not knowing what to think. Nick was different. She had pushed him away, it was all her fault. Everything was always her fault. She wiped her tears away and went to take a shower. Why was she so upset anyway? She didn't want this trip from the beginning and now they were leaving, she should be happy but instead she knew that no matter what things were different between them now. She dreaded going home and facing everyone and facing her life with or without Nick. And she couldn't imagine herself without Nick, she'd kill herself before she'd let that happen.
After showering she dressed and stepped out of the bathroom to see Nick eating with his half-packed suitcase next to him. She sighed and let out a deep breathe and sat across from him playing with her food. She didn't have an appetite but she didn't know what to do with herself. She became sick of the silence and stood up packing her things making as much noise as she could. Not to piss Nick off but to just be able to hear something, anything, but it did kind of please her to know that she might get Nick to say something. Even if it was yelling at her to be quiet.
Tears filled her eyes when Nick didn't say anything but rather began packing again. She couldn't take it anymore and slammed her brush down on the dresser and turned to face Nick, she was breathing hard and everything was blurry through her tears. "Have you given up on me?" She said wiping at her tears dreading his words.
"I don't know Jayme, I honestly don't know." Nick was practically whispering. "I love you but everything I do seems like its not enough. It's up to you now, I'm emotionally drained. I've tried but nothing is working."
Jayme continued crying, nodding her head and resumed packing. He was right he had been so good to her and all she did was push him away. And she didn't know why. She loved him so why the hell was she pushing him so far away?
A couple of hours later both Nick and Jayme were packed and ready to leave, they were boarding the plane and Jayme handed Nick's ticket to him and then looked at hers before stopping in her tracks. Nick stopped and turned around and watched as she stared at her ticket, "Jayme what's wrong?"
"We're not setting together." Jayme said not looking up.
Nick just stared at her, and sighed. He rubbed her shoulder and then began walking back towards the plane saying as he walked away, "Its for the best."
Jayme didn't move she couldn't, he really had given up. Why would he do that, it wasn't like him at all? She knew something was up. Maybe they were over, it was all over. She began crying but boarded the flight anyway, if it was over fine, but he wasn't gonna ruin her life. She would do that all on her own. It would be to easy to just end it all.
Nick sat on the plane looking over at the back of Jayme's head, her body was shaking so hard he knew she was crying. But it was for the best. For a moment he began to feel like maybe he was wrong, maybe his conversation with his best friend, Sean while he was on that island was all a misunderstanding. Without hesitation he pulled out his cell and called Sean.
"Hello?" Sean answered his phone on the third ring.
"Sean, I know you've had a lot of experience with girls but is there anyway you could be wrong. I think I've let myself get carried away. I don't think Jayme would cheat on me. I just wanna blame someone other than me. But something is wrong, and I love her Sean. I wanna fix things, even if she is cheating on me maybe we can get past it." Nick rambled on as fast as he could, his mind was racing, he felt like he had betrayed Jayme when Sean had convinced him that Jayme betrayed him.
"Whoa! Nick, chill. Maybe I am wrong but why else would she be acting like she is, hot one minute and cold the next. Girls have cheated on me and my friends a lot and she is showing all the signs."
Nick shook his head, "I fucked up Sean, I listened to you. Jayme wouldn't cheat on me, its something else. She loves me, I know she does."
"Okay buddy, go with what your heart says."
"I will, talk to you later."
Nick immediately dialed someone else he knew he could count on, when Brian answered his phone Nick took a deep breathe and said, "Brian I need your help."
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When Jayme and Nick arrived back in Florida, Nick searched frantically for Jayme. He needed to talk to her, explain things. Work things out. He spotted her getting her bags and watched as she prepared to leave. "Jayme!" He yelled at her as he began running towards her.
Jayme stopped but didn't turn around. She could feel him coming closer to her.
"Jayme, please we need to talk." Nick said.
Jayme turned around and sighed, "I'm going home."
"Can I meet you there?"
"You live there too I can't stop you from coming."
Nick nodded, "I'll see you soon then."
Jayme didn't say anything she just walked away and went home, it was the only place she felt safe now. Nick stayed behind and gathered all his luggage before leaving and heading to find Jayme, he had to make things right. And if it was the last thing he did, he would.
Nick arrived home feeling more nervous then ever in his life, he threw his luggage down the second he stepped inside the house, he looked around and then went into the kitchen finding Jayme setting at the table. He put his hands in his pockets and sat across from her.
"Hey." He said whispering.
"Hey." She responded in the same tone.
"I can't believe I'm nervous." He admitted.
"Me either."
"Jayme we both know something is wrong, and I'm not saying its you or me or anything. But there is something wrong. And I thought I knew what it was but I'm not so sure anymore."
"I know Nick, something is wrong. And I don't know what it is either, but I think its on my part."
"What are you saying?" Nick eyed her suspiciously.
"I'm saying something is scaring me about us and I have no idea what it is and why."
"Oh, did I do something."
"No!" Jayme responded quickly. "You've done all the right things but for some reason I'm being a bitch about it all and pushing you away and even I don't know why."
"Your not a bitch."
"Yes, I am."
"No, your not."
"So...."
"Yeah, so...."
"I don't wanna give up on us, I love you."
"Me either Jayme I love you so much and I don't wanna walk away from us."
"So I guess we try to make things work?"
"Absolutely!" Nick smiled and stood up walking to Jayme he took her in his arms and sighed, "I feel like its been forever since we've been this close. Even after making love to you, it was like we were so far apart."
"I know, I couldn't be happier."
"Me either."
The two stood there for a few minutes just holding each other until a thought occurred to Jayme and she pushed Nick away looking at him, "you said you thought you knew what was wrong with me."
"Yeah but I didn't, it was all a misunderstanding." Nick answered afraid for her to go on.
"And you said you were wrong, and you had us set separately on the plane, and you canceled our trip when you were the one who wanted it in the first place. Nick, what is it you thought I did?"
Nick took a deep breathe knowing there was no way around this, "I thought, I mean Sean had me convinced and then I saw you crying and I realized I just needed an excuse for our problems, and Brian helped me realize how stupid I was being."
"Nick? What did you think I did?"
"I thought......Jayme please...."
"Nick what the hell did you think I did?"
"I thought you cheated on me."
Jayme immediately jerked away from Nick, "you what?" She asked breathing hard.
"Jayme please, I was being stupid. I just needed....."
"I don't care what you needed Nick, you thought I would cheat on you. I love you Nick. I would never, I didn't...."
"I know, baby I know that now."
"But you didn't you didn't trust me, you didn't have faith in me. Who did you think it was huh? Did Sean tell you it was him? Or did you think I just slept with whoever I wanted to? What is it Nick?"
"It wasn't like that, I don't know what I thought."
"I need to leave." Jayme shook her head backing away from Nick. "I need to get out of here."
"Jayme wait don't leave, I thought we worked things out." Nick tried reaching for her but she kept walking away.
"I thought we had to but that was until I found out that you thought I cheated on you."
"Jayme I know you didn't, doesn't that count?" Nick's heart sank to the ground when Jayme reached the door.
"Nick, you didn't trust me in the first place, what happens the next time we have problems. I can't be with you right now." And with that Jayme left Nick all alone. He sank to the ground and for the first time in along time he cried so hard he was gasping for breath. It was over between him and Jayme and he didn't wanna know what living without her would feel like. It was all his fault. If he hadn't believed Sean, Jayme would still be in his arms.
After an hour of lying on the floor Nick stood up and walked to the bathroom, in desperate need of a shower. Maybe that would make him feel better, physically anyway. If even that. But instead he just cried in the shower. He had never experienced a broken heart before, and it was the worst feeling in the world. If you had told him a week ago he'd be where he was now he wouldn't have believed it.
Nick gave up on the shower and decided to just sleep, he put on some sweats and then decided to sleep in the guest room that had only been occupied once by Brian. He just couldn't bare to sleep in the bed he shared with Jayme. Lying on the bed Nick just stared at the wall, no expression on his face. He just stared, almost as though if he stared long enough that Jayme would come back to him, that he could turn back time and make things right. But he knew that wasn't possible. He messed up, big time.
Nick rolled over on his back and closed his eyes wishing he could just fall asleep, just for a little while, then maybe when he woke up he would be able to figure out what to do, and how to get Jayme back. He knew she loved him and that they could get though this they just both needed to take some time to themselves.
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Jayme knew of only one place to go, the one man at this moment that could help her. He probably wasn't expecting her but she knew he would help her. How could Nick think she would cheat on him, it was crazy, she would never do that to him? She loved him. How could he not know that?
She took a deep breathe and stepped out of her car, she straightened her clothing while walking up the walkway. She knew who would be able to help her figure this out.
She knocked on the door and stood still, maybe he didn't want her here, maybe he couldn't help. She closed her eyes trying to forget all the thoughts that were running through her mind. She had to be strong and get through this. AJ finally answered the door and looked a little surprised to see Jayme standing there.
"Jayme what are you doing here, aren't you and Nick off on some romantic vacation?" AJ asked letting her come inside. He led her to the living room where Sara was setting on the sofa, she joined her and began crying just at the thought of having to tell them what happened, maybe coming here hadn't been the best idea.
Sara immediately began rubbing Jayme's back and AJ sat down next to her, "Jayme what's wrong, is everything okay?" A thought occurred to AJ and he began panicking, "Oh God, is it Nick. Did something happen to him, is he okay?"
Jayme looked up and began shaking her head, "No, no AJ he's fine. It's nothing like that."
AJ exhaled, and looked at Sara with an expression of relief. Then directed his attention back to Jayme, "then what's wrong Jayme?"
Jayme stared at the ground and sighed, "I think Nick and I are over."
"Why? What happened?" Sara asked confused.
"We had problems on our vacation, mostly my fault. I don't know what was wrong with me. And Nick assumed I was cheating on him. We don't trust each other anymore. Dammit I told Nick this trip was a mistake."
"Why was it a mistake?" AJ asked.
"Because I knew it would destroy us."
"Jayme Caruso don't you ever say that, I was there when you and Nick were to stubborn and pigheaded to realize that you were in love with each other and its the same case here, you guys are too stubborn to admit you were wrong. All it will take is an apology from both of you and a long talk and you will go back to making everyone sick with your mushy talk."
That made Jayme laugh and she felt relieved to be laughing again, and to know that AJ was the cause of it. He always knew what to do, he was probably right, she and Nick just needed to talk.
"Thank you AJ, your the best." She told him reaching for a hug. She then hugged Sara and thanked her. "I'll talk to Nick, but not until tomorrow because we both need to calm down and get a good nights sleep. AJ will you do me a favor?"
"Anything babydoll."
"Will you call Nick and make sure he's okay and tell him that I'm fine and that I'll see him tomorrow that I'm going to stay in a hotel. And tell him that I said to please get some sleep."
"No, I won't."
Jayme's expression turned to one of confusion, "why not?"
AJ laughed, "you can stay here tonight. I'll tell him that."
Jayme smiled, "thanks AJ, for everything and for always being there."
"No problem, Nick would just kill me if I wasn't."
Jayme laughed and decided to take a shower and get some rest, the sooner tomorrow came the sooner she would be able to be in Nick's arms again.
She laid in bed thinking about the next day, everything would work out it just had to. She smiled to herself, Nick was her soulmate and it would always work out in the end.
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