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He was sitting on the ground in front of the television, but it was closed. He stared into space, just letting his thoughts flow through his mind. How could he have let himself fall in love with his best friend? The person he always went to when things were going wrong...the person he trusted the most. He fell in love with her...how? He had never felt this way about her before.

Remember when
We never needed each other
The best of friends
Like sister and brother
We understood
We'd never be
Alone

This was ridiculous. She was coming over in a couple of minutes to hang out. Her. The only one that ever made him smile a real smile. She would be there in a few minutes, and he didn't look good for her. Did he have time to take a shower? No, no, he couldn't, she would probably show up at his door and he'd be in the shower and she'd leave. He couldn't afford not to see her today. He had just seen her the night before, but she wasn't his, she was his best friend. He didn't get to hold her, he didn't get to be held by her. He still didn't understand why...he never meant to feel this way after all they'd been through.

Those days are gone
Now I want you so much
The night is long
And I need your touch
Don't know what to say
Never meant to feel this way
Don't wanna be alone tonight

He dreaded the time he was sleeping. All he wanted was to be with her during the night. He hated being alone, apart from her. Knowing she was at home alone as well killed him. Why didn't she know? Why didn't he tell her how he felt? Did she know? Had she noticed by the way he'd stare at her when he thought she wasn't looking? No, it was impossible, she had never talked to him about that, and she talked to him about everything.

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do
How did I fall in love with you

He was so nervous, what was he supposed to say when she got there? But, he had never felt this way before, not even that morning. Maybe it was just the fact that he was having a bad day, or maybe because he knew she would never feel the same way about him. Why did he need to fall for someone who would never love him back? But even worse, why did he have to fall in love with his best friend? He always thought that he could control who he fell in love with, but she sure proved him wrong.

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child
That I resemble
I cannot pretend
That we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight

Oh, she would be there any minute. He tried fixing his hair in the mirror but it was no use, instead of looking at his hair he looked at his eyes, full of tears. What were the tears about? Was he crying because she would never be in his arms the way he wanted her to be? Or maybe because he loved her so much it hurt? What could he do to make her his?

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do
How did I fall in love with you

What if he told her he felt this way? Would she then start noticing him as someone special? What more to ask from her than a soft kiss, a kiss to fill his thoughts with love and pleasure and laughter. If he was gonna tell her, he had to do it right, and it had to be that night. He didn't wanna live like this anymore. It hurt so bad to know all of this, and be the only one to know.

I wanna say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't wanna live this lie
I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna spend the rest of my life

A knock on the door echoed through the room and snapped him out of his thoughts. He quickly wiped his tears away and opened it, smiling a smile he always reserved just for her. He looked into her eyes as he let her in, telling himself over and over how much he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her.

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do
How did I fall in love with you

She spoke and he listened carefully, wanting to memorize her every word. Wanting to remember how good it felt to hear her voice. She spoke again, and he started trembling at the sound. She told him what she had done that day, and he rehearsed every word in his head, making sure not to miss one single word. He observed as her lips curved into the smile he loved so much. He watched her curls as she spun them around her finger. How could she be so perfect? How could he have not noticed it before?

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard, so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall in love with you

He guessed that it was his turn to talk and tell her about his day. He explained, not really knowing what he was saying. He only had one simple question going through his mind the whole time he was talking to her... How did he fall in love with her?

"How Did I Fall In Love With You" -- Backstreet Boys, "Black And Blue".