Jackie's perspective

"Did you find him?" Emily asked as I walked in the door.

"No, I don't know where else to look!" I cried in despair, "I've checked everywhere! I can't think of any where else he would go!"

"It's Okay Jackie, maybe Judy or Joe found him." Emily hugged me.

"But what if they didn't? It's been two days! What if something happened to him? What if . . . " I was crying now. I hardly ever cry.

"We'll find Jackie. Don't think about the what if's, it'll drive you crazy." Emily said as Joe walked in the door.

"Any luck?" Emily asked. Joe shook his head and walked over to me.

"Judy called me while I was looking. She hasn't found him either." Joe remarked sadly. I noticed that there were tears in his eyes. When Judy got home Emily made dinner for all of us but no one felt like eating.

"Judy, you have to eat. You can't not eat," Emily told her.

"I know. I'm just worried. Where could he have gone?" Judy had been in tears since she had come home to the news that Jason was still missing..

"We'll find him. We have to find him." Joe was pretty shaken. He considered Jason as part of the family and he was worried about him.

"I have to go back to the hospital tonight." I mentioned. "Dr. Smith can only cover for me so much and everyone is probably wondering where I am."

"You should go, we'll look again tomorrow. We can only look so much in one day." Emily tried to sound cheerful.

"I'll give you a ride, Jackie." Joe offered. He didn't want me to go alone. If something happens to her too, I won't be able to handle it, Joe thought as the headed to the car.

AJ's perspective

Kevin, Nick, Howie and I were outside the hospital getting a little fresh air. We hadn't seen or heard from Jackie for two days and Kevin was getting mad.

"I don't see how she could just not be here! I thought she and Brian were better friends than that!" Kevin fumed. He was mad because Brian missed having Jackie around. He didn't like to see his cousin upset, especially when he was sick. Just then Jackie walked out of a car and started toward us. Oh shit, I thought, Kevin's really going to give her a piece of his mind.

"Where the hell have you been?" Kevin yelled, "Do you always leave your patients with other doctors or do you just do that with friends?"

"Kevin . . . " She began. Jackie sounded really tired.

"No! I don't want to hear some dumb excuse about your show! It doesn't take two days to sign papers!" Kevin was really pissed and Jackie didn't look like she was in the mood to fight.

"Look, Kevin, Jason is . . . " Jackie tried to explain.

"I don't give a damn about Jason! He hasn't even seen Brian once! I thought they were supposed to be good friends! Normally a friend would call or drop by, but then again Jason never was normal was he! He's been hiding something forever! How can you trust him?!"

Jackie was getting angry now. She's not going to stay calm for long! I thought to myself. She'll blow soon!

"You have no right to bring Jason into this, Kevin." Jackie's tone was low and dangerous. Here we go, I thought. If Kevin doesn't keep his mouth shut there'll be trouble.

"You should be here for him and so should Jason! I never did like him! I knew he would let Brian down sometime or another!" Now you've done it, I thought to myself, Jackie's going to explode. . .

"You have no right, no right at all to bring Jason into this!" Jackie yelled back. "You want to know who's heart that is, huh? It was Nat's! Nat's dead! And Jason lost the only family he has left! Do you know how hard it was for Jason to sign the form that said Brian could have Nat's heart? He couldn't even speak! He was too upset! Could you have done that? Would you have done that for someone? And you say he's not a good friend! He cares about Brian so much! But losing Nat is hard on him. It hurt him so much when I had to tell him Nat wasn't going to wake up ever again! And now we can't find him! Jason has disappeared completely! I've looked everywhere for him! That's why he hasn't visited! He left right after the funeral and I don't know when he's coming back! I don't know if he's coming back! He does have a secret! But he doesn't have to tell you if he doesn't want to! That doesn't mean he's a bad person! He told Brian and Brian's still his friend! Maybe he thinks you couldn't handle it! I don't think you could! You wouldn't understand! So you can just go screw off! I'm here because I care about Brian enough to stop looking for my best friend to make sure he'll be fine! Why don't you just leave me alone?! This is hard enough without you yelling at me about stuff you wouldn't understand!" With that, Jackie turned and ran into the hospital.

Kevin's perspective

That's not true. It can't be true. Someone would have told us, I thought.

"It's true. I figured it out a couple days ago. I was at the funeral." AJ broke the silence.

"I'm going to go talk to Jackie." Nick walked toward the hospital.

"AJ, why didn't you tell us?" I asked, still not believing what I had heard.

"Jackie asked me not to. She doesn't want Brian to know now. She thinks it will upset him." AJ replied. He's mad at me, I thought.

"I didn't know. I wouldn't have . . . " I started, but was cut off

"Wouldn't have been so mean?" AJ finished.

"Yeah, I didn't know it was Nat." I answered.

"We shouldn't tell Brian, not yet. We should let Jason tell him." Howie mentioned. I messed up big this time, I thought, Jackie's going to be mad at me for a while.

Nick's perspective

"Jackie? ...Jackie are you in here?" I asked, looking in the staff room.

"Go away," came a voice from a chair facing the window.

"Are you Okay?" Dumb question, I thought.

"What do you think? Kevin's mad at me, Nat's dead, Jason's gone, Judy's scared for Jason and Brian thinks Jason and I hate him. Do you think I'm Okay?" Jackie didn't sound angry, just hurt.

"I'm sorry, Jackie. Kevin wouldn't have said all that stuff if he'd known. I'm sure he's not mad. Brian doesn't hate you or Jason. He just doesn't know why you guys disappeared on him." I thought I heard Jackie crying, but Jackie never cries.

"But Jase . . . I don't know where he is, Nick. We've been looking for him for two days. I've looked everywhere I can think of and he's still missing." Jackie voice was shaking. Is she crying? I thought to myself. I came up beside her and saw she was.

"It'll be okay, Jackie." I tried to believe it myself.

"How do you know?" She sounded so lost, so afraid. I'd never seen Jackie scared or weeping. She was always the one to look on the bright side. It made me feel terrible knowing that she was hurting.

"I don't know Jackie but it will." It seemed like the right thing to say, but it wasn't enough. I hugged her. Jackie hates hugging, but she let me hug her now.

"It'll be okay." I repeated. It's got to be, I thought.

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