August.24.03:What time is it?: 2:58 p.m.
What is the date?: August 24
Why are you filling this out?: cuz im bored
Full name: Heather Marie Quandt
Do you like it?: its alright
Nicknames: uhmm... marsha, donna, heath, turtle woman, english muffin, strawberry, and theres a few more but yah.
DOB: Feb.28.03
Height:5'8
Hair colour:strawberry blonde
Eye colour: bluish green
Where do you live?: grindley ave, west bloomfield, oakland county, michigan, united states, north america, the world, earth, the solar system, the milky way, the universe.
Do you like it there?: yea
Why/Why not: becuase i live there
Where were you born?: michigan
Astrological sign: pisces.
Shoe Size:8 or 8 1/2
School: central
GPA: haha i dunno around 3.7 or somthing
F a m i l y
Parents names: teresa and walt
Do you have any siblings?: uh huh
If so, what are their names and ages?: Jesse-10, meagan-3
Are your parents divorced/remarried/single?: married
Pets: my lil brother. he poops in a box. haha jk
Names: jesse
Do you like your family?: most of the time
Favorite relative: my aunt
F a v o r i t e s
Number: 12
Color:blue
Car:Mustang convertible
Season: SUMMER!
Holiday: easter and christmas
Month: june
Day of the week: friday
Grade so far: 9th
Sport: basketball or volleyball
Class: history
Teacher so far: Mr. Hartmann and Mr. Sharpe
Drink: iced tea
Candy: snickers
Food: alfredo, or pineapple
Fruit: pineapple
Veggie: califlower
Dessert: every single one
TV show: that seventies show
Radio station: 89X
CD: Good Charlotte's new one, the sounds, count the stars, the ataris, Rooney... i dunno. i dont have a fave i could go on for hours. what a gay ass question
Movie: The matrix, a walk to remember, this is another dumass one.
Actor: Heather Ledger
Actress: julia roberts or julia stiles
Song: im not even going to try and answer that question
Word: radical
Phrase: i peed my pants
Animal: dolphins or llamas
Flower: lilacs
Clothing store: pacsun
Article of clothing: my sweatshirts
State (that you've been to): massachusets or florida
Ice cream flavor: cookie dough
Breakfast food: bagel
Way to have fun: acting silly with friends and laughing a lot
T h i s O r T h a t
Me/You: you
AOL/AIM: AIM
CD or Cassette: CD
DVD/VCR: DVD
Radio/CD:radio
Slow dance/Freak dance: slow dance
Jeans/Khakis: jeans
Jacket/Coat: sweatshirts. unless your asking what i call it. i call it a jacket
Leather/Pleather: leather
Sparkles/Bronze: bronze
Sexy/Hot: hot
Car/Truck: truck
Civic/Acura: huh
Corvette/Camero: vette
Strong/Weak: strong
Upset/Pissed: pissed
Tall/Short: tall
Lunch/Dinner: dinner
Abercrombie/Hollister: hollister. it smells good and its all beachy. i like it.
Gap/Old Navy: old navy
Nsync/BSB:well i was into nsync when i was younger. i never really liked the backstreet boys. im not to into nsync anymore tho.
Britney/Christina: christina
Love/Lust: love
Gone In 60 Seconds/The Fast and the Furious: ive never seen gone in 60 seconds so i guess fast and the furious.
Inside/Outside: depends. maybe outside
Lipstick/Lipgloss: lipgloss
Silver/Gold: silver
Piercings/Tattoos:piercings
Football/Basketball: basketball
Thunder/Lightning: lighting when im outside, thunder when im inside
This/That: that
L o v e & R e l a t i o n s h i p s
Do you have a bf/gf?: no
If so, who?: no
If not, do you have a crush?: no i dont. unless you count this druggie in my history class. hehe
How long have you liked your bf/gf/crush?: no
What about them do you like so much?: no
How long have you known them?: no
What physical feature attracted you to them first?:no
If you're single, why do you think you are?:cuz im ugly and fat. haha
What was your longest relationship?: about 2 to 3 months
Shortest: a weekend
Who was your first love (if you've had one)?: no
Do you miss them (if your not still together)?:no
First kiss: lol some kid when i was camping. but it doesnt count i was a dumass back then.
Most recent kiss: not
Who is one person you've liked but NEVER said a thing?: this neighborhood guy with a white mans fro hes pretty hott.
P a s t
If you could take back one thing you did, what would it be and why?: disrespecting or being mean to a friend.
you have any regrets?: same as above
Last thing you said: kay
Last song you heard: Living in America-The sounds
Last person you talked to: my mom
If you could get back together with an ex: hmmm.
P r e s e n t
What are you doing right now?: filling this thing out.
What CD is in your cd player?: lemme check...nothing.
Are you cold?: no i have a sweatshirt on.
How are you sitting?: with both feet on the ground.
Is there music on?: no
If so, what song is it?: no
What time is it? 5:54
Where are your parents?: at a neighborhood party
F u t u r e
How old will you be when you graduate high school?: 18 i think
Are you going to get married?: yes
Although you can't tell who you'll marry, is there anyone you'd wish it would be?: ya
If so, who?: a christian heath ledger that can surf
Are you going to have children?: yea
Do you want to go to college?: yea
Which college: i dunno
What kind of car will you want to drive: mustang convertible
What kind of job will you have: doctor or marine biologest
What are your expectations for when your 25?:to be suceeding in my life and going places.
H a v e Y o u E v e r
Drank: ya
Smoked: i have if you count breathing in camp fire smoke on purpose and then blowing it out again because i was bored.
Skinny Dipped: yah a long time ago. when i was in 5th grade.
Prank called the police: haha no im too chicken.
Been followed, ect by the police: no. and etc doesnt mean example you gay ass. and even if you DID mean etc, you need more than one example for it.
Stole: yah, carolyn left a barbie dress at my house and i kept it cuz i was mad at her. i never told her this and i still have the dress.
Met someone off the net: yah. well kinda, we met thro friends.
Been in a fist fight: with my lil brother but that doesnt count i dont think.
Punched your sibling/parent: yea
Wished you'd die: no
Tried to commit suicide: no
Broken a bone: no
Driven illegally: yes
Thrown things at your parents: yes
Runaway: tried to when i was four.
Filled out a survey this long: never
O t h e r s
Do you right in cursive or print?: print
Are you a lefty, righty, or ambidextrious: righty
Do you believe in God?: yea
Whats your religion?: christian
What do you think of rainbows?: hott
Do you have any piercings/tattoos?: yea
If so, where?: ears on bottom and the top of my left ear and my bellybutton. not really but i want it there.
If not, do you want any, where?: see above
What do you think of Eminem?: yah
Is Tupac Shakur really dead?:i dont care
What do you think of Britney and Justin?: whatever
If you could live anywhere else, where would you live?:australia
Do you drive?: almost
Do you have braces or glasses?: no
Like milk and cookies?: sure
Ever worn black nail polish?: yes
Girls, what color nail polish do you have on?:one hand purple.
If you could have a 6th sense, what would it be?: i can fly.
If you have a magical power, what would it be and why would you want it?: to be able to do anything i want.
If you could be invisible for a day what would you do?: sneak into places i wouldnt normally go to and listen in on other ppls convos haha.
Do you do things even when your parents say no?: yes
What is your favorite song to "rock out" to?: rock songs.
Ever taken anything from a hotel?: yea
Did you talk to your crush/bf/gf today?:shut up
If so, for how long?: shut up
Do you think this is stupidly long?: llamas
Did you like it?: hott
What is the time? 6:05pm
The reason it too so long was because i went to a block party in the middle of it.
rock out.
August.23.03:Last night me and carolyn went to the wrong movie, slept thro it, get in trouble for being too late, flipped on a hammock and rolled down a hill while spilling pop all over us and losing my brownie, [not to mention that it was the best one] breaking the hammock after getting more food, and then leaving before we messed anything else up.
Today I:
woke up, said goodbye to carolyn, ate lucky charms, then went back to bed and slept until anna called my cell inviting me to the mall. Then we went to the mall it was fun. Except i think aaron was embarrassed of us but thats okay, he doesnt deserve us as friends if hes so embarrassed. haha!
August.20.03Omg its so not as bad as i thought it would be. Its fun and i have SOME classes with ppl i kinda know! I'm sad though because i didnt see Cadell today. And in biology and teen health i dont know people. But its okay. All my classes got switched around tho because tomarrow i have to have a new scedule. I'm nervous! Ahhh! oh well. It'll be kay.It was a lot of fun today! Hehe. WE'll see how that guitar lesson goes.
August.19.03:AHHHH!!!! School starts tomarrow! I'm really nervous but at the same time i'm not. Its weird. But I'm afraid of tomarrow. AI'm afraid of the bus too. Lol. I'll deal.
I know that this is the first actual kinda entry in a while but i didnt really type anything the other times because i work on my site when i'm nervous or mad and i was so mad i didnt want to type anything. Lol. But now im just nervous so its all good.
Oh, I have that new thing on the side. Cuz i figured if anyone wanted to comment then that would be a good place to. Please comment. I dont care if you dont have anything to say just do it.
Oh! And to add on to all the stress tomarrow i have my first guitar lesson tomarrow.
Kay well I'm gone.
August.18.03.
Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone,
In a world that she can't rise above,
But her dreams give her wings,
And she flies to a place where she's loved,
Concrete angel
I like danger pins.
School starts in three days not even.
rock on.
August.8.03:
I added a new section with cool stuff.
rock on.
August.6.03:New Wallpaper. More i like thingys.
I'm kinda scared of going to high school. I'm having all these doubts and crap. Especailly after i decided not to do basketball. It just wasn't fun for me anymore. So i decided not to do it.
I'm looking forward to starting over but in the process of starting over i think I've lost a couple of my friends and that kills me. I hate it. I try to be all nice and stuff but its never enough for them to just be my friend. God, i mean, its not a hard thing to do. You dont have to hold all these frickin grudges! God, it bothers me so much. ANd I'm so confused over everything i dont have one straight thought anymore.
Tata, check out that new wallpaper.
July.28.03:Uhh i guess i should write stuff in here cuz i havent in a while so here i am. yah, I've been changing and adding a few things i've just been too lazy to actually write in the blog. Cuz i dont know what to say. Summers is almost over. Three weeks until school. Thats really sad. Summer always goes by too fast. Well this is a bery lame entry but tata.
July.19.03:Camp was sooooooo great! I had so much fun. I cant even typr about everything that happened because my fingers would fall off. You'll have to call me and ask me about it. But, just to give you an idea, I was in the Matrix, I played Braveheart, got poured on at lake michigan, sang really really fun songs, made a ton of new friends, sunk a canoe in the Manistee river,[first canoe in the history of that trip to fully sink and almost lose a canoe.] I went to a really fun hoe down, i went to a icecream place and on the way was honking at random ppl, almost got flooded outta my cabin, witnessed three baptisms at the lake, rocked on with BBSmooze, worked my swerve, met someone named Nels, and Stori, [arent those cool names?] and a TON more. But most importantly i TOTALLY strenghtened my relationship with God. I'm on fire now and i crave to follow him. Its so amazing. The worship time was amazing there. EVERYONE in the room was so fired up. If you werent a christian when you got there, you definately went home one. During worship it was soo amazing because everyone was so into it and just praising Jesus. There wasnt a single person who was "too cool" or anything to not sing and worship. It was so cool. It was a great week and i am DEFINATELY going back to the fall retreat. And other ppl should go too. Its soooo much fun. And guess what band is gonna be there! ForeverNow! hehe. its going to be great. tata for now.
July.12.03:Tomarrow i go to camp! Alright! Like i said before...you have to send me mail! lol.
Bascially the only reason im updating is because i made this thing i wanted to post. Okay. Sam and Frodos kids. Will look like....THIS!
its not great i did it in like ten seconds and didnt feel like touching it up. So the skins a lil discolored. Hehe. alright thats about it. oh p.s. Nothing against LOTR. Its really cool and i like it. Its just, Sam and Frodo are a bit...queer. Everyone knows it.
July.11.03:Okay! I redid the adoption thing a little. you have to email me if you adopt one. Lol. And then if you do and you put it on your site. I will link to you from my site. So its a pretty good way to advertise your site.
Lol, yesterday it was T-storming so we couldnt go to the wavepool. But we did glow in the dark putt putt then we went swimming in anna's lake. Lol. Then we went to subway. That was a riot. Hehe. And the whole day me and Anna we're saying all these how to lose a guy in 10 days lines from that movie to Aaron. It was funny. Then we saw Pirates of the Carribean. That was good too.
Ooooh! I cant wait until camp. But it will be weird to go to a different one. But itll still be fun.
I want everyone to send me and nicole mail there! Heres the address:
Portage Lake Bible Camp
4158 Camp Delight Rd.
Onekama, MI 49675
So send us mail! PLeeeeeeeease! I'd love it. lol.
July.9.03:Yah you know it! A NEW LAYOUT! hehe. it took me one looooooong day to get this thing up. I hope you like it. And you know why i put a new one up? My whole entire homepage html got wiped out. Doesnt that suck? Oh, well, i made a new layout because of that. Thats why i didnt update and why i had that hiatus. Grrr. I was so frusterated. but anyways. Moving on. hehe.
Guess what! Tomarrow i get to go to the wavepool! YES!
I was so alone today because everyone in my family cept me and my dad are in toronto and my dad was @ work so i was allll alloooone at home. ::sniff:: Thats why i sat in front of my computer and made this thing. Hehe.
Guess where i get to go Sunday! Camp! Alright. Me and Nicole are going together. I hope its fun. It snuck up on me. I wasnt thinking that it was THIS sunday but it is. How rad is that!? Hehe. I'm totally stoked. hehe. Oh, do you like the music? I thought it fit, ya know, boys of SUMMER. BEACH theme. hehe. okay.
June.25.03:One more day of basketball! Yeeess! I'm doing okay in it but the first time i did it i screwed up a lot in the beginning. But now its all good. But still, I hate going. lol. But i only have one more day. So thats cool and stuff. I dunno if i want to go to the camp though because its a JV team going and i would have to play JV.
I didn't update or anything and im going on vacation so nothings gonna be new.
But yah, I'm going to west virgina for a week and a half. Right after basketball. Fun Fun.
I found this awesome group called the postal service, and the lyrics are really cool. I especially like the beginning of this songs lyrics. I think that they're really cute.
Brand New Colony
by The Postal Service
i'll be the grapes fermented, bottled and
served with the table set in my finest suit
like a perfect gentleman
i'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the
ancient brick where you will sit and
contemplate your day
i'll be the waterwings that save you if you
start drowning in an open tab when your
judgement's on the brink
i'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite
albums back as your lying there drifting off
to sleep...
i'll be the platform shoes and undo what
heredity's done to you: you won't have to
strain to look into my eyes
i'll be your winter coat buttoned and zipped
straight to the throat with the collar up so
you won't catch cold
i want to take you far away from the cynics in this
town and kiss you on the mouth
we'll cut our bodies free from the tethers of
this scene, start a brand new colony
where everything will change, we'll give
ourselves new names (identities erased)
the sun will heat the ground under our bare
feet in this brand new colony
everything will change, ooo ooo...
You better have read them and not just skipped over them, because i think that they're great. hehe.
Later:Okay, I'm really really nervous because i have basketball camp tomarrow and it is my first day of it and that camp effects my basketbal tryouts, and I'm really stressing out that I'll do bad, or everyone else will be SUPER SUPER good and i'll be the worst persona there, and i havent actually played in a basketball game since like, a loooong time ago, like, since my last season, and its 12 hours away and i already have butterflies in my stomache. Ugh.AHHH! I'm soooo nervous.
June.22.03:I got the book! Yeeees! lol.
I put some new music up, i was getting tired of that Saliva song. So here is Heathers fave song! Alright!
Oh, i added some more icons. lol. The star one is dumb but i was bored so what the heck.
june.20.03hulajulajive: lol i CANT WAIT UNTIL TOMARROW, im gonna be so happy ill give the ups guy a hug! THE FIFTH HARRPY POTTER BOOK! Ok, so i'm a geek! But who cares! lol.
I made a new wallpaper. I like it a lot.
Oh, and guess what! Not only was I at nicoles for two nights! I was at her house for three nights! Doesnt that rock? Lol.
June.18.03All right! I'm at nicoles house and her house rocks! I'm staying here for two nights! I'm such a rebel!
Hehe. Okay, guess what! I finally got my cell phone! Alright! Hehe. Its so cute i love it!
And also guess what! I'm obsessed with this band called Rooney, and i also think that this guy in the princess diaries is really cool and i want to be his friend, but anyways, that guy in the princess diaries is the lead singer in Rooney! How awesome! Its a major quinkidink. [Or however you spell it.]
June.12.03:All that stuff i said in my last entry has gotten sooo much better! lol.
I made a new wallpaper! It rocks!
At cedar point, me and anna were going on this octapus ride, and we were really hyper, [like usual]. So when i read the guy that was strapping us in's name tag, it said Zac. So i was like, "Hey Zac!" and he was like, "Hey!" and i was like, "Do you like working here?" and he was like, "yeah!" and then anna jumped in and was like, "Your my hero!" and hes like, "I try!" so then me and anna went on the ride, and we had a blast and acted all retarded, like we did on all the other rides. When the ride was over, guess who unbuckled is! Zac! So i was like, "Hi again!" and he was like "Hey!" and anna was like, "thank you!" so then, while we waited for nicole and anna's mom to go on the ride, "i dared anna to give Zac a hug, So anna went up to Zac, and was like "I really aprreciate all you've done for us." And Zac was like, "your welcome." Then, thinking the conversation was over, Zac turned around to give the clear sign. Right then, Anna gave him a hug! It suprised him a lot! And he was laughing so hard it took him like five minutes to give the all clear sign, he was like falling over. Haha. that was the best.
June.10.03:I was having such a great week. Now i hate this all and I'm sick and tired of dealing with the love/hate triangle that three of my best friends have going on. Its so frusterating to me because i try with ALL MY MIGHT to fix things, and to make everyone happy. But then they all get pissed at me like I'm just in the way. I'm just trying to help you know? I honestly feel as if I'm the only one who cares enough to fix things. Honestly, thats how i feel. it sucks. I was having such a great week...
June.9.03:Okay! Today was a great day! It was so cool! Because right when i wake up and get out of the shower, i find an email from the person i like asking me out. lol. I think i scared Aaron cause i asked him a bunch of questions. But no worries. I said yes. lol. So yah, thats why today was such a cool day.
But now its getting worse because i'm not feeling to great and i have a softball game tonight. Yuck. I'm soooo sick of softball.
June.6.03:Today was the last day of school and my last day of St. Matthew. It was sad because I'm not going to see all my friends every day like before but what makes it worse is that i think i like one of them. Even though they are totally clueless. It bothers me. I'm soooo confused. And if you ask me who i'm talking about, i'm not gonna answer. Well, i might, but don't count on it. But yah, i'm really confused about the subject.
Thats about it though, but i had a cool graduation. Lol. It was cool. And Chicago rocked too. Even though i got kinda upset there there because of the above person. For those of you who think like Anna the person I'm talking about above is not Josh.
Kay. Cheers!
May.31.03:This weekend rocks! I went to Cedar Point with my aunt and uncle, and I went on the new ride! It was sooo cool! I waited for 3 hours though to get on it. But it was worth is even though it was only like 20 sec long.
Today, for my confirmation present, my mom took me on this shopping spree, which never happens for me. It was so cool! 
I got a ton of clothes!
^A shirt I got from ae. Yah, i shop at ae.
Do you like the music? I like it. It took me a lil bit to do it, but i got it eventually. Oh, if you cant hear it, you need wither real player or quicktime or something for it to run so thats why.
I cant wait until Monday. I'm going to miss all my friends so much. But on Manday its going to be a lot of fun to go the Chigaco. I've never been there before so it should be interesting.
But, like I said before, I'm going to miss my friends a LOT. They are always there for me, they always forgive me when i do idiotic stuff and say stupid things, and they always give me hugs and advice, plus they always are there to talk. I I consider myself sooooo lucky because I have about 10 best friends. I'm truly blessed. Its just starting to hit me that i wont see them everyday, and that Im going to highschool and meeting other people. Its weird, like I always knew it was coming, but it just hit me, like I just realized it. Its like the sunrise, even though you know its coming, it still takes your breath away when you see it.
May.27.03:Okay Okay, so really its the 28th, cause its 12:50 a.m. hehe.
I made a guestbook! Its cool and you have to sign it!
I went home sick today and slept a lot! So I'm up working on my website! Fun Fun!
I'm so proud of myself because i got all my journals done! Yes!
I'm going to miss sooooooo many games its not even funny! AHHH! My coach is going to hate me. lol. Thats okay.
Kay, nighty night!
May.26.03:No school! Its memorial day! Hooray!
Ok. Well, yah, i got confirmed yesterday! Big big day ya know.
I only have a three day schoolweek! Yes! Cause on friday im goin to cedar point with my aunt and uncle! its going to be so much fun! I can't wait to go on the new ride. I'm so excited.
I added some buddy icons. Go check em out! Use one as your icon! Please! Ok so yah. Thats about it.
May.23.03:Watermelon! I made a new wallpaper. Its about all I had time for. I was in the mood for watermelon so i decided to make a watermelon background.
This is the second time I'm doing this. ugh. this frusterates me. I had everything i wanted to say typed out and then when i tried saving it it didnt work! grrr.
OK an apology to Kirsten for giving her my self pity story about me and my confirmation presents. I shouldn't have done that I should have kept it all to myself. I especially feel bad because although i wasn't expecting any money, I already got some from an aunt in Las Vegas. I shouldnt have let myself get jealous of other people and i should have realized thats it wasnt worth it. I feel really bad and im sooo sorry.
Happy Bday Carolyn!
I won my game! And i finally got an out at home when i was catching.
Im sick of school as usually. Some of my classmates are really getting to me. None of you reading this are in that group of classmates. Unless i didnt give you my url for this site; then you may be on it. Who knows! lol.
I wrote a ton more in my first entry but i forgot what it was about. sorry!
Kay.
May.15.03:I'm soo tired right now. I had a softball game, and instead of being first and third like normal, I was catcher it was the worst. My legs were like shaking. [For all of those of you you play baseball or softball, you know catcher is the worst] If you dont play baseball, you can't quite understand my pain and I'm ok with that.
But we played Steph and she won so thats a good thing for Steph! haha. Go Steph!
I haven't had time to put any content on this site, and i'm really sorry! Its just i've been busy. So maybe I'll add a wallpaper or something. haha. Its the best i can do.
Oh, and YES i realize i've spelt evanscence wrong on my wallpaper. Deal with it until i change.
I'm so happy! you know why? Becuase all my friends are happy with each other again! Now I can relax! YAY!
May.12.03:Hey! Okay, I'm currently waiting for my hair to dry cuz I'm testing out hair styles for confirmation. It's tough work. My arms hurt!
I added a new link. It's Steph's site! It rocks! Oh, and i added a wallpaper. Evanescence. They ROCK! They girl is cool.
Oh, i went to the mall yesteday to get a new confirmation dress, and i saw a awesome vintage cocktail dress at JC Penny. It was all black with a little red and it was sleeveless and REALLY COOL. My mom was gonna let me use it for confirmation but i didn't think it was right for it. BUT ITS SOOOO COOL. yah. ok, on to something else.
Oh, Ohio was fun. We saw a couple hot guys there. HeeHee.
Nicole has officially gotten me into Harry Potter more than i was. I can't WAIT for the fifth book to come out! its killing me! lol. I hope i dont turn into one of the Harry Potter freaks, but i dont think i will cuz i dont even know any personally. Lookie! Isn't Ron hot? 
^HAHAHAH! I love it! Don't you? HAHAHA. ok.
May.8.03:Guess WHAT! I'm working on desktop wallpapers and then maybe an aliem maker or something so yah.
I'm missin school tomarrow! muhahaha! I'm going to the Great Bear Lodge in OHIO. lol. Its by cedar point. I'm soo happy, I was going to have to miss our feild trip, but it got reschuduled so now i can go! YES! lol. ok. Thats bout it.
May.6.03:Light stuff first...
Congrats Steph on winning your game!! Great Job!
Our fridge is a peice of crap and now we have to put all your food in a cooler and in the downstairs fridge which really bites.
Now on to the heavier stuff.
Me? How am I doing? Well basically I'm sick and tired of dealing with everyone else's problems. I care, but I'm not a perfect person, i get SICK OF it.
Right now a lot of people are getting on my nerves with how depressed they are acting when really, they have almost all the same problems as me. [If you disagree, tell me your thought and i will make you understand.] I don't want to sound conceited and rude, but, i think that they are just caught up in the drama of things, and think that my life is great, and that i DON'T UNDERSTAND. When most of the time, I DO UNDERSTAND. And to make them understand that i do understand, i will have to tell some pretty deep secrets and i'm not willing to do that. So I guess what im saying is, go ahead and think that i am just being rude and uncaring, because im not willing to give up those secrets.
I have about one person right now who is reading this and he understands, but i'm not sure about the rest of you. Maybe even a few of you will get mad, but PLEASE, don't. You can not blame this on me because YOU are the one reading my blog. If it offends you, stop reading.
^That was rude, I'm sorry.^
Right now I'm just erally frusterated and confused and sick AND TIRED and that with a TON of other emotions is all jumbled up and I'm about to cry.
Later:The links page is done! Yay! This is the button i made to link back to me,
Cool huh? Go to the links section for the html code.
May.5.03: Yay! The adoptions are done! Go adopt a fruit! I don't care if you think its too small or don't get it or don't understand pixels, just go adopt one okay?
Next I'm going to make a links section. Yah, that'll be up soon.
I hate it when you work so hard on something, then when you show other people they really don't care or get it. Nicole understands.
I have a game tonight, but I don't feel good at all, and I need to sleep. I have a MAJOR headache. I hope the other team is bad. I need to sleep but i don't want to. [my inner battle at the moment.]
I just thought of this: Some are really snotty and don't care and they push you around to get what they want not caring of they step on you to get there. Okay, so that thought didn't just hit me, but i just thought to write it down. Its not really appyling to anything going on, it just bothers me.
One more thing, I had a terrible history class! We changed seats and now i sit by the one guy in the class that I EXTREMELY dislike. He's sooo annoying and thinks he's acting funny when really he's just acting dumb. Why me?
Later Still:Its all rather like sick and twisted kindergarten games where it we thought that if one person didn't let us use the blue fingerpaint, then that person must hate us now. Or how if you made a scene and a big deal then you would get attention? Thats almost what this all is about.
Later: I hate it when people get over dramatic about their life and act all depressed. When really, they aren't near to being depressed. And they they act like they have the cruelest life ever and stuff. I dont understand, and usually something little just sets them off, like a boy problem or something. Then they claim to be christians and stuff but then they act like they have no hope or joy. If you are a christian, you should have hope and joy because of Christ right? Its ironic that usually its the people with all the money or with about 3 boys liking them. And then they act like you don't understand when you see everything being played out from every direction every hour of the day. Plus, you know both sides of the story, and they only have their one very opinionated side. Then they expect you to take their side and not care when they trash your other best friend. It bothers me. I feel like I'm walking on a very hight tightrope and that i have to balace EVERY SINGLE THING OUT. Like, say i dont sit with them at lunch or silent reading, then someone is gonna assume I'm super mad at them or that I'm a jerk who doesn't care and is shunning them. (Believe me, it's happened before.) I feel like I'm trapped and that everyone trapped with me is shallow and not very understanding. Well, I shouldn't say EVERYONE there are select people that do not get on my nerves. But the people that i'm closest to are the ones that seem to be trapping me in. I don't know if im the problem and I'm just being an idiot, or if the other people are really being stupid. I have no clue. All i know is i need to cool off and in order to cool off i need to LEAVE. And get out, FAST.
May.4.03: First Entry Ever! I'm sooo proud of myself!
I made this layout all by myself!It took a ton
of hard work but I did it!
This is basically where I'm going to vent and talk and
hopefully some of my friends will actually read it.
I guess thats all for now.
