I'm sitting on my bed, staring at the room which has been home to me for the past few weeks. I knew this day was gonna come but I wasn't prepared for it. Natalie and I had grown so much closer if that was possible. I was gonna miss her but at least I knew she had Ben and I knew he would take care of her. Then, I thought about what Natalie had said about transferring to Florida, but it wasn't worth the risk. The risk of my parents completely freaking out and there was also the risk that what Brian and I shared wouldn't last. I sigh and close my eyes as I hear Natalie answering the door downstairs.

"Coming!" I yelled as I quickly finished what I was doing and went to open the door. As I opened the door, I wasn't surprised to see who it was.

"Hi, Brian. Come on in"

“Hey, Natalie. .. thanks..” pausing

“..I.. uh… thought it would be best to say goodbye now, instead of trying to fight the mobs at the airport. “

“I totally understand. I’m sorry it has to be this way for you guys. I know she’s going to miss you a lot. And I, umm.. I hope things work out for you guys. I really do.”

“Well, I knew this was coming in the beginning.. I just didn’t think that it would be so hard. But, I hope things work out too. “

Giving him a smile in response, "She's in her room, second door on the right"

As I ascended the stairs, I could feel my stomach churning.. I was so nervous and didn;t even know what to say to her. I just knew that I didn't want her to leave. But I knew nothing I could say, would make her stay. As I softly, opened the door, I could see her packing the last of her things. The knot in my throat got even bigger..

"Hey..." I said softly

At the sound of voice my heart sinks. i drop the bikini and turn to face him

"Hey. I'm glad you came"

Just seeing the look on her face, made me want to hold her in my arms and never let go. I couldn't help it, I walked over to her, pulling her to me and kissing her with all the emotion I felt.

His kiss takes my breath away and at first I'm frozen on the spot until I regain control of my senses. I kiss him back with the same urgency, with the same desperation. Moments later, I pull away, again breathless.

"I know this won’t change your mind, but I don’t want you to go... "

"Please don't make this any harder. I have no choice"

"I know.. I know... and that's what sucks about all this... I just wish it was different"

"We'll still keep in touch" I say as I place my hand on his cheek

I know.. but it's not the same as having you here. And plus, we will be going back into the studio soon and it'll be all work for a while"

"I...I think it's best if...if" I pause as the tears start to shine in my eyes

"We ended it. The distance isn't fair on either of us. Our lives are so different"

Hearing those words was like a kick to the stomach. I couldn't believe she was telling me this. I basically poured my heart out to her and she wanted to end it? I was beyond speechless. I just stood there staring at her

"Brian please try to understand this. It's the sensible thing to do. We're rarely going to see each other and we'll both be meeting new people"

"Do you really want to be with me?"

"Yes I do want to be with you but can you honestly see us working this out?"

"Yes, as long as we make an effort.. I would come out there as much as I can. ... but in the long run.. I .. I. can't say... " frowning

"I...I don't know"

" I guess fate will have to decide... I can't do it.. "

I don't know what to say to him as I look at him and wish that things could be different. How could it work between us? I knew how i felt about him but

"You might meet someone else" I say in a small voice a little insecurity showing

"Charlie, I don't want to be with anyone else... I wouldn't feel this way if I wanted to be with anyone else"

The tears fall from my eyes and I move towards him and let myself be engulfed in his arms
"I don't want to leave you"

" And I don't want you too either.... Charlie... what if you transferred here and I would help you through"

"I've considered that but there's no way my parents would ever agree to it, especially if they knew the reason why I was transferring"

"Do your parent's expect you not have some other life besides school?"

"It's complicated; they have their reasons"

"Then I guess we both just have to let go, even if we don't want to. " Turning her chin to look at me

" I promise to call you everyday if I can, and I will come out and see you every chance I get. Charlie.... I.. I wont lose you..."

"Just don't hurt me"

"I could never..." leaning in to place a soft lingering kiss on her lips

The moment his lips touch mine, I feel warm inside. My skin tingles and I respond to him, letting his mouth guide mine as our kiss deepens and I wrap my arms around him puling him closer to me

My tongue moves to explore her mouth as my hands find their way up the back of her shirt.

I was aware of his hands on my back, they sent tingles all over my body. I tug at the back of shirt until it comes loose and I slide my hands under it and down his spine

The touch of her soft hands on my skin was setting my nerves on fire. I wanted those hands touching me.. all over.. I laid her down gently onto the bed and kissing her yet with more passion as my body was becoming fairly aroused.

I could feel my heart pounding in my chest as he lays me down. I wanted him, wanted him to touch me, to make me his. Slowly, I ran my hands over his chest, feeling his toned muscles

I took in a breath as her hands moved to run over my chest. I, in return moved down her nibble on her ear and on the inside of neck and down to her collarbone.

I moan softly as his lips travel down to my collarbone and then I open my eyes. Suddenly, I'm filled with thoughts of why this shouldn't be happening. Damn it, I was leaving in a hour, i couldn't let things go further. I gently push him away

"We can't. It isn't right"

“What? Why? We both want each other and we both care about one another, so why shouldn't we? Why should we have to wait to show each other how we feel, especially since we may not see each other for who knows how long?"

"We got caught up in a moment and I'm sorry but I'm not ready"

I was a little taken back by her response. Was she afraid of intimacy? Then it came to me.. oh my god.. she's a virgin.. That really put things in a different perspective. Softening my voice I asked

"You're a virgin ... aren't you?"

I felt my stomach, oh god he's going to break up with me. I turn away, not wanting to face him when he heard my reply...here goes...

"Yes...yes I am" I say quietly, "It's something I'm happy with but I understand if you're not comfortable with it so you know where the door is"

Her words were a little stunning, but I was not offended that she was a virgin. Does she think that I am with her for that? Apparently, I made the wrong impression...

" Charlie, sweetie, do you think that I'm with just for sex?"

"No I don't think that Brian, I don't know how long it'll be before I'm ready and you have needs so I'd understand if you wanted to find someone you liked and who could also satisfy you"

"Charlie, right now, you're all I want. If I have to wait, then I will.. its not like it's a deal breaker or anything. .."

With that I put my arms around him and lay my head on his shoulder

"Thank you for not freaking out. I was scared of how you'd react"

"I guess I'm not your typical guy either..." giving a chuckle and kissing her cheek

"I...I have to go" trying to fight back my tears

" I know... " lifting her eyes to mine. Seeing her tears, made my heart tighten, but there was nothing I could do.

"Listen... I wish I could go with you to the sirport but it's better that I don't. But we will be together again soon. I promise. " Kissing her again with tenderness and love.

Returning his kiss I look into his eyes and open my mouth but the words don't come out. Maybe it was better if I didn't tell him.

"I'll call you when I land"

" Okay... " taking her hand and getting her stuff and going downstairs. As I leave, I turn to her

"I'll miss you" I kiss her and take one more last look at her and walk out the door.