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may 29th 03
no time for an update today... maybe sunday....
may 22nd 03 10:54 pm
well lets see... today i went to 2 classes... and i ate only chocolate... and i had a 6 hour rehearsal for oliver (with the deity-like assistance of selwob, will, dan-neo and e-bad with lights etc.. you guys are amazing, thank you SO much)... i guess that sort of balances it out...the good with the bad and such
i finally found someone else who's heard of big wolf on campus (best show ever... i heart merton j dingle) and yes, lori was definitely better than stacey.
i need to listen to more music.... i have less than jake, robbie williams and the turn it ups on loop in my cd playa. everyone please donate music to me generously, as i am in dire need.
well i guess thats it. i got up at 7, was at school from 8 am to 9 pm.... then i came online, and now i go to bed.
i also need new pictures....
may 21st 2003
im really pissed off today. this is going to be a short entry i hate so many people right now. i can't concentrate on anything. i hate everyone in oliver except the oakville boys. i have too much to do and no time. "i have no time!"-selwob, every day. i hate people who cheat. i hate people who lie. i hate people who hate people. and i hate oral tests on rome.... on a lighter note, i saw the polish today.. he was looking quite dapper, guns in hand.... i had a moment....
may 16th, 17th, 18th and 19th 4:28 pm
okay kids, let me start by saying that 2-4 or no 2-4, this has been one SQUEEZE of a weekend. interpret as you will. First off, on friday i ventured to oak-town to chillax with my oliver kids.... yes, there are in fact 2 non-losers in that show... sadly i am not one of them... well i took in a jolly good show at the AMC24 theatre. oh yes, kids, i saw the MATRIX RELOADED. all i can say is:
SHIT
I think that just about does it. well that was my friday.. then i woke up at 2:30 on saturday, baked cookies until 6:45 and hobbled on down to the music center. i became the door bitch with the assistance of jen k and jaci for a bit... but i was on my own for a while....good times having $700 shoved in my back pocket... i should have run away.
yeah so then some time around ohhh i think 1:30 or so jen, chris and i finally moseyed away.... let me just say first, skabal: representin the FLQ as per usual, BFD: if i had not been working the door, i would have seen you kids, but i heard you rockin out and 'twas grand. you guys are really getting it together! TNBT: dear lord, there was a tear in my eye for the whole show. i'm sure that was partially because of who was standing very very near to me, but still, a tear. beautiful. ok, i have three words to sum up my experience with HYYYYPOOOODUUUUUST (you can't just say it, you have to yell it) and those 3 words are as follows:
i saw jesus
seriously, i can't really relate to hardcore screaming songs and whatnot that you hear a lot, but i was totally into hypodust, they're really together... fila was rockin that drum set like nobody's business. then of course beautiful nothing with their own special blend... and then.. the I collective. for the sake of a law suit, i will say nothing other than that i am glad to have been sitting outside, but it wasn't far ENOUGH outside. (am i right jen? corey? pat? jenny? jaci?) oh and i must commend jaci on her pants. i dont think i need to comment any further on that one. yeah well.. i got home at like, 2:45 in the a-m.... big ups to selling cookie for 50 cents each! that bought jen, chris and i.. hmm.. a bag of kethup doritos and a bag of jalapeno cheese ones (99 cent size, naturellement)... some cheerios.. a giant mars bar thing for chris.. and some other artery-clogging snack treat for jen, i'm sure.
i didnt think jen murray would make it home alive after me having to abandon her at my house.... i insisted she call me when she get home but did she? oh, of COURSE not. grr. i'll make you live in fear some day.... not that anyone wants to rape and/or kidnap (in that order, of course) a jovial, rotund, butch gentleman like myself, but hey, ya never know. either way, i'm not calling you if you leave me to the wolves, jen.
enough about that. SO last night i went over for a 'feel better' girls night (and no, not a single panty-claden pillow fight ensued, thank god) we watched: mallrats, aladdin, the little mermaid, beauty and the beast... and i dunno, some ones we made and whatnot.... then we played old school nintendo (well, not me) and we ate cookies and did a josephandtheamazingtechnicolourdreamcoat singalong (yes its now one word) yeah i was girly for a day..
so this morning i get up at like, 6 after falling alseep at 3:30 or so and i find myself freezing. i think i know why: i was sleeping in fleece pants with a cotton t-shirt on a hardwood floor with a pillow (ahh my aladdin pillow) under my head and not a single sheet on top of me. WITH THE WINDOWS OPEN. i swear to god, my feet were about to fall off.
i am making chili today! oh yes, my specialty. it's SOOOO good. its vegetarian chili, but the meat supplement which is like, a soy protein fibre compound tastes and look exactly like meat.. which really does defeat the purpose of vegetarianism, but i wasn't about to shove chunks of tofu into my chili, no siree bob.
ok.... thats about it.... before i go.... i must say how much of a wonderful time i had at the music center and in general this weekend... and i honestly had a tear for my spending time with my cake... a.k.a. the polish a.k.a. the m of the m h etc and whatnot. and i hate people who give me bad looks, and i really really really hate kids who think they're smarter than me and who try to get thru the door without paying, oh, they will have their comeuppance.... ok this entry sucked.
may 15th 10:48 pm
well let me start by saying that this promises to be a good and exciting entry (right jen?)
i have decided that i am taking a new husband. some of you may know him as loveable ol 'albert' or even 'polka man', but to me he is the curly haired demon polka-master known as the one, the only:
i'm fat, i'm fat, shamow!
oh how i love him. ok well today started out with me getting to ride on selwob's shite-y old hunk-a-junk bike named rodriguez from school to the lift brigde on the beach strip and back. of course, the bike exploded 1/2 way and the gears got stuck, so i was trapped in 5th gear peddling to save my life but going like, 2 feet per decade and getting extremely tired in the process.. i got back to the school like, 15 minutes after everyone else, who, quite frankly just go too damn fast. I'm definitely NOT looking forward to riding that bike (oh dear, i just typed in mike but then relized what it said and changed it back to bike.. wow) until next friday. if anyone would like to donate a bike to me to use until next friday, i will pay you a shiny dubloon... no seriously, if anyone has a bicylette they can loan me, i really need it.
so then i had LOADS of fun with studying for my math test tomorrow... its really going to be very easy..
my highlight of the day today would deifintely have to be sitting in the booth in the aud for 4 hours tonight (well with the exception of the 45 minutes i was on stage and the 30 i was driving to wendy's) with jess paiva, and the 2 scotts from tokeville (i mean oakville...) talking about anything and everything and getting ready for parties tomorrow (AFTER ROSESDEAD, I SWEAR, JEN) and yeah. I love those guys so much. I feel special because i was all like 'hooks it up, brutha' and they were like 'what the dilly, here my number beehatch' well no.. but in my mind thats exactly how it sounded.
i have decided i am going to go to my own cottage this summer. its in sudbury on elm. not elm STREET, they have no signs like THAT up there. so yes, everyone can come to my cottage, but you'll have to bring your own floorboards.
jennymur just told me to go look at the eclipse, but i can see nothing. that gives me a tear. why must i be living in an apartment where you can see nothing? TAKE A PICTURE FOR ME!
i am getting very disheartened about certain upcoming presidential elections. i feel that there is unneccesary slander happening. i vote we all just be one big happy family and vote pabrimahilmeg for president. or i should at least have some help in posterness... who's with me! ok well now i am getting tired and i have to go write my resume for co-op which was due monday... oops... and my mom is complaining about my having 'pearly gates' and 'jumpin' on loop..... NARC! good night and i hope you had better luck with the eclipse than i did
may 14th 10:38
ahh today....
today has been a combination of good and bad.
good i FINALLY finished my paddle and i got to be "hypnotised" and i did my LD in gym, too
bad i hate everyone in my gym class today (certain people in particular) and i hate ancient history and i hate 4 hour rehearsals for oliver
now that that's out of the way... actually... that's about it.... dang.i actually have nothing else to say. ok, good night! p.s. hypnotism is a sham.
yum yum yum
may 13th 11:07 pm
I AM THE BOWLING GODDESS!
I have to say how much fun i had tonight. First, i burned my paddle for an hour @ school (i put cool greekyness into it) then i went home and ate some chips (mmm jalapeno and cheddar...) THEN i called up good 'ol e-bad and we decided to meet at blossom city...selwob and e-bad and i shared a splendid plate of general chicken and i lathered it up with hot sauce as i always do... i still think its funny that they both have heart attacks (in particular e-bad) when i pour on the spice....
anyway, after dinner, we hopped into my ma's ride and high-tailed it up to easterbrook's too for ice cream.... big ups to chocolate chip cookie dough. selwob, being the tool that she is, dropped hers on the floor.... ah, tear. THEN, oh yes, THEN we went BOWLING! It was o much fun bowling, i need to go again extremely soon!!! ah i LOVE it!! ok yeah.... i can't even describe how good i am feeling right now. we had an adventure on the way home and we waited for buses for an hour. an HOUR... but we amused ourselves by singing songs from Girls in the Gang, Footloose, Mamma Mia, Joseph, Little Shop, Grease, Aladdin, and Fiddler on the Roof.. oh and Private Life, too... we had a jolly good time, and my voice is dying (and selwob's is DEAD) because of it.
yes, today has been all-around great. I can't wait for the hypnotist tomorrow... OOH!
i found this the other day and wanted an excuse to put it up but i have none, so i just want to put it up becasue i like it a lot...
p.s. i won a gift basket from the bay from christian dior for attending this gala thing on the 3rd... i get to pick it up tomorrow... i hope it has my perfume in it (j'adore) oh i'm excited!!!
may 12/03 10:19 pm
ok well today. hm. it was really really great to see everyone back from sears... i didn't get much of a chance toi talk to any of them becasue they had some work at lunch, but it was still great to have them back.
i had an oliver rehearsal afterschool then i had to call dustin and marley and get to the rugby practice between 5:40 and 6:30 (marley picked me up at 6:10) PLUS i had some potato salad for dinner...
i ended up making an ass of myself at rugby and i walked home from sherwood forest park. jesus flipping murphy, do you know how LONG it took me to walk home? i left at 7:00 and i got home at 9:06, like oh GOD. i have giant bloody blisters on my heels from my ankle guard and my bad sock... i swear to god, i walked about 8km. I'm like, dead. i will definitely be tired and possibly in a bad mood tomorrow
i'm feeling kind of sad right now because i've been looking at some really great pictures from Improv regionals and i really really miss it. That was honestly, one of the most fun things i've EVER done and it really sucks that its over and 4/7ths of the team is graduating (the best 4, might i add) and ahhh.. it just makes me sad.
this is how i feel.
i think i'm going to cheat a little and use a picture i didnt exactly take or plan out for my essay. its really good though, it's of the Polish and of Lip and they're on the bus in cambridge and its a good example of what i want.
also before i go.... i must admit, i have a new.... interest... which really isn't new, but its just.... re-born? AND NO ITS NOT NATE!! (and yes selwob, i am sure i want to put that one here)
p.s. on my way home, i bought a box of smarties and i ate one every 140 steps (i learned in outdoor ed that 140 stpes by me is equal to 100meters) I must say, i have never appreciated the ability to savour a smartie until tonight.
p.p.s. selwob is my jesus for lending me rodriguez! (and scooch, the helmet)
may 9th, 10th and 11th 9:47 pm
well this weekend was just fine until today, pretty much. to quickly recap, i spent friday night designing a giant poster for my booth at 'volunteer village' for MYAC (the mayors youth advisory committee).....then i spent saturday from 9 am until 5:30 pm at/doing stuff for youthfest. i hung out with Jason for an hour or two, which wasn't too bad, and i saw selwob and steaky and t-boz and assface and i think a few others.. then i met up with Fila and we drove over to bingo. before i go on i must say, treble charger was o.k. but they were totally inappropriate with the crowd, calling that one girl a whore (and yes, it was probably jen murray, but thats still not cool) and picking a fight with that goth kid (a.k.a. pat craven)... boo-urns. so fila drove me to bingo where i got sars from the 197 people over 70 in the building. saturday was the eve of goodfellows as i did bingo with dj and mrs g. fun. so today... i spent a few hours with my cousin jenna at a mothers day whatnot and my moms all upset about something but doesnt really sem to want to talk about it... my dad was just yelling at her... heres what i have to say to that:
anyhoo... i feel really bad about myself. i tried to have some sort of conversation with my dad tonight about how i feel about myself, which naturally ended in disaster. i can't deal with myself anymore. and when my dad tells me things like 'oh you look fine' and 'let me guess, you want a boyfriend but you dont feel pretty' i just feel like hes not listening.
i hope this makes you feel as good as it made me.
ok well i'm going to go now. oh, and jen, i found a song that really was written about you. i couldn't believe it. it's called Handsome Man by the one and only, Robbie Williams... perhaps if the mood strikes me i'll write out the lyrics.
may 8th 8:11 pm
well i must say, jen murray, feel my WRATH!
ahh i love that drawing... only.. my mouth looks like i'm one of the flying monkeys from the wizard of oz. my guestbook has decided to not work today BOOURNS. well it turns out my hair was a success, everyone likes it and i'm glad. i would still like it even if nobody did, but it makes me feel good to get a positive response to my looks for once. i think i'm going to create an elvis gallery just to prove my love.
this is what i want everybody to chip in and buy for me:
i really don't have anything else to say... oh, you know what brock dogg said to me after english today? here's our conversation:
brock: you know what i think? i think they should turn manhatten island into a big jail society
max: what!?
brock: you know, let them live amongst themselves and learn to function with each other
max: and let them learn to KILL each other?!?
brock: that's their problem.
i have issues with that. well.. that's pretty much it. today really has been quite normal.. for once.. i'm excited becasue some people i.e. SELWOB and ASSFACE have come home from CHATHAM (oh and calais too but she likes Macaulay Caulkin so she can burn in hades) and i get to see them TOMORROW!!
ok one last thing, everybody has to come to youthfest saturday. i'm going to be manning a tent in "volunteer village" from like, 12-2 and 4-6 and i'm going to DIE of boredom.. PLEASE come and visit me if you have a heart.... and even if you don't. BOO treble charger....
may 7th 10:08 pm
to start off i must say, did i ever mention my love for this dancin' fool?
well now that that's out of the way... my day today was rather uneventful...aside from the fact that i got some really really great pictures for my essay (oh man) and i cut my hair (AHHHHH) it wasn't too exciting. ok. my hair is insane. like, i can't even begin to tell you how different it is. i'm pretty sure it's different in a good way, but i'm still in shock that i didn't vomit upon seeing scissors being taken to my precious head of hair (myyy prrreeeecious) i'm in a pretty good mood right now. no complaints at this point. ooh i bought the new Robbie Williams album today "escapology" meeyow! i have to share my favorite lyrics:
i am all of the above babe
johnny long strokes to the grave
saving all the stamps and spend it on a kettle
rub me rub me up right lovely
if you lick it then lick it battery
good and properly all night if you want
(chorus)i haven't got a clue what to do with you
i need for you to love me so much
jesus what am i gonna do with this crush
just get the old fella and whack it up against her tush
how peculiar
bend your long legs against the sofa
in the dorchester you can get your all bran
im not into hard sports
*chorus*
how peculiar
jesus what am i to do man
i am a depressed man
not sure what i'm doing all of the day
how peculiar
i am all of the above man
i have what you want man
if you want me here i am
come and get it baby
uhh
yeah that's my info for today. oh and everyone should go and rent the movie "Mr. Accident" that's one of if not THE funniest movie i've ever seen.
that's all for now. over and out.
may 6th 9:57 pm well today has been quite the combo of ups and downs. i was happy because the sparta presentation went ok.. hands up if you liked our movie! i was sad becasue everybody left for chatham today.... but then i was happy becasue i did really well at my oliver rehearsal... i got some sweet pictures for my essay... theres on of me all blurry looking emo in the background of a shot of a strip from a photo booth of me and e-bad... and one of mexico (dan) by the aud looking like hes in jail.... and one of the polish thru the doors... very cool... well i don't really know what i'm supposed to feel but this picture cheers me up.
i want to be a macho man...
i'm sad becasue i was supposed to get my hair cut tomorrow but i have to go to a rehearsal... and that means i have to wait another week for my haircut... aww and i was so hoping to surprise all the sears folk... oh well... that's all for now.. remember.... when it comes to student council president, Max is the Good(is) way to vote!
may 2nd
AAAAAHHHHHHHH. today has mad me SO angry and SO sad i don't know what to do anymore. I spent like, the entire day after school until about an hour ago with E-bad, which was really mostly good times until my bank decided to not let me use more then $20.... on a lighter note, here is a list of my purchases of the day:
#1: Matthew Good, Avalance CD (its SO good, oh man, JUST what i needed) #2: A pair of blue karenfrazer shoes from Payless #3: Blue Hawaii on DVD (starring the one, the only Elvis Presley) and #4 a ticket to 'Malibu's Most Wanted' starring Jamie Kennedy.. ok i feel bad for him because the movie just wasn't that great. it had its good moments, and taye diggs was really funny, but it was just lacking so much. if it'd been made in 1999 it would have been amazing, but alas 'twas not... so about my rage. some people understand my anger swordness (i heart ill mitch) and for people who don't, i will clarify the main source of my rage surrounding my birthday today. (good to know theres only 4 people who read this website) ok, this is a totally emo moment coming up:
i've been really upset the past while surrounding my birthday because it has been a life long dream of mine, something of absolute utmost importance to me, to have my first kiss when i was 16 years old. As i neared my 17th (well, for me, 15th but thats just me) birthday, i began to realize it wasn't going to happen. i've become increasingly depressed and i feel like everything is just falling down around me so i called off celebrations for today, which seems to have worked, with the exception of my mom and the well-wishers @ school... i'm sorry to everyone who got yelled at/beaten/raged towards by me the past month or so becasue honestly, all myrage and frustration (well not all, but pretty much) has spawned from my birthday. i've learned something out of this birthday: never wish/hope/pray for something for your entire life becasue it is never going to happen no matter how hard you want it or how much you think you deserve it. i am now going to bed, sad again, everything sucked today. things were only made worse by my finding out that Footloose @ MM is sold out and has been for a while therefore i will never see it. That's only further proof that wishing/wanting something for however long is pointless becasue you will never, ever, EVER get it. pardon me while i listen to matt good.
may 1st 10:25 pm
today has been a really sucky day. i still have that headache. i had a stroke in media english or something.... everyone laughing at me didnt help.... i swear i broke that chair. also the fact that people keep reminding me about my birthday tomorrow really doesnt help me feel any better. as a matter of fact, the only person who's helped me feel any better is chris... you're my hero. i really do heart elvis. you made me feel so much better today i'm so grateful.
ok let me also say that if i wasn't going to hell before, i am now. after school i was waiting around for a friend's parent to pick her and her brother up. Assface a.k.a. Will (i've given up on codenames) was there too and decided to insist on giving me a piggypack ride. he did and what blew me away was #1 he didn't crumple to the floor and explode under my weight and #2 was hoiw he decided to slam me into a locker and then 1/2 drop me, then fall on his right knee and writhe in pain for about 5 minutes before hobbling away and one-legged biking home. I now know he like, exploded his knee and went to the hospital and such. Now, he said himself that he could not blame me, but i can't help feel incredibly responsible for his agony....will, if you're reading this, i owe you a cane and.. etc...
so i've felt pretty crappy today. i'm excited to see Footloose tomorrow though. anybody who wants to come, its at 7:30 at MM Robinson, only $10 (cheap!) so bring a crowd and everybody can cut Footloose... i know i'll be singign along. I expect to see you all there. you all being the 4 people who read this site besides me.
may i also add that i hate everyone in sears who isnt committed to what they're doing i.e. the entire backstage crew with the exception of e-bad. dammit. i'll find a sock and stab them all.
ok well i am going to go and wallow in my sorrow on behalf of will and then laugh at my picture from chris....then laugh until i cry at the picture from selwob which i just remembered also made me feel marginally better good stuff... good night kids.
april 30th 10:22 pm
i'm in such a mood. its not a good one. i went to my MYAC meeting and i saw Poindexter for the first time since February which was nice, but then i walked home Redd and my feet gurt. i thought i was going to get raped but then i realized that nobody wants to rape a fat girl with horse teeth and enough flub to feed an inuit family for 4 generations. ahh i hate myself today. people were really hard on me for not eating at lunch and i'm honestly like, going to have a conniption if they don't leave me alone. if i'm not hungry i'm not hungry. ahh. ok i really miss the Shade now. i think i really actually might heart him. please don't make fun of me. im a sap, i know. ok well i've had a headache since i woke up this morning and since i hate taking pills, it's stayed with me and gotten continually worse all day. I have to say, Jirish is my idol for presenting without the Fish to assist him. HALLELUJAH DARWIN! i'm feeling slightly better becasue the Shade just said something really funny.... ok yeah well i think i am going to go listen to some music because i'm getting angry at my hideousness, and there's no tap tomorrow so i'm never gonna the NHJW and i'm really sad.....
april 30th 10:43 am
ok so jirish boy is a freak. i'm really pissed off becasue everybody thinks i'm anorexic and im really tired becasue i spent from 4 until 11 last night working on my ancient civ video with e-bad. i'm also thinking i'm getting over the Polish because ive been thinking and i thought, when am i going to see him? plus, he changed his appearance again and its like, hes changed, so i have, too. i have to go cut pictures of naked bull-jumpers now.
april 29th 11:13 pm
well today wasn't particularly exciting... i blacked out for about 5 seconds when ryan hit me in the elbow with his paddle and i spent from 3 until 10:45 working on my stupid ancient civ video with e-bad... not too shabby since selwob came and helped, and i got to make bugs bunny make babies with a teddy bear named eek, but i'm tired. i hit blossom city mmmm.... so much for vegetarianism. general chicken is the only meat i will eat..... not counting polish sausage, but that's a different story.... speaking of the polish, he altered his appearance again and i'm not sure if i like it... as a matter of fact, i think i'm getting over the polish, but only becasue i realized, when am i ever going to see him after sears is done? i wish he could see that thing i wrote about him.... maybe he'd think differently of me then... i still havent gotten a copy of it back from my teacher yet, and i promise to post it when i do... i'm feeling really crappy. and my elbow hurts.
april 28th 03
ok wicked. today has sucked the wang so far. i didn't get to go on my canoe skills test thing becasue i had an oliver rehearsal where i was surrounded by 64 squealing morons ages 12-15 for 3 hours. man am i ever glad i didn't do sears. i know i wouldn't want to be surrounded by my friends and most importantly (actually not MOST importantly, but definitely somehwere up there) THE POLISH.. ok wicked. i bought a dollar store pen that smells like bananas, today. oh yeah, that poem.... well i handed it in so i'll have to post it some other day, soon... well i'm in a mood now and its not a good one so i'm going away.
april 27th 2003
i'm feeling kinda weird today. i'm at my aunt and uncle's house and its a small family dinner. everybody's eating meat. i ate a potato... it was really good. since they're all old they're talking about death and disease and hernias. the sears kids came back from cambridge last night and i'm so psyched to see them. E-bad told me there are some awesome pictures of the polish... lets set the record straight on a few things. E-bad, Selwob, Assface, Murvert, Jirish, B-rock, and K-Razy are all my clocest friends. Eek, T-boz and Stain are some of their significant others or wannabe significant others and the Polish is the guy i'm pining over at this point. I suddenly feel really tired. I spent a lot of time working on a poem for my english teacher.... i think i'll post it tomorrow or sometime this week.... i think that's about it.... maybe i'll write something later...
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