He must have stood there staring blankly at the door for at least fifteen minutes before it finally sank in. And when it did, a million thoughts raced through his head at once. She broke up with me. She left. She's gone. God dammit why didn't I see this coming? She's lying. Why is she doing this. I don't understand. I've got to go find her. AJ grabbed his jacket from the couch and ran out the door.

"You did WHAT?"

"I broke up with AJ"

Kierstan's best friend looked at her in disbelief. But she was obviously telling the truth. The look in her eyes, the look of pain and sadness was there. Yes, she really had lost her mind. "Now, slowly. Tell me again why you broke up with the most perfect guy to come your way."

"Viv, I have no idea. I just...I can't take it anymore."

"Can't take what anymore?"

"All this shit that goes along with him. The girls. The press. The bodyguards. Not being able to just go out."

"Bullshit!"

Kierstan's eyes widened in shock. "What?"

"That's the biggest load of bullshit I've ever heard from you in my life Kierstan. You have put up with it, happily I might add, for two years. So stop beating around the bush and tell me the real reason you did it"

Just then there was a knock at the front door. "Vivian...Viv...It's AJ. Are you home?"

"I think I'm gonna be sick" Kierstan muttered and ran to the bathroom. AJ was about to leave when Vivian opened the door.

"You look like hell."

"Where is she?"

"Probably sneaking out the backdoor right about now."

"Thanks Viv" he said as he took off running toward the back of the house. Viv knew her all too well. There she was, trying to be quiet as she closed the sliding glass door.

"Your too late"

Kierstan jumped like she had been shot. "Jesus AJ. You scared me."

"We've gotta talk, K"

"Not now AJ, I gotta go."

"I really don't care where you have to go right now. Your gonna sit down and your going to talk to me. And your gonna do it now."

"AJ..."

"If you think I'm gonna just let you walk out of my life your wrong."

"I can't do this now AJ...please" She said just above a whisper, trying to choke her tears back down.

"Why? So you can have time to think up another lie like the one you gave me this afternoon? Because I know damn well that song and dance about you not loving me is just that Kierstan. A lie. So just stop it."

"Leave me alone"

"What?"

"I said LEAVE me ALONE. GO AWAY!"

AJ just stood there, not believing what she had just said. Why was this happening? Vivian had heard the screaming from inside and came to the door. "AJ, I think you better go okay. Now is obviously not a good time."

He looked from Vivian to Kierstan who was now glaring at him. He had never seen that look on her face before. Something was so wrong about this. He wanted to know why but he turned and walked away anyway. He felt nothing, just numb. He just got in his car and drove back to the hotel. He'd talk to her tonight, after the show. He knew that even after what had happened she would still be watching. "She has to be." He said to himself as he pulled in the parking garage and made his way back up to his hotel room.

"Would you like to explain to me what the hell that was all about?"

"He just wouldn't stop Viv. I told him I couldn't talk about it and he just kept on and on."

"Kierstan, sit down."

"I don't want to sit down. I've got to get out of here."

"And where miss do you think your going? Your certainly not driving like this. Your shaking. Just sit down."

Kierstan just looked at her friend and began to cry. "Viv, I.." she began but her tears stopped her and she began to sob uncontrollably. Vivian hugged her friend and let her cry. She didn't know why she was doing this. But she wasn't ready to talk about it yet and she knew that when Kierstan wasn't ready, she wasn't ready. When her tears finally stopped she pulled away from Vivian and sat down in the chair beside her. Staring blankly into the pool she whispered, "what have I done, Viv?"