The End of The Road chapter 6 By:JeN (C)by JeN and used with permission on this site. ********************* This story is fiction and not meant to imply anything about the Backstreet Boys Inc. or them personally. If you understand the basic concept of fiction=not real then continue, if not, may I suggest www.barneyandfriends.com ********************* Brian could feel Kevin's eyes on him as he watched Ami walk toward the both of them. The only thoughts he could process were how beautiful he thought she looked. Ami smiled nervously. --Brian...Kevin. Brian couldn't say anything. His voice was still caught in a lump in his throat. --Ami, she has gotten so big. Can I hold her? Ami nodded and handed Hailey over to Kevin. Kevin began to walk away with Hailey to give Brian and Ami some time to talk. Ami placed her hand on Brian's arm. --You okay? Brian smiled and nodded. --Yeah, I'm...fine. You ready to go? I know the rest of the guys are anxious to see the both of you. They both turned and made their way towards Kevin. --Let's go. ----------------------------- Ami sunk down into Brian's couch. Brian laughed. --Tired? --Oh wow. I can't remember the last time I was this tired. Hailey was wild today. I didn't think I'd ever get her to sleep. --You want anything to eat? Drink? --No. Brian...I want you to sit down and talk to me. We've been eating and drinking and talking to everyone else all day. But *we* are the ones who need to talk. We can't let all this tension sit around. Brian looked stunned. He hadn't expected her to be so open about it. --This is really awkward for me Ami. --I know it is. It's not exactly the easiest thing for me either. Brian sat down beside her on the couch. --Why did you leave? Why did you *really* leave? I've been going...God...just crazy for months. I thought...I guess I wasn't expecting it. Everything finally seemed to be perfect. --I was scared. I know that's lame. I...I should have stayed and talked to you about it. Nothing that good has ever happened to me Brian. No man has ever treated me the way you did. Like I actually meant something...like I was...an equal. I...you are this big important person. I'm just...some orphan from the streets who got mixed up with the wrong people and got pregnant. My babies father left us because he hated me...and then here you walk into the picture and change my whole life. I was scared to death. I guess...I just thought that maybe if I left first it'd save both of us...save me the hurt of you leaving me later. --I loved you, Ami. I would never do that. I'm not Curtis. I'm not any of those people that hurt you. I thought we were past that. I...thought you knew me better than that. I may be a Backstreet Boy and I may be on t.v. and have a lot of fans and...everything that goes along with it. But I thought you knew the *real* me. The normal Brian me...why did you focus on the other me? You hurt me Ami...you hurt me more than I've ever hurt before. Ami began to cry. --I know. Brian...I'm so sorry. The last thing I ever wanted to do was to hurt you. --But you did. I stood there in front of you begging you not to leave me. I begged you to stay. I told you I loved you....that I needed you. And you left me anyway. You hurt me then and I've been hurting for the last seven months because I couldn't figure out why. --It was the biggest mistake of my life. I've hurt and I've been left and I've made huge mistakes in my life. But none of them compare to what I did when I left you. It was stupid...and...I don't know what to tell you Brian. I have analyzed my actions over and over. I have replayed that scene in my head over and over. I...I'm sorry. I did love you...I DO love you. I understand that things are not the same. I understand that you may not be ready to fully forgive me yet. But...that's okay. I can live with that...just please don't hate me. Please give me a chance Brian. Don't shut me out. I know I have no right to ask that of you. And if you want me to leave...and I dunno...send pictures of Hailey. Just leave you alone I will. But you have to know that I love you and that I always did. Brian sat quietly listening to her. He wanted her back so badly. --The last seven months I have tried so hard to hate you Hailey. To shut you out of my life...out of my heart. I wanted to forget you and everything we were. To close up the hole you left in me when you left. And I couldn't do it then...I can't do it now. I still love you. I still need you. Ami's tears began to fall faster down her cheeks. --Oh God...Brian.. --Wait. I'm not finished. It's gonna take some time Ami...to trust you. How do I know you won't get scared again? If I let you back in...if...if you left me again...I will never be the same person again. I can't even... --I will never leave you again Brian. I couldn't. I love you...so much. --You loved me before. --But now I know what it feels like to live without you. Now I know how badly it hurts to not be able to talk to you. So many times I cried myself to sleep because I needed you so badly. I... Brian reached for her quickly. Pulling her towards him. --Don't leave me again...ever. --I won't. Ami smiled thru her tears as Brian leaned in to find her lips again.