Things Happen...Weird topic ya? Hmm... Yupz.. things happen... lotsa things, actually... and emotions go cranky. Don't know why. That's the way the world works, I guess. Time pass real fast ya? Maybe a little too fast. People start to think about the past... start to think about why they wasted time. Terrible feeling. Hrmph. What can I say? Hrmph.
I posted these 2 questions on the class blog. Shall post it here also.
1. Is it better to know when you're going to die... or is it better to die suddenly?
2. Why does God create man (Ok.. ok.. that's just the christian belief... why do man come to this world then...) if one day we'll die anyway... why the trouble???---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Courses start in ermz... slightly less than a month's time. 14th June. Looking forward to it... but wonder if I'll be going though. Like I said, a lot of things has been happening. Hmm... don't know, must see what happens first. Hmm.... well.. courses is another big problem. Don't think my BWLSS cadets will be able to pass course. Hmm.. 3 weeks to get silver accred. No trainings during June hols. Cranky... How to do that? I don't know!!! AH!!!
Miss my fwiends... miss Mel, JF, YH, HM.. everyone else... strangely enuff, I miss my batchmates more than I miss my classmates.. weird ya? Hmm.. maybe that's because I saw ling and cherlyn pretty often last month... It's been at least a month since I last spoke to any of my darling batchmates on the phone!!! I'm going crazy... Should call them one of these days. Hmm... must must call them... or I'll forget about their existance!!! Haven't gone down to HQ for 'bout 2 months, I think. Miss those pple there too! Hmm..... just realised that much of my social life revolves around RC. Weird...
Might be going to NUS or NTU... been telling myself that I should forget about the Otago idea. Yupz, like I said.. things happen. I should just leave the med sch idea till some time later lah... think these few years, I should stay near home. Of course, if I get into IMU, that's the best.. but luck is seldom on my side...
Ooo... did I mention that I don't think volkswagon's beetle car is the nices car in the world anymore? there's this nice nice convertible... Peugeot's 206CC... Mm... nice.... NOT the one that they have been showing on TV... I'm talking about the convertible... Nice nice... should paste the photo here ya... wait.. let me find it...
ChangesIt's been such a long time since I last posted. Hmm... Been busy doing other things. No, it's not that I didn't have time to post. Let's just say that I erm.. erm.. forgot all about posting. *sheepish grin*
Got my results in the beginning of March. Not good. Don't want to talk about it. Sigh. Applied to NUS and NTU. Mr Loo said that I should be able to get in. Let's hope that the nice bio teacher of mine is right. Went for Royal College of Surgeons' interview... nice friendly guy interviewed me.. should get the reply some time in April *prays hard ..very very hard*. IMU.. well... don't know. I'll send in the application and see what happens. Well, there's nothing else I can do now right? Just wait and see.
A lot of changes to RC this year. The whole restructuring thing... well, to put it frankly, I don't like it. Wanted to "retire" at the end of last year but decided to give myself another a go at it. Realised that sch-based VI is not my cup of tea. Think I'll go into semi-retirement by the second deployment... have to see what happens to BWLSS by then. Can't possibly just let go right? Aiky is has to go on leave, David is still in his first year (well... strictly speaking, in terms of being a VI.. I'm also in my first yr!!!), Mrs Ng is completely new and just after the 2nd deployment, even the committee will be completely new. Argh. Sometimes, don't you just hate responsibilities? Well, I think I just have to pray hard that HQ sends someone else to BWLSS. I'll be out of the sch-based scene next year, I promise myself that. Really don't like it.
I thought going back to doing courses would be a nice change. Well, in a way, it's nice. Nice to be working with people I know, people I'm comfortable working with. No, not saying that Aiky and David are not nice. They are great people. Just that... Mel, YH, Huimin, JF, Jiafen, GX, Wendy and seniors like Louis and Vincent Sir are just in a different league altogether. But... it is so similar yet so different this year. To begin with, most of the people are not around. I have never seen such a terrible manpower shortage in EVIC and FDIC. Very sad. People say that it's because of exams and other commitments... but how about in previous years? Maybe it's the restructuring. I don't know. Shouldn't say this, I guess. It's just my personal opinion, doesn't mean anything k. :) Then, there are the newcomers. Some of them are great but others... sigh. I always thought ICR among juniors is something OTHER seniors have to manage... now that it's so near... I don't know. If it's the old days, I'm sure the more senior ones will say something to them... now, the seniors are not around... us... who are we to say anything. We're just fellow volunteers. Higher rank, so what? Bet they won't listen. I mean, if depts still existed... we would, in a way, have more "right" to talk to them... now... it just seems inappropriate. Don't know. When I was an IFC, we had seniors to guide us, to teach us, to tell us off if we did anything wrong. It seems unfair to the current new blood to have no one to guide them. Maybe it's not their fault that they don't know what to do, how to carry themselves, what to say and what not to say. Maybe we, as their seniors, should tell them. But... it seems wrong to go to them and teach them. I asked someone and was told that our time, we had a certain amount of discipline... when I look at some of the new ones this year, I don't think they even know what that word means... don't think they even know what a uniformed group is. It is frustrating. Maybe I shouldn't think about it.. then I wouldn't be bothered about it. Right? Hmm...
Ok. I'm not happy being sch-based, I'm not very very happy doing courses. Maybe it's time to get my ass out of RC. Sigh. It's been so long. Wonder if I can truly let go when the time comes. Sigh.
ARGHI WANNA COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!!! or rather.. I WANNA BITCH!!! I had this ultra ultra long blog... talking about how I spent my 15 days of CNY.. but..... blogger wasn't very very friendly... blogger doesn't like me... after half an hr of typing last night, blogger decides to send me an ERROR msg.... and *woosh!!!* there goes my half an hour's effort. *grumble* .. okiez.. this is going to be a really bitchy post.
So.. yesterday was a bad day. Very bad. First thing in the morning, I had to squeeze onto 170.. DON'T ask me why no one ever EVER queues up on Saturday mornings.. they just DON'T. Had to SQUEEZE on lorz... it's bad on normal days.. but yesterday... I WAS CARRYING MY RC UNIFORM!!! YIKEZ!!! So poor me... while worrying about those fat idiots (ok. I'm not slim. but nvm) breaking my hanger... and crumpling up my uniforn.... had to squeeze on 170.... this coming Saturday is another uniformed session... I wonder how I'm going to manage... and when course starts.............. -no comments-
Things always seem to get worse when you think it cannot... the way nature works is really really erm.. IMPRESSIVE. I got to Braddell mrt at ard 7.45-ish.. got tiaoed by a cadet on the mrt. She doesn't know me. Fine. I was wearing the volunteer's tee.. obviously a HQ instructor... but I got tiaoed. NVM. KIDS. HRMPH! She better thank her lucky stars that I don't know her name.. 'cos I know her sch... and I know her VIs. *evil* Anyway... I also met one of the BWLSS cadets... and she told me "Ma'am!!! How ah? I 4got to bring my beret" How am I supposed to answer? For a moment, I was really lost. Things at BWLSS are so different from what I am used to back in RG or while doing courses in TD... sigh. I told them.. I even smsed QY on friday evening... FALL IN BY 8.30am means 08 30 hrs... SHARP... but NOoooooooo... 8.30am some of them were not even in uniform... tell them to hurry up, they look at me as if I was speaking french. ARGH. *puke blood* OK.. so punctuality wasn't there. Drills standard... no one will believe if I said that they were going for FD comp in 2 weeks' time. As for the overall running of the whole training.. well.. the agenda is just a piece of paper with words that I am supposed to stare at. They can't even agree on who is the IC for the day. Pushing the responsibilities to and fro. No idea why. *severe blood loss*
Next was District FD comp recce.. that went along fine.. :) maybe the only good thing that happened yesterday. Got to see Mel, Huimin, YH and Jiafen. *happy* After that.. I went to Queen st.. thinking of taking the S'pore-Johor express home. Very tired by then. Queue was very long. Decided to take 170 instead. All was fine until we reached Bt Timah road. A malay family boarded the bus... 2 little malay kids... ok. Devil is a better word.. landed themselves beside me.. ('cos I was sitting on the last row..).. woke me up from my sleep with all their noise...and when I looked at them.. you'll think they'll start behaving themselves...and NOOoooooooooooo... the stared back and shouted "STOP IT" right in my ear... sheesh. What do I have to stop? 5 secs before that, I was ASLEEP.. I was in laalaaland playing chess with Zhou Gong!!!... Then they had to wake another guy sitting on the other side of the row... So... 2 kids wanna play.. 2 tired pple don't get to sleep... will they let us off? Noooooooo..... then they started making funny faces... sticking their tongue out at us. SIGH. I was feeling like a bitch then.. so I behaved like one.. After 20 minutes of their nonsense, I tapped on their father's shoulder... (he was sitting diagonally in front..bz talking to his friend.. not bothering about what happens to his little devils)... and said in a very polite voice... "Excuse me sir, can you get them to behave themselves please?" He turned around and scolded them and they shutted up. Malay guy on the other end of the row nodded "thank you" to me. He tried once again to sleep.. and so did I.. but 10 secs later..the kids started all over again. WHY.. oh WHY do I hate little kids?
When I got to the M'sian immigration, it just HAD to start raining cats and dogs. That was the only part of my journey where I have to be in the open... no shade.. and yay!!! RAIN!!! got wet of course.. DUH. BAD DAY. Relatives came over for dinner. Nothing much happened. Teng broke a spoon. but NVM. he's cute. he's not like those little devils. he's cute..and he's my nephew... *smilez* I like him. haha. Played with teng and little ter.. (the toddler my third aunt babysits) all is well. I thought everything was alright.. then decided to start blogging.... 'cos yesterday was the 15th day of CNY and I have not blogged for a long long time, I thought I'll write about what I had been doing for the 15 days. Blogger couldn't be nice to me.. it just had to make my day worse than it already was.... Haiz..... now I'm smarter.. I've got this blog saved as a text doc on notepad.. if there's error again later, I can just copy and paste. *smart* *glows with pride*
Tick... tock... tick... tock...Hmm... time past really fast right? Someone I've known for 10 years is going off to study in Ukraine tomorrow. We were from different primary schools.. but we got to know each other through this erm.. common "enemy".. then we met again in secondary school where we were classmates in third lang class........we weren't close then...... after sec4, I thought we'll never meet again.. but I found her in my JC class after 1st 3 mths!!!! We even got into the same university in NZ... but..... things don't always happen the way you want it to.
Well, she has a chance to study something she wants to and I'm happy for her. But... kinda worried also. Ukraine IS a weird place to go right? I mean.. it's not one of the 'normal' choices... but... this may be the only way she can study medicine. Maybe we'll meet again in grad school??? or maybe we'll work in the same hospital in future? I don't know.
The chinese have a phrase... "tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi" .. I guess it's time to say goodbye. I hope we'll stay in contact and maybe we'll meet up when we're back for holiday? :) Ling, here's wishing you all the best... take good care of yourself ya..
Gong xi gong xi gong xi ni a...HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! :) Mehh... Mehhh... It's the year of the GOAT!!! heehee.. OK.. my third aunt and my cousins told me that it's a good year for those born in the year of the rat... *grinz* but mummy said that it's not that good.. BUTTTTTTT.... I prefer good news lah.. so... yup!!! it's going to be a gooooood year!!!
First day of new year.. Went for new year visiting... mostly my mummy's side one lahz.... nothing much happened lah.. my first aunt moved house.. so we went to her new place instead. :) Met some of my cousins and my little niece and nephew. Heehee.. so cute.. so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kawaii desu!!! Then I went to my third aunt's place to play cards... Ermm.... ok. lesson learnt.. never play cards the way my brother does.. it doesn't work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let me explain.. you see, what my kor kor does is that if he loses in one round, he'll double his bet.. if he wins... he halves it.. but erm.. that way doesn't work for me!!! Lost like crazy... nvm. can always win again tmr.. er.. nono.. later today.. heehee.. aiya.. there are 15 days..... no fear.....
Oh... my uncles (relatives from my papa's side this time) came to my place today...... still the same lah.. the twins nephew I have... 5 years old liaoz.. still dunno how to 'jiao ren'.. and so notti... screaming and shouting...keep wanting to go upstairs.. don't like them. Bleah.. oh ya.. and to make matters worse, I'm bias! HA!.. Teng teng is so much cuter than those 2... maybe it's because I'm closer to him lahz...
Anyway.. I'm looking forward to the 2nd day of new year!!! Lotsa pple are coming to my place!!! But this year.... not gonna meet some of my cousins...... 'cos one of my uncles gotta work lorz.. so they gotta help out.. can't come over... so sad rightz?? Kz... that's all I've got to say right now... erm.... here's wishing everyone a Happy Chinese New Year.. Gong xi fa cai, wan shi ru yi!!!
VrroooommmmNothing much to say 'cos nothing happened these 2 days.. Hmm.... let's see... Went shopping with my mommy on wednesday.. *smilez* bought my new yr stuff.... yay!!! :) and bought toys for teng and dawn.. (my little nephew and niece lahz)... wah.. had to lug their toys ard as we shopped..... 'cos those are the first two things we bought lor.. not very heavy.. but very very bulky!!! ok.. lesson learnt.. always leave the biggest item till last next time you go shopping..heehee... then went to collect my contact lenses (after almost a MONTH!!!) argh!!! very very disappointed with them... they gave me a free pair... but....... only the left side is correct.. right.. wrong prescription lorz.. what am I suppose to do with a pair of free contacts that I can't use? Hmm..................................................... okok.. anyway.. shopping.. shopping... I bought my shoes and a nice nice red top.. aiya.. ang ang bo hai nang (in teochew).. go new yr visiting in red.... nothing will go wrong.. heehee...
As for thursday.... went driving again...and continued to pack my room... This lesson.. I did 3 pt turn..and the slope thingie.. quite fun.. Just that it was drizzling lorz..... and the instructor was late... appt at 8.30.. he appeared at my house at 9.40.... hrmph!... eh.. I woke up earlie on a nice rainy day and he was late lehz..... but CNY coming.. think he was busy with some stuff earlier in the morning lahz.....nvm lah.. (see? nice me) quite fun lah today... but those stuff that I had to do in the driving sch... piangz.. turn steering wheel until so tired...... don't ask me why..but I was sweating okiez................................................
After driving in the morning.. had to pack my rm lor... ya ya.. I know.. I have been packing my room since goodness knows when.. but hey!!! there's a lot of stuff to throw ok? I mean... A LOT... removed another shelf .. not bad right? and oh!!! I didn't know my room has so much dust.. *cough cough* *choke choke*
Driving:) It's been AGESSSSSSSSS since I last posted right right right? I'm sure even blogger missed me... *grinz* well.. I STARTED MY PRAC DRIVING LESSONS!!!!!! YAY!!!!
heehee... first time was last Sunday... it was very very very fun!!! heehee.. the instructor made me drive to Holiday Plaza area... Sunday... Noon... Lots of cars.. SCARY!!! today... learned how to park... also very fun... heehee... I'm cranky, I think. I hope I hope I hope I can get my driving license sooooooooooooon... ladida... ok lah.. considering that my L license expires in April.... I have to get my P license soon right?
