These Tears

Written by Barbra; emeraldsilver@hotmail.com

Ok, this story "These Tears" was based on a couple of things. I got one inspriation from "Holes In The Floor Of Heaven" by Steve Warnier and a couple of real live situations. I'll tell ya at the end about the real-life situations.

Just so everyone knows, this story does not belong to the series that I am writing, this is just a side thing. But still send me feedback, I LOVE IT!

Part One

The 5 members of Nsync were very tired. They had been entertaining a crowd of millions for an hour and a half, and now all they wanted to do was sleep.

All but Chris Kirkpatrick. As he boarded the bus his eyes immedietely fell on his beautiful wife Sara. He smiled softly as he walked over to her and pulled a blanket over her. As he got the blanket up to her chin, her blue eyes opened slowly and she smiled at him.

"Hey handsome, how was the concert?"

He smiled and slid down next to her. He was almost falling off due to the fact that Sara was 9 months pregnant. In fact, she was due in about 2 weeks and was very excited. Almost as excited when she married him, 2 years ago.

Chris picked up a strand of her waist-length blond hair and let if fall from his fingers like spun gold. "Oh, it was amazing! And look what a fan threw at me."

Chris pulled out a small bundle and handed it to Sara. She quickly tore off the brown paper and revealed a small hand-crocheted white blanket. As she looked carefully she saw the in small yellow lettering the fan had written in one corner the initials "CK" and in another corner "SK" and in the middle they had put "BABY K" with a teddy bear.

Sara laughed softly at the lettering and ran her fingers over it. She was about to say something when she winced slightly. Chris noticed and quickly put her chin into his hands.

"Honey, whats wrong?"

Sara smiled and winced again "Oh nothing, your child is just overly active today." She laid down and stretched out her legs, thats when they noticed the very wet couch. Sara looked down at the couch and looked at her husband.

"Honey, I think your child is on the way."



Part 2



Operator: This is 911 what is your emergancy?"

Caller: Yes, my name is JC Chasez and my friend's wife has just gone into labor and we need help.

Operator: Alright, Mr. Chasez just stay calm and stay on the line. Can you get to a hospital?

Caller: Um, no were on the tour bus and we are off the main roads and have no idea where we are.

Operator: Alright, just stay calm. First, how far apart are the contractions?

Caller: Hold on, I'll check. [background:Chris how far apart are the contractions? Muffled reply] Um, we aren't sure, we weren't timing them.

Operator: Alright, just stay calm. We will try and get help to you, but without location, it could be hours. You may have to deliever the baby yourself.

Caller: Oh my God, ok, we....[background:loud scream and garbled yelling] Um, I think that was another contraction. 15 minutes.

Operator: Ok Mr. Chasez, we don't have much time, you must do exactly as I say. First, get a pot of water and start boiling it. Don't boil it too long and then put in something to cut the cord, don't let anyone touch it that does not have clean hands. And also, you need a blanket, towel or something to wrap the baby up in.

Caller: Ok, hold on. [silence] Alright, got everything, will a t-shirt work?

Operator: Fine. Now, I want you to check and see if you can see anything?

Caller: You mean, b,baby wise see anything?

Operator: Yes.

Caller: Ok, hold on. Um, I don't see anything happening but I see a lot of water.

Operator: Alright. For right now, I want you to make her as comfortable as possible. I'll call you back in about 20 minutes to check on the situation.

Caller: Ok, bye.

[call disconnected]



Part 3



"5,6,7,8 and breath. Ok, your doing good Sara. Just hold on, it will all be over soon."

"Oh God JC it hurts so bad." Sara cried. She had been in labor for only a half hour and she was scared that she was delivering so fast. She had always heard that it took hours to deliever the first baby. She looked over at Chris who also looked worried.

"Don't worry hon." said Sara. "Everything will be fine."

Chris smiled weakly and looked at Justin. Justin had been looking over JC's shoulder for the last 20 minutes and just a few seconds ago pulled Chris away and said that there was an awful lot of blood and that worried him.

Chris was suddenly pulled from his daydream by the sudden pain gripping his hand. He looked down to see Sara with tears streaming off her face and sweat pouring off her face. He quickly unlatched his hand and pressed his lips to hers. After he pulled back, he looked at JC who was talking to the 911 operator again.

"Yes, I think I see it's head. Ok, yeah. Can I use salad tongs? No, ok, yeah I got it's shoulder. Ok, it's out. Ok, it's not crying. Alright. Yes, thats it. Thanks bye."

JC hung up the phone and wrapped the tiny baby up in Justin's blue sweatshirt. He handed the baby to Chris and tended to Sara. Chris pulled back the sweatshirt and and counted the ten toes and ten fingers on his baby girl.

"Look Sara, we have a baby girl. She is so beautiful."

Sara looked at the tiny baby and smiled. "She looks just like you." Sara lay back and closed her eyes. And then it hit her, she was dying. She opened her eyes looked at Chris who had just put the sleeping baby into her bassinet. Sara pulled him close and began to speak softly. "Chris, I am dying. No, don't try to tell me that I am crazy, I know I am. Now, listen. You are going to have to take care of our daughter. Raise her right and make sure she is happy. Love her with as much love as you have for me. Because I know that you love me more than anything. That baby is both our hearts, both our souls. So whenever you look at her, think of me."

Chris looked at Sara and knew what she was saying was true, he had seen death, he knew she was dying. "Lets name her Allison".

Sara smiled. "Yes, Allison is the perfect name." she whispered softly.

2 hours later when the paramedics found them, Sara was pronounced dead.



Part 4



1 year later

"But mama..."

"Don't "but" me Christopher. Now I have raised your daughter until now. But she is a year old now and she needs her daddy. She constantly asks about you and I am sick of telling her soon. The soon is now! In one week, Molly and Kate are driving out and and dropping her off. And Chris, so help me if they come back with Allison I am coming out there and taking you over my knee!"

Chris stared into the phone and swallowed. "Ok, I'll be waiting."

Chris hung up the phone and dialed a familiar number "Justin? Get the guys, I need your help."

1 week later

Molly and Kate were tired. They had been drivng all the way to Orlando. It was along drive to begin with and it didn't help matters that they had Allison with them, or Mini-Chris as she was called. Kate sighed and laid her head on the window. "I still don't understand why mom didn't make Chris come out and get Allison."

Molly turned on the blinker and sighed. "Cause mom knows Chris wouldn't come. He would find some way not to."

"I wonder if why?" Kate said out loud.

Molly blew her horn at the driver in front of her. "Because, Chris blames Allison for Sara's death."

Kate widened her eyes. "How do you know?"

"He told me." Molly gritted her teeth and honked the horn again. "He told me a couple of months after mom took her."

"Did you tell mom?"

"Of course! Thats why mom is making him take Allison back. He needs her. He won't admit it, but he does. Here we are, you get Allison's stuff, I'll get her."

Kate nodded and her and Molly got out of the car. Molly walked to the around to the passenger side and opened the door. There lay Allsion in her car seat sound asleep. Leaning over he unbuckle the seat belt and lifted the whole car seat. She still couldn't get over how much Allison looked like Chris. From the brown eyes that she had when she was born to the brown hair that was a wild and crazy as Chris's. The only thing that ever reminded her of Sara was the smile. Other than that, she was Mini-Chris.

"Kate, you got everything?"

"Yes, Molly."

Molly hoisted the car seat up and walked to the front door, rang the bell and waited. After what seemed to be 5 minutes she heard footsteps and the door opened. And there before her stood her big brother.



Part 5



Chris stared at Allison as Molly rattled off instructions. He still couldn't get over how beautiful she was. He was expecting something that looked just like Sara, he forgot that Allison looked just like him.

"Chris, ya got all that?" Molly asked breaking his thought.

"Yep." Chris mumbled. After she stared at him for a minute, she announced it was time for them to go. After bidding them good-bye, Chris watched as they drove away. Then turned to the quiet living room. "Ok guys they're gone."

The 4 members of NSYNC made their way out of the living room and began picking up Allsions's things. "Now remeber Chris." JC said "We are only taking care of her for a little while. You need to ajust and live with the fact that Sara is gone and now you have Allison."

Chris nodded and watched them leave.

That Night

Chris was having trouble sleeping. He had been flitting in and out of dreams all night and now he couldn't go back to sleep. Thats when he saw it. At first it was just a little ball of light, but then it started to grow. He tried to scream but couldn't. He was frozen. As he watched the ball of light grew and suddenly it was Sara. Chris's mouth dropped open.

"Sara, I thought you were dead!"

"Oh, I am Chris. But, I had to come back and see you."

"Why?"

"You know why."

Chris swallowed. "Allison."

Sara nodded and sat down next to Chris. "Honey, I know you miss me and I miss you. But, you can't hold on to the dead. That won't bring me back. And neither will avoiding Allison."

Chris felt the tears running down his cheeks. "But she killed you Sara. I can't let go of that."

Sara brushed the tears away. "Is that what you think? Chris, she didn't kill me, it was my time. But, God gave me a chance to give something to you before I died. Something else to love. Allison. She could have died with me that night Chris. But God chose to let her live to bring you joy, so you could go on."

Chris felt the tears falling down his face in gushes. "I can't live without you though. I need YOU to go on, not Allison. You were my wife and I lost you."

Sara got up and walked over the window and looked out. "Chris, do you remember what I told you before I died? That Allison was both our hearts and both our souls? As long as you love her, you have me with you. I am never gone then."

Chris walked over and wrapped his arms around Sara. "I love you Sara. Please stay. I don't want to love you through Allison. I want you here."

"I can't, you know I can't. But love Allison Chris. Love her forever."

Chris closed his eyes and inhaled Sara's smell. Sara smiled and put her hand on Chris's cheek. They stayed like that until the next morning when Chris woke up in his bed and found a note next to him that said:

All my bags are packed, I'm ready go, I'm standing here outside your door. I hate to wake you up to say good-bye. But the dawn is breaking, it's early morn. The taxies waiting, he's blowing his horn. I'm ready, I'm so lonesome I could die. So kiss me and smile for me. Tell me that you'll wait for me, hold me like you'll never let me go. Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again. Oh I hate to go.
Love, Sara

Chris smiled through his tears and picked up the phone. "JC? Can you bring me Allison? Yes, I want my baby."

END

*Note: Ok, now that the tears are blurring your vision, here is the inspiration. Ok, the whole Story was loosely based on Steve Warnier's Song: Holes in the floor of heaven. The other inspriation was when JC was on the phone to the 911 operator. I was where he was. Everything that was written down was exactly what the operator told me to do (except she didn't hang up and we managed to get my cousin to the hospital).And fianlly, the whole death scene was based on a book I read called "Love Beyond Reason" by: Sandra Brown
So, Credit goes to: Steve Warnier for his song
Sandra Brown for her book
THANX GUYS!!

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