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"Nick" I shrieked as my boyfriend, Nick, picked me up and threw me in the pool. "That wasn't very nice." I said as I surfaced.

"I know." he said with a smile.

"I'm so upset, I will never forgive you!" I exclaimed over-dramatically.

"Oh baby I'm sorry is there any way I can make it up to you?" he replied helping me out of the pool and wrapping his arms around my waist. "Maybe" I said with a teasing smile.He smiled back and kissed me gently.

"I'm sorry. Can you ever forgive me?" he said giving me a puppy dog face. "oh alright, just this once" I said wrapping my arms around his neck. Just then his cell phone rang. He removed his arms from around my waist and went to answer it.

"I gotta go. I totally forgot there was a concert today."

He said reluctantly after he had hung up. "Ok Nick. Bye" I said.

"Bye" he said kissing me lightly one last time before turning to go.

After he had left I decided to go home for awhile before meeting him back at his house which was like my second home. Since it was a nice day and I only lived about a half a block away I decided to walk home. When I got there I changed into dry clothes and turned on the tv. After a few hours the phone rang, I jumped up to answer it. "Hello?"

"Ms. Worman?"

"yes" I said, getting a bit nervous at the tone in the guys voice.

"I'm sorry to have to tell you this, but there's been an accident."

"An accident?" I replied trying to stay calm despite how scared I was feeling.

"Yes. Your boyfriend, Nick Carter, was injured when the fans rushedthe stage at the concert. He's in critical condition with a 50% chance of surviving" The guy replied. I felt my heart drop.

As soon as I hung up the phone I grabbed for my car keys.

The drive to the hospital was probably the worst one of my life.

I was terrified for Nick. When I got there I was met practically at the door by Nick's best friend, Brian. He had a few bruises and stuff but nothing serious. He had obviously been crying. He hugged me and asked me if I wanted to see Nick. All I could do was nod my head. He led me to the room and then let me go in alone.

As I entered the room the only sounds were the machines and Nick's light breathing. I sat down in the chair next to him, feeling tears well up in my eyes at the site of Nick lying so still.

"I can't lose you Nick" I whispered tears rolling down my cheeks.

"I can't" I said. I was sobbing silently now. I laced my fingers through Nicks and squeezed his hand. After that I just kinda sat there my heart aching. About 10 minutes later to my surprise Nick opened his eyes. "Nick?" I whispered, almost afraid to speak out loud."I love you" he whispered gently and then closed his eyes for the last time. I just broke down sobbing harder than I had been before.

A few days later was the funeral I was too upset to go.

All I had been doing since Nick had died was sitting and crying.I knew everyone felt sorry for me but felt helpless to do anything.

After a week or so I knew to even start to get on with my life I needed to go to his grave. As I walked to the cemetery I passed Nick's house.I just stopped and stared at it, remembering all the time I had spent with him there. I suddenly realized that I never again would be able to hold his hand or gaze into his bright blue eyes. This realization struck me like a slap in the face.

I suddenly just started crying right there in front of his old house for a long time. Finally I had no more tears and started walking.It started raining and an icy wind began to blow. When I got there I walked past the rows of tombstone looking at each one until I found his. As I knelt in front of Nick's grave all I could do was cry.

I laid my hand on the cold, wet granite of the tombstone and for a second felt Nick's arms around me once again. As I stood to go, I removed my hand and then put it back.

"My heart will always stay with you Nick" I whispered quietly and left,knowing I would never forget the only guy I had ever loved.