The afternoon had become bright and sunny as the showers that had recently fell were now just puddles on the ground. I felt like a gray and rainy day. For the past several weeks, Charlie had been ignoring my calls. I couldn’t even get answer out of her friends. All I could think about was that she might have found someone else. We hadn’t seen each other in a couple months due to my schedule but we talked on the phone for hours when we could. Maybe, I was just too hopeful that this long distance thing would work. I just couldn’t bring myself to think of her in someone else’s arms and not mine. But maybe I was taking this out of proportion. Maybe she just needed time alone to concentrate on school or maybe something had come up with her family. I just wished that she would call me. I missed her so much and the thought of her being with someone else was just crushing.

Nick was supposed to be coming over sometime soon to work on some song that he was writing. He seemed a little down on the phone, but maybe that was just because of the weather that were having. I know the guy must be aching to take his boat out. Anyways, I loaded the dishwasher and went to watch Sportscenter til whenever Nick decided to show up.

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I was a little late getting to Brian's. I'd gone out earlier this morning to get groceries and bumped into Amy. It wasn't pleasant. We exchanged a few harsh words and when I got back, I debated about calling Natalie then decided against it. I wanted to be her friend still but I didn't want her to think that I was trying to make a move already. When Brian answers the door, I can tell he's having troubles of his own. There are dark circles under his eyes and he looks tired and stressed out.

"Hey, you look like crap"

"Thanks…and hello to you too.."

"Sorry...hi....everything alright?"

"Just peachy..." as I made my way back to the recliner. "I think Charlie might be seeing someone else"

Oh ouch i think to myself as I take the other recliner.

"Are you sure? Has she ended things?"

"No.. but she's been ignoring my calls for the last couple weeks and her friends won't tell me a thing. Now what does that tell you?"

"That she might be caught up with school work and is busy. You're not doing yourself any favours by stressing over something that may not have happened"

"I know, but I can't help it. I know she's got to have some down time, I just wish she would call me to let me know she's ok at least. But anyways, you were working on a song .. let's see it"

"Oh yeah...I umm...I have the chorus figured out, it may seem a little personal" feeling embarassed all of a sudden

No I can't let you go, you're a part of me now
Caught by the taste of your kiss
And I don't wanna know the reason why I bCan't stay forever like this
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss you

"No no, it's good.. Its kinda like what I'm feeling right now too.."

"Like it's ever gonna make a difference" I say and sigh

"Maybe, maybe not.. Don't let the possibilities wear you down. Just let the words flow and take it from there. "

"hmm welL, before the chorus, what about:
yeah it's coming to get me, you're under my skin

"It's good lead in.. umm.. Let me think for a minute.." After few minutes, I grab a pencil and begin to write.

Close your eyes, make a wish
That this could last forever
If only you could stay with me now
So tell me what it is
That keeps us from each other now

After reading it again, I gave it to Nick "What about that and then put your line, leading into the chorus?"

"Yeah that could work" I pause and begin to hum the tune. "It works well"

Picking up the tune that he was humming.. I started singing it to myself as my brain was turning gears.... I kept trying to come up with words but they wouldn't seem to come at the moment. I decided that I had to channel all my engery and thoughts into what I was truly feeling... how I felt about Charlie.. then the words would flow like a fountain..

Take my hand, take my life
Just don't take forever
And let me feel your pain kept inside

As I reach for the chorus, I look at brian. We both grin.

No I can't let you go
You're a part of me now
Caught by the taste of your kiss
And I don't wanna know the reason why I can't stay forever like this
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss you

We end harmonising on the last line. Then I think of Natalie and wonder if we'd ever have a chance together

"It's an illusion" I start to say and pause thinking back to that night "How can I feel this way"

Feeling his vibe, and knowing what he was probably thinking about. I knew just the right words. "If I can’t have you... right?”

I smile...Brian knew me so well

"Yeah...that's right" I pause to think some more

"it's an illusion...nothing is real this way"

"If I can't have you.... and then maybe go back into the chorus?"

"That's it! Brian you're a genius...thank you so much"

"Well, I don't know about that but..... oh, just out of curiousity, are you wanting to put this on an album?"

"Maybe in the future but at the moment I just wanna keep this between you and me"

"Alright...cool. Well, now that I got that out of my system a little, you wanna catch a game on TV?"

"Sure" and I go to his fridge and grab us two cold beers"