The first time was a mistake
You lied and cried you never meant it
I guess I didn't quite know what to think
I just hoped that'd be the end of it
But the second time was heartbreak
This time there was no regret
Unless you count the tears that fell
When I cursed the day we met
But in spite of will or desire
Some things just don't come true
And the things that hurt the most
Are those you can't bare to lose

Does it make you feel like a man
Laying your hands on a girl?
Come on tell me
Are you on top of the world?
Is it the grabbing or the bruises
That give you the control?
Come on tell me,
Cuz I'd really like to know
Come on tell me
So I can let you go..


For the first time in my life
I just wasn't strong enough
Behind all the smiles and bullshit
I was far more weak than tough
And it's funny, the man who claimed to love so strong
Was the one who brought me to my knees
And so you took it and used it against me
I guess it made you feel empowered
And I don't know if you've ever tried
To keep something so bad inside
Have you ever smiled until it kills you?
Just so that they never see you cry?
You made me feel like I was nothing
You treated me like dirt
The back of your hand was how I found
A way I never knew that I could hurt


And that's why I don't anymore
You'll never see me cry
You'll never see that part of me
And here's the reason why
It gave you satisfaction
It made you feel complete
The lower I felt, the stronger you were
But I'm back up on my feet
So fuck you asshole, fuck you you bitch
You'll never be a man
And fuck you cuz I know
That you'll never understand


Well I threw away your bullshit
It means nothing to me anymore
And I hope it kills you to see me smiling
Though it can't begin to settle the score
I often wonder how long it'll take
To heal the wounds you made
Or how long it'll be til I can trust again
How long til I'm no longer afraid
You see I put up with the bruises
The times you brought me to my knees
But the pain you caused that I couldn't stand
Were from the scars you couldn't see