Truly Madly Deeply

By Alicia

"I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy. I'll be your hope, I'll be your love, be everything that you need. I'll love you more with every breath, truly, madly, deeply do~. Cause I'm counting on a new beginning, a reason for living...."

"Don't make a promise you can't keep Nick!" Annalesia said irritated.

"And what makes you think that I can't keep this promise?" Nick asked softly.

"Oh I don't know. Maybe the fact that your never here to carry out that promise!" Annalesia said turning to Nick.

"Well I'm gonna be home now for four months!" Nick replied softly. Annalesia rolled her eyes.

"Yeah! It's always 3 months here, and another 4 there. And then your gone again for more months than your home! You always promise me that you will be home more, be with me more, and that you love me. But you dont keep those promise's and I don't feel that love!" Annalesia exclaimed.

Nick was silent a moment. "Anna, I love you more than life it's self." Nick said moving to her, running his hand down her shoulder. Annalesia closed her eyes at his gentle touch. She had missed, and longed for his touch for so long.

She opened her eyes, tears brimming them, as she looked up at him, "Then prove it!" she whispered, brushing his hand away and walking away from him and to the door. Nick stood there unable to speak.

"Wait Anna.... please!" Nick pleaded.

"No... I've waited long enough Nick. I can't do it anymore." she said turning to look at him as she stood with her hand on the door.

He looked completely pathetic, in a sad way. His bright crystal blue eyes, were now dull and grey as tears filled them. He stood defeated, with slumped shoulders.

"I'm sorry Anna. I'll try harder. I promise! I love you!" Nick choked out with a shaky voice.

Annalesia shook her head no, she feared if she spoke a sob would take place of her words. She quickly turned and walked out, pulling the door shut behind her. She leaned against it, a tear sliping down her cheek. "I'm so sorry Nicky..." she whispered as she quickly got into her car, and pulled away.

Nick rushed out the door, "ANNALESIA I LOVE YOU!" he yelled as she drove away. "DO YOU HEAR ME? I LOVE YOU!" he yelled again.

He stood there watching as her car disapeared from his sight, and continued to stand there after her car was long outta sight, willing it with his mind to bring her back to him. He looked up to the now darkening sky, "ANNALESIA!" he screamed.

Minutes later he turned and walked back into the house, slamming the door behind him. He had slammed it so hard that pictures on the wall rattled in their place, and one of the pictures sitting on the hall bureau fell to the floor with a loud crash in the quiet house. Nick looked to the floor where the picture frame lay, broken glass laying around it. He slowly walked over to it. He bent over and picked up the frame, he slowly turned it over and looked at it. Tear soon filled his eyes again. It was a picture of him and Annalesia at Disney World in Florida, taken about a year before.

It was summer time, Annalesia's long auburn hair hung down over her shoulders, and sunglasses covered her dark chocolate brown eyes, a smile as wide as the grand canyon played on her lips. Nick stood behind her, arms wrapped around her from behind, the same smile playing on his lips that played on Annalesia's. Nick touched the picture gently, the angrily brushed the tears away. Hurt and anger setting in as he contnued to look at the picture, he suddenly flung it across the room, and against the wall, busting the frame. He then turned and cleared the bureau off of any other pictures, and other objects alike. Broken glass and broken pictures frames lay everywhere. But he wasnt done yet. He continued on into the living room, doing much the same as he angrily questioned why, as tears now freely flowed from his eyes,

"Why Anna? I love you!" he said as he continued to destroy the living room, and into the den. After about 30 straight minutes of emotional outrage, Nick stopped and looked around him. He stood in the middle of the now detroyed den, that was adjoined to the living room. He seen broken picture frames, and things that may remind him of Annalesia. Broken things were strewen all over the floor. He slowly trudged his way outta the den, through the living room, and the front hall. He began to climb the stairs slowly, once he reached the top he went to his and Annalesia's room. He clicked the light on. He looked around, he could faintly smell her lavendar body spray that she always wore.

He looked over to their bed, neatly made, he felt empty, and so did the house with out her. He clicked the light back off and closed the door behind him, as he left the room. He walked down the hall his head hanging down. He opened another door, it was to a spare room. He pushed the door open wider as he made his way over to the bed. He flung himself down and settled in for a restless night of sleep. He laid there for hours not really getting muh sleep. Thoughts of Annalesia never coming back to him haunted his mind.

'What do I gotta do Anna? I love you so much! Do I hafta cry some more?' Nick thought to himslef. He laid there staring up at the ceiling, a song he had been working on earlier played in his head. It now all came together, and flowed out, like water from a water foutain. He sighed heavily and looked over at the alarm clock that sat beside the bed on a night stand. 4:45 am. He had laid there awake all night thinking of Annalesia. He groaned and sat up in bed. He sat there for a moment, then headed back down the stairs. He stopped on the bottom stair, and looked around. He slowly stepped through the mess and in went into the kitchen. He grabbed the broom, and began to clean up the mess he had made, collecting all the pictures up off the floor, and stacking them neatly on the bureau. He did the same in the living room and den. After he had finished with that, he sat at the table and begin to write.

Dear Annalesia,

I have been very unreliable. I am so sorry! I have
been so stressed out with the solo album, that I
got so caught up in it and my self that I didnt
give you what you need and deserve the most...
Love. I want you to know that I do love you, with
all of my heart! I went crazy when you left. It
scares me to be with out you. I will make this all
up to you baby, I promise you! I love you Anna!
Love always,
Nicky

He folded the note up and set it out on the the bureau. He headed back up the stairs, and back to the spare bedroom, where he laid down. He drifted off into a very light sleep.

Next Morning...

*RING*RING*RING*RING* "Yeah.... Nick here." he answered grogily.

"Where ya at man? You were supposed to be here forty five minutes ago!" Nicks manager said.

"Ah man! I'm sorry! I over slept. It's been a rough night. Annalesia left me, and I havent really slept much. Just give me about thirty minutes and I will be there!" Nick said.

"Fine! Bye!" his manager said hanging up.

"Bye..." Nick said flatly hanging up as well.

He took a quick shower and headed off to the studio. Once there he began working on the song from the night before. "Wow! I like it Nick! It's gonna be a hit!" his manager exclaimed. "Yeah well there is only one person that this song is meant for." Nick said taking the copy he had made of the song, and leaving.

He arrived home, and headed inside. He placed the tape with the note on the bureau. He picked up the phone and dialed.

"Hello?" Jenni, Annalesia's best friend answered.

"Hey Jenni, it's Nick. Is Anna there...?" he asked.

"Um... yeah hold on..." Jenni said. There was a moment of silence, "Hello?" Annalesia answered.

"Anna please come home.... I miss you. I love you..." Nick said.

"I can't Nick. I dont wanna hurt anymore." Annalesia said softly.

"Neither do I! Please... just to talk. I wanna work this out Anna." Nick pleaded. Annalesia was quiet.

"Please..." Nick said again.

He heard her sigh, "Okay... I'll be over in a few." Annalesia answered.

"Thank you..." Nick said.

"Bye..." she said softly hanging up. Nick smiled and hung up as well.

Thirty Minutes Later...

"Nick?" Annalesia called out. Her breath caught in her throat when she saw the front hall, and the bureau. She walked over and seen the note, and the tape. She picked them up, reading the note, tears filling her eyes.

"I'm in the living room Anna..." Nick called out.

She wiped her eyes, and headed for the living room. She seen it was in the same state as the front hall.

"My gosh, what happened?" she asked softly.

"Me. I went crazy after you left. I'm fixing it all though." he said as he pointed to a stack of picture framed.

"What's this?" Annalesia asked holding up the tape.

"A song for you..." Nick said taking the tape and putting into the player, and pushing play. Music soon filled the year, followed by Nick's voice. Annalesia closed her eyes, and listened to the words.

Don't wanna close the door,
Don't wanna give up on it
Don't wanna fight no more,
We'll find the way around it
Where's the love we had?...
We can make it last

Tell me what I gotta be,
Tell me what you wanna do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?

So tell me what it's for,
If there's no winner in it?
Nobody's keeping score,
Let's start from the beginning
Can we make it last
Where’s the love we had

Tell me what I gotta be,
Tell me what you wanna do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?

Do I gotta stay in the cold of night
Till the morning light, yeah
Do I have to say
I will let you get away

What I gotta be,
Tell me what you wanna do
'Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Yeah

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh no
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?
Do I have to cry for you?

Tears slid down Annalesia's cheeks, she was unable to speak. "I did cry Anna. I cried when you walked out the door, I cried when you drove away, I cried as I destroyed the house, and I cried even more when you didnt come home. I cried because I love you Anna. I love you more than life it's self." Nick said softly.

"Oh God Nick, I love you so much! And to know that you cried for me, lets me know that you really do love me! I'm so sorry I hurt you!" Annalesia said going into Nick's arms.

"No I'm the one whose sorry. I shoulda told ya more that I love you. Cause I do Anna. I love you!" Nick said holding her close and tight.

"I love you too Nicky!" Annalesia said softly.

The End