It's a Saturday evening and I find myself relaxing with Brian, after spending the day with shopping with Natalie. She's got a date with Nick tomorrow, so we had to go out and get her an outfit, shoes and a purse to match. I know she's a bit nervous, so I told her I'd be home early in the afternoon to help her get ready and give her the "boost" talk. I wander into the kitchen to make some drinks, leaving him playing on his console. I grab some cans of soda, crush some ice into two glasses for us and head back into the lounge.

"Oh gee, you're gonna be glued to that all night"

"No, I'm not. I'm gonna get off after this round anyway. Thanks, babe" smiling

"Well, I'd turn your eyes back to the screen, cause you're getting ya butt kicked"

"Oh crap... It's all your fault.. Comin' in here walkin' with those tight jeans..."

"Ok. Well, I may as well go and take them off then"

"Can I come?"

I blush and try to recover it with a smile. "Maybe another time"

Giving her a quick puppy dog frown, I turn back to my game. After about 10 mins, I turn off the game and bounce on the couch and pull her into my arms.

"Oh, so now you want my attention" I tease as I ran my hand down the back of his neck

"Well, you could've had my attention anytime you wanted, really..."

"I know I can" I say. I lift my legs up and rest them upon his. "Wow, you do have a good use"

"Oh, I have many more uses" as I lean down and take her sock off and begin to massage her foot

I giggle cause his hands are tickling me. "That's not fair” I gasp in between breaths

"Oh, but it is"

"Aww no. Come on, stop that Brian" I plead and I lean in and kiss him to distract him

As she kisses me, I up the ante and make the kiss even more fun and "ticklish", as I tease her mouth with my tongue

'Oh, so that's how he wants to play it?' I think to myself. I pull away from the kiss and let my lips linger on his long enough to make him want more. I press my finger to his lips, before he can react and begin trailing kisses down his neck

The touch of her lips on my skin was heaven. Her lips were warm and soft. And the slower she dragged them, the more turned on I got.

I run one hand through his hair, as I slowly pull away and my lips meet his again. I wanted to lose myself in this this moment with him.

As she pulls slightly away from me again, I put my hand around her neck and bring her back towards me and I place quick, light kisses down her neck. As I reach her collarbone, I slide her blouse down her shoulders. Beginning with soft sensual kisses on her collarbone and over her shoulders. I come back up for a quick deep kiss and as I descend down, her tank straps falling, revealing a tiny bit of cleavage. I then trail my kisses from her shoulders down her chest to her cleavage. At this time, I am beginning to lose control. I know that if I try to go further she will withdrawal from me and I don;t want to push her and if I stop now, I can take control of my arousal. With that in mind, I suddenly pull up and look into her eyes...

"Charlie, I .. I can't go any further. I wanna stop while I still can. I don't want to put us in a situation that we can't get out of. I know you're not ready and I respect that. I don't want to push you into anything, but I just have to tell you that every time you touch me, a fire ignites and I can't say that I will always be able to stop myself. I'm sorry, but it's what you do to me."

I freeze. What the hell? Was he trying to say that he only wants to be intimate if we're going to sleep together? I'm totally confused. He's saying that he's prepared to wait for me, but also saying that every time we fool around, he's not sure he can control himself. Where does that leave us then? I felt sick.

"Ok, yeah that's understandable " I try to be breezy, but inside I'm trembling so much. 'It's ok, charlie' I tell myself...'just don't let him see how it's hit you.' " A platonic relationship is much better"

"Charlie... I don't mean to say that we can't ever be intimate. I'm not saying that.. I'm just saying that we have to watch it.. well I do.. because I don't want to hurt you"

I disentangle myself and run my hand through my hair. "Brian, it's fine. Don't worry" I stand up and button my blouse up with my back towards him. "Lets just forget it"

"Charlie..." sighing heavily. I was at a loss. I didn't know what to say to her. I was trying to protect her and doing what she had asked of me. And now, she was mad at me. "I'm sorry" bending over and putting my head in my hands.

I don't bother answering him. I head up the stairs towards the bathroom and once inside, I close the door and the tears start falling. As I heard the bathroom door close, I decided to throw some hoops to get rid of all the frustration I was feeling.

Did he really believe that I was leading him on? He hadn't said it, but I knew he was thinking it. "Damnit" I say...?'why was it such an issue? I wanted to be close to him, but it wouldn't be possible if he couldn't control himself. Is that us over? I wondered

It wasn't good, having heard the confirmation of my own my fear. I was the problem. Lets be honest, this isn't the first time it's happened and I'm always the one pushing him away, because of what? Because, I'm worried about getting pregnant? That I've put it off for so long that the idea of sleeping with someone scares me? Or was I afraid of being hurt? It was the latter. I've known so many girls who have been dumped the minute after a guy's got what he wanted and I was scared Brian would do the same, but I'm just clinging to that thought, because I know deep down he wouldn't do that. Would he? I wondered and I knew the answer straight away. And then, I realized what was putting me off. I wouldn't compare to the girls he'd slept with right? They'd probably all been much more experienced than me. But, the only way to get past this was to my face my fear, right?

I stumble out of the bathroom and go into his room, where all my stuff is anyway, since I was supposed to be staying. I'm sure my head would clear after a good night's sleep. I pulled off my shirt and sat down on the bed.

After about 15 mins, I decided to call it quits, thinking that maybe if I got some sleep, things would look better in the morning. But then, I wondered should I sleep on the couch tonight? I went in and grabbed a bottle of water and drank about half and then jogged up the stairs to grab some other clothes. As I open the bedroom door, Charlie was sitting on my bed, half naked. Our eyes connected for a brief second.

"Shit, I'm sorry... " and stepped out, closing the door.

"No, no. I'm sorry. I'll be done in a few moments. I'm gonna use the guest room, if that's ok with you" I say trying to pull my jeans up

"Sure, I guess. If that's what you want" but I would have loved if she had slept in my bed.

Frustrated that I can't get my dumb jeans on, I fold them over the nearby chair and slip my satin pj shorts on instead and I grab the matching top and head outside.

As she comes out the room, she hadn't changed all the way. She still had her top on, but she had changed into these short silky looking shorts. Which by the way, made her legs look great. I tried to keep my eyes on her face, instead of her legs.

"I didn't mean to..."

I blush, wishing that he hadn't closed that door which might have lead to...and if it did? So what? But, the moment had passed. I lean in and my leg brushes against him, as I kiss his cheek.

"Goodnight"

Looking briefly into her eyes, I tried to figure her out. "Goodnight, Charlie" feeling the brush of her leg against mine. This was going to be a long night, especially without her beside me. As she continued to walk down the hall to the guest room, my mind was churning. Finally, I say " Charlie, wait. Will you come and at least lay beside me? "

"Yeah, ok" I reply giving him a small smile

Smiling back, I head into my room and quickly change into some pj bottoms and cleaned up a bit before going to pull the covers down.

Before going back in, I quickly change into my pj top and then I walk back into his room and sit down on the bed.

As I come out of the bathroom, Charlie is sitting up right on my bed, in this sexy red silky outfit. At first sight, I thought I was going to die. But, I had to remind myself that nothing was going to happen. Just holding her close and sleeping, and clearing out heads. Keeping that in mind, I walked out and sat on the bed next to her. Pulling her to me, I ask her quietly, "Are you alright?”

No. I wanted to scream. How can I be alright when all I can think of is you putting your hands on me and making all of my doubts go away?

"Yeah, I am" I say quietly

"Good..." kissing her forehead and leaning us back and pulling the covers over us. "Let's get some sleep and things will be better in the morning"

As he pulls the covers over us, I place my hand on his chest and slowly trace a line to his torso "I love you" I whisper

Tensing up a bit, "I love you too"

I let my hand rest on the top of his pj bottoms

Closing my eyes, I pull her close to me and turn off the light

Turning over in his embrace, I snuggle against him, unaware that my thigh is brushed against his pants.

As she turns over, her leg brushes against me, setting off tingles in my loins, unbeknown to her. Shit, that just had to happen. “Ok, think of something bad.. something sad...” before something else accidentally happens.

As I've got a million thoughts going through my mind Brian says something. I couldn't make it out clearly, just the words bad and sad. Turning back over to face him, I ask him "What's bad or sad?" I lean into him and run my hand down his back.

Oh shit.. did I say that out loud? I must have. The sudden touch of her fingers running down my back was shocking. It certainly wasn't making things easier for me. I just had to ignore the sensations and just go to sleep. "Nothing .. I just need to clear some things out"

"I should go back to the other room..let you get some sleep". I feel disappointed that's he's holding something back from me. But, it was my fault. I wanted desperately for him to take me in his arms and make me his. I sit up and shrug the covers off.

"No, stay. "grabbing her wrist. "I'm sure you didn't mean to, but just by doing what you did, has gotten me a little umm... "

Biting my bottom lip, I lean down and kiss him gently. "Then make me yours" I whisper

"What? I thought you weren’t..."

"Well, if you don't want to..." I say, giving it the wide eyed innocent act, knowing that it would cause a reaction

Quickly turning her over and leaning in close to her. "Don't want to? Baby, I've been dyin' to for a long time. But are you sure about this?"

"I want you"

In response to her, I swiftly swooped down upon her, crushing her lips to mine. The kiss intimately becoming deeper and more passionate. As I continue an ascent on her lips, my hands travel down the side of her body, outlining her curve.

The urgency of his kisses surprise me a little, yet my urges were even more surprising. It wasn't until this moment in time, that I realized how much I wanted and needed him. His touch alone sent shivers down my spine, it was electrifying. I was shaking, trembling with nerves, but also with desire, as my hand gently brushes against his lower back.

"Just relax... and enjoy" I whisper.

I don't trust myself to speak, so I nod and manage a shy smile

My kisses trail down her neck, and over her collarbone and licking my way back up her neck. Taking her lips in mine and getting a taste of her, I withdraw take a hold of her top and gently lift it over her head. I love the sassy red bra that she's wearing, only it won't be on for much longer as my lips kiss and caress the tops of her breasts, sinking my tongue between her cleavage. Coming up to meet her eyes, I reach behind her and slide off her bra.

A moan I can only describe as pleasure escapes my lips and when his eyes meet mine, I see the desire in them. Still caressing his lower back, I slide my hand under his bottoms and stroke his thigh daring myself to move towards his inner thigh.

As her hands move to stoke my thigh, I can't help but think where else those will be, or I hope they will be. Just imagining those fingers touching me in places. God, I was getting hot already. I move down and take her breast in my hand and begin to tease it, rubbing it in between my fingers. When it becomes hard, I take it into my mouth, teasing it a bit more with my tongue, before I begin caressing it, as well as to the other.

His lips on my skin were driving me wild. I never wanted him to stop. I work my way up his thigh to his arousal and slowly begin to stroke him, moving my fingers in a sensual circular motion on his tip

The moment her fingers touch my erection, I jump slightly. As her fingers begin to stroke, I slowly fall into a wonderful oblivion that has been awaiting me.

"Oh baby.. "

Suddenly her fingers begin encircling my tip, sending explosive sensations throughout my body. "Oh god.. Charlie... that feels so.. good..." With my breaths become more gaspy, I come up and kiss her, taking her tongue in mine and begin softly sucking it, then moving down with sensual kisses down her stomach and taking my fingers and sliding them across her thigh and trailing them up and down her thigh. Coming back up, I slide my fingers into the waistband of her shorts, sliding them down. I was greeted with a sexy high cut panty. I traced the outline with my finger and moved down to trace my tongue up and down her inner thigh.

"No, it's you who feels so good. Don't stop" I whisper breathlessly, as my legs tense up in a desperate attempt to control my body's urges. Giving into the sensations and the urges, I arch my back and bend my knees, allowing him to take me further into this sweet intoxication.

Seeing her arch her back in pleasure made me even more aroused. My hands went up and moved under her buttocks and gently began massaging them. Then reaching under her, I begin to rub against her femininity. Looking into her eyes, I can see the orgasm approaching.

As his fingers caress me intimately, a sudden alarm goes off in my head. Brian was touching me. I wanted to scream at him to stop but at the same moment, I couldn't deny the strong sensations that were making my head spin. I was close to relinquishing all control. I was scared. Scared of what was happening and what was about to happen. I began to shake again, as i reached for a nearby pillow and bit down on it, trying to suppress the urge to scream.

I took the pillow out her mouth, replacing it with my mouth. The kiss was deep and passionate, as was my desire. I slowly felt my way down her thigh to slide off her panties. She was gorgeous. Not a flaw to her. I couldn't believe that this was really happening. I had wanted this for a while now. I wanted her to feel, to know how I felt about her. She was the one, the one and only. Then, I moved away from her a little and slid off my pants.

His mouth crashed against mine, drawing me into him with a fierce passion. I responded to him, tensing up slightly when he removed my underwear. Oh god, is this really going to happen? I asked myself as he slipped out of his pj's and I saw him completely natural for the first time. He had an immaculate body, that combined with his eyes full of love and desire and I knew I never wanted to share this with anyone else.

"Are you okay?" feeling her tense up.

"I think I am" I whisper in response

"Okay... Charlie... you know I love you right?... and I wouldn't do anything to hurt you" I whisper

I know Brian..I love you too"