Need

//Everywhere someone’s getting over
Everybody cries 
And sometimes you can still lose even if you really try 
Talking about the dream 
Like the dream is over 
Talk like that 
Won't get you nowhere 
Everybody's trusting in the heart 
Like the heart don’t lie//

I don’t need anything.

I just stood there and let you walk out of my bed, out of my room, and out of my life. I didn’t do anything but watch as you finally worked up the conviction to leave me. I could have stopped you; I could have convinced you to stay. But, I didn’t.

You’re probably moving on even as I sit here in the dark. You’re probably crying and accepting and preparing to go back into the real world. The real world that I tried so hard to distance you from for as long as I could. I tried so hard to keep you with me. But, sometimes you can still lose even if you really try.

You’re my dream, Lita. Stephanie is reality, but you’re the impossible dream that every man wants. And, I had you for a while. Now the dream is over. You’ve left me alone with the cold reality. I’ll go to bed, but you won’t be there beside me anymore.

If you were here, I know what you’d say. You’d say that talking doesn’t get you anywhere. That the only way to succeed is to get out there and do it. Ever the fucking optimist, huh, Lita? Well, you’re not here, and I’m falling apart.

My heart hurts. It’s not supposed to be this way. I’m the one who does the hurting in relationships. You should be the one with these feelings of loss. It’s not right. My heart isn’t supposed to be doing this to me, you were nothing.

I don’t need anything.

//And that's all that I need, yeah
Someone else to cling to, yeah
Someone I can lean on
Until I don't need to
Just stay all through the night
In the morning let me down
Cause that's all that I need right now//

I don’t need anything.

This is all wrong. I’m not supposed to need you. You were supposed to be a roll in the sack for me. A bed warmer when Steph’s not around to fill the position. I was supposed to be using you. You were the one who was supposed to get attached, so that it was all the sweeter when I let you go.

I don’t want someone to cling to. I’ve never wanted someone to cling to. Now there’s something in me that screaming with need. Screaming because it’s all alone with no one to hold on to. That part isn’t supposed to exist. Those feelings don’t come out in me.

I want you to be here. I want you back in my bed, back by my side. Lita, come to me. You’ve never resisted before. When it gets dark out, there you’d be at my door. You would spend the night with me, content in my charms. When the morning would come, you would leave. Because I only needed you at night.

I don’t need anything.

//Everywhere someone's getting over
Everybody’s life is someone
People still use other people with a crooked smile
And all around the world there's a sinking feeling
Out there right now someone's feeling
Down on themselves and don't know why
Every night//

I don’t need anything.

I was your life. I hope you don’t think I don’t know that you drifted away from everybody else. You think you did it yourself, but you didn’t. It was all perfectly orchestrated by me. They don’t call me the Cerebral Assassin for nothing.

I used you completely. It was so easy. All I had to do was find you when you were vulnerable. After that, it was simply the work of a crooked smile and a smooth voice. I told you everything you wanted to hear, and you did everything I expected you to do.

At first you thought nothing had changed. I showed you otherwise. I made you change slowly. I made you into who I wanted you to be. I made you completely dependant on me. I watched as you slowly sunk into the depression of hopelessness. Every night you came, even though you didn’t want to. You didn’t even know why.

Then, you got tough. You started fighting. You took on a spark that made me all the more interested in crushing you. I didn’t get to, though. You escaped. You left.

I don’t need anything.

//And that's all that I need, yeah
Someone else to cling to, yeah
Someone I can lean on
Until I don't need to
Just stay all through the night, yeah
In the morning let me down
Cause that's all that I need right now//

I don’t need anything.

Now, something’s happening to me. All the while, when I was changing you, something in me changed as well. You influenced some small, neglected part of me and now it won’t shut up. It’s there all the time, making me feel things.

I’ll admit, part of me wants you back. There are no deeper emotions involved in those, though. I may want your body, I may want to break you, but I don’t want you. Only that one part cares. That small part that won’t stop screaming for you.

It’s like a child. It only wants to cling, to feel safe. I’m disgusting myself. I don’t feel that way. That’s not who Triple H is. It’s your fault that part of me is feeling that way.

I don’t want you. I’ll never want you. That part will die eventually. After all, you’re not that important. You’re plain, ordinary, you’ll never be someone, Lita. You’ll always be someone’s second choice. A motel room slut.

I don’t need anything.

//And life ain't no beauty show
We don't know where tomorrow ends
And when we're sad
It's kind of a drag//

I don’t need anything.

You’re pretty enough, I suppose. You have to be to get by in this business as a woman. You’re not amazing though, not like Trish and Torrie. You’re there for your talent, you’re not part of the beauty show. That’s all you ever hear, isn’t it? Insults concealed as compliments.

The days must get long for you. Shoved into your role, having to do what is expected of you. It never ends. Except when you come to me. I was a reprieve, wasn’t I Lita? I let you get away from your pathetic little existence.

Now you’ve left me. Now you’re all alone. There’s no one there anymore to push away all the sadness you have inside. It’s kind of a drag, isn’t it?

I don’t need anything.

//Just stay all through the night
In the morning let me down
Yeah, cause that's all that I need
Yeah, that's all that I need
Yeah, that's all that I need
That's all that I need right now
Right now//

I don’t need anything.

I don’t need you by my side. I don’t need you in my bed. I don’t need anything from you. I’ll show you. You’ll see. You’re nothing to me. Nothing at all. Why don’t you come and find out?

You are cordially invited to the wedding of
Hunter Helmsley and Stephanie McMahon
On October 30, 2003