Knocking on Heaven's Door
Having been raised in the church, I developed the pattern of regular attendance. When I went away to attend college at East Carolina University in Greenville, North Carolina many years ago, I maintained the habit. There was a Southern Baptist congregation within easy walking distance of my dorm, so that’s where I went. My roommate and some of his music major colleagues attended, as well.
The pastor was a personable fellow and always warmly greeted me at the door when the service was finished. I don’t believe he ever asked my name, and I didn’t volunteer it. Two things stand out in my mind about that church.
One was a pun told by the pastor. Apparently, someone broke into the church one week and discharged fire extinguishers somewhere in the building. As he put it, the trespassers said, “Let us spray.” Very clever, I thought.
The second thing I remember was the congregation voted by a show of hands whenever someone came forward at the invitation to join the church. I couldn’t understand this judgment of whether a person was adequate to be a part of their church. What was the standard? Most of the members likely didn’t know the newcomers, and the voting was simply perfunctory. So, why even vote? Why the charade?
I never felt at home among the folks at that church, and soon I discovered that Sunday mornings were wonderful for sleeping late. It didn't last long, however.
One evening I was in my dorm room with Roger from across the hall watching a basketball game on television. Playing in the game was Elvin Hayes, then a star of the Washington Bullets. As we watched the game, I commented to Roger that, according to an article I read, Hayes had a spiritual encounter of some sort that led to a religious conversion. I said, “I’ve never felt particularly called to religion or the church in my life.”
As soon as I said it, there was a knock on my door. I didn’t know the person standing there, but he called me by name and said, “I understand that you’re a Christian.” “Well, I, uh…” “Are you attending a church?” “Uh, no, I’m not.” “You should come with me. I’ll pick you up on Sunday morning at 8:30.” And he did. Just like that I was back in church.
On that first post-knock Sunday morning Dave showed up. He was enthusiastic about taking me to his church, which turned out to be a very small Church of Christ congregation. That’s the non-instrumental bunch, and Dave himself led the hymn singing at the beginning of the service. Off-key, but sincere, the folks at the church displayed a sense of humility in worship and fellowship that was touching.
They were without a pastor at that particular time, so a chemistry professor from the university provided the sermon each Sunday. If memory serves, there were perhaps 20 people in attendance. They were carrying on their witness despite a lack of professional leadership, and they all seemed pleased to see me. I was back in church.
Now, I am assuming the hand of God played a role in all of this. The timing of the door knock was just too perfect for me to imagine otherwise. So, I went along for the ride, still not entirely clear what was unfolding.
Dave's personality and approach were such that he felt it necessary to kind of “shepherd” me a little bit. Well, more than a little bit. He became a regular presence in my life as we spent a lot of time together apart from Sunday morning. We weren’t friends, exactly, but he clearly saw himself in a spiritual mentor role. It was something I needed, it seems now, as his persistence put me in the position of actually reflecting on matters of faith.
He only recently “converted” to the faith himself. By his account, Dave's life was somewhat directionless, and maybe a bit on the wild side. He was a basketball player with visions of glory wearing the purple and gold of ECU. But, that didn’t happen.
What did happen was being “born again,” as he described it, and by the time he found me, he was passionate about his faith. Rabid, even, might have described him.
Now, my prior church experience was not of the rabid variety, so I was a little uncomfortable with him at times, and frankly, I thought he needed to lighten up. He clearly, though, was trying to be faithful in the best way he knew how.
But, for me, red flags were going up. Around Dave my words were carefully chosen, so as not to seem inappropriately worldly. I assumed my actions would be filtered through a lens of his making. I was walking on a field rife with land mines.
Maybe he really was fighting himself in all of this. But I couldn’t ignore how he came into my life, and tried to see through the surface to what really was going on.
I grew restless with Dave, though, and by the end of the school year, I decided that enough was enough. I could continue my faith journey without him. I decided I would tell him when school resumed in the fall.
The summer ended, and on the first Sunday morning after I returned to Greenville, I waited, certain what would happen
I stayed in bed awake, anticipating the knock on the door. At 8:30, Dave arrived, and when I presented myself, wearing sleeping clothes and disheveled hair, he was incredulous.
“You’re not ready!” “Yes, well, I’m not going with you anymore." He looked like he absolutely could not believe what he was hearing. After staring at me for a moment he said, “I want you to think about this. It could mean the difference between heaven and hell, for you, for your children, for your whole family.” “Well, I’m not going.”
He looked at me some more. I locked eyes with him and waited. Then, after an awkwardly long pause, and with the stunned expression of someone who had just been wounded but couldn’t connect his brain to the location of the injury, he turned and walked away. I closed the door and never saw him again. Just as quickly and at the exact spot where he entered my life, Dave left it, his purpose done.
Something funny had happened that summer while I was home on break. My home pastor's brother-in-law, Ralph Messick, also a Disciples pastor, moved to Greenville to become the pastor of a Disciples congregation there. Within a day or two of Dave leaving me at the door of my dorm room, Ralph showed up, just as we had arranged. Now, I not only was back in the church, I was back among Disciples, and I was on a path leading to seminary and ordination.
I never expected any of it to happen.