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Friday, 21 November 2003


Medicated dreaming.
This is new.

Last night I discovered that only a really bloody stupid moron would take pills to make them sleep, then force themselves to stay awake till two o'clock, working and writing, long epistolary discussions about how reality sometimes seems like a set of russian dolls.

This morning fell on my head like a bloody sledgehammer. Ten minutes groaning on the side of the bath. Moving like a moth through cement. If time at six o'clock normally passes thus:
My morning slowed right down to:
Still, it renders you usefully placid with the general public. An average meaninglessly confrontational exchange with a stranger at the |genericjob| became:
he: "What the FUCK are you looking at?"
me: Easy. Big, dr-e-a-m-y smile, and walk away.

Got home at half-four (ray! nearly still daylight), and didn't even make it as far as the bedroom. I think I'd tried to stagger the one foot from the door to the bathroom before I spied the forbidden bliss, the spare bed, calling to me.

I came to (two claws in my scalp and one wet muzzle shoved in my eye, thanks for asking) around two hours later, sprawled over the spare bed, still muffled in my winter coat, eiderdown dragged over me. Hair an interesting new flavour of damp curl. Groggily groggily.

And now it's time for the next pill.

This page graced by sarsparilla at 7:12 PM GMT
Updated: Friday, 21 November 2003 7:19 PM GMT
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Friday, 21 November 2003 - 8:26 PM GMT

Name: Sue

I stayed up till 2am as well!! I should off called....I watched a stupid programme I'd watched before. How pointless is that! Only two more hours of work them I can collapse too..askfrkjsfhkdj.. opps just nodded off on the keyboard (not! - it was a joke!heehheeeeeee)

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 9:13 PM GMT

Name: Vanessa

Why the hell are you working at this time of night? It's Friday! I've been home five hours, me.

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 10:03 PM GMT

Name: Sue

eeeee yah lazy bugga.... I've go-raf-fan-'our ti go beefor I can go 'ome.

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 10:03 PM GMT

Name: sue

that was meant to be a reply to your last comment but @#%$! it up - I'm veh veh tired...

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 10:04 PM GMT

Name: sue

hee-hee, I can swear with wild abandon - you @#%$!!

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 10:05 PM GMT

Name: Sue

Why does @#%$! look like @#%$!? It fekin' shouldn't!

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 10:08 PM GMT

Name: Vanessa

I dunno - go over to jatb's site and you can swear all you want, even though it's on angelfire as well. She has 'adult content'.

Bah. Snot fair.

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 10:22 PM GMT

Name: tess
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Snot fair? I'd sooner spend my evening in a pikey carnival ta

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 10:37 PM GMT

Name: Vanessa

Lol!!! And so, Tess's wish was granted..... :o)

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 10:50 PM GMT

Name: paul
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I can't think of a single good reason why I'd take a sleeping pill and then stay up, but damned if I dont' do it every single time I take a nyquil. It's supposed to make you sleep, but I fight it with every fiber of my being for some bizarre reason. I can only imagine that it's because my body would still rather fight a cold awake rather than asleep. Or I'm an idiot.

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 10:53 PM GMT

Name: Vanessa

I don't know why you do it, but in my case, it's definitely because I'm a bloody idiot. I should be in bed speeding along a medicated wave of buzz now, and what am I doing? Reading blogs and giggling.

Friday, 21 November 2003 - 10:56 PM GMT

Name: Vanessa

Sue said: "eeeee yah lazy bugga.... I've go-raf-fan-'our ti go beefor I can go 'ome. "

Right you - time you were outed. Sue's my sister. This is why I can't speak the Queen's English without curse words or colloquialisms. Look. Just look! The Northernisms....

I was dragged up, me. ;-P

Saturday, 22 November 2003 - 7:44 AM GMT

Name: ThePimpress
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i'm sorry Vanessa i know i shouldn't laugh at this but i did. it reminds of this time (waxing nostalgic) i accidentally too a sleeping pill. it didn't make me sleepy straight away it made me hallucinate. the dried potpourri flowers got up and danced, i swear. shortly after i must of fallen asleep though. but it was trippy while it lasted.

Saturday, 22 November 2003 - 12:48 PM GMT

Name: Vanessa

Hah - dancing pot pourri sounds nightmarish in itself. Feel free to take the @#%$! at any given moment - it's the preferred response to blogging, I think. Well, for me it is. :o)

Country-boy drugs like cannabis always hd a similar effect on me - waaaay too sensitive to the psychotropic to ever faff about with them. As a teenager, everyone else in the room would be giggling and munching, pleasantly stoned, whereas I'd already be ensconced in part one of a two day hallucination, standing in the corner wondering why they couldn't see that my face had just melted and dripped off. *shudder*

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