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1. Can't carry a tune. Ever.
2. Sleep four hours at night and three when I get home from school.
3. Used to love acting, but now can't seem to stand on a stage without suffocating.
4. Still love the theater, as long as I'm not in it.
5. Don't want a boyfriend, or a girlfriend, or any sort of romantic liaison. Truly.
6. Haven't touched sea food since I was seven and don't see myself eating it ever again.
7. Believe myself to be clinically neurotic, or perhaps just a hypochondriac.
8. Hate to get attatched to people, but do it anyways.
9. Hate shopping for clothes, but shop anyways.
10. Hate it when I act like a dolt, but act like one anyways.
11. Am not a masochist.
12. Once had that "Happy Days" theme song stuck in my head for eight days.
13. Hate it when people use the term "gay" to mean something bad, such as "That is so gay."
14. Have never been drunk, but probably will be within the next five years.
15. Have never given a guy a blow job, and never intend to.
16. Have never had sex, and don't intend to for a long while
17. Will never smoke.
18. Will never do drugs.
19. Have given myself six tattoos, using a pin and pen ink.
20. Want to write a novel before I'm thirty.
21. Will write a novel before I'm thirty.
22. Do not believe in a) fate, b) God, or c) the improbable idea that Harry Potter is heterosexual.
23. Think that George Bush is an absolute idiot.
24. Have thought about dying many times, but would never kill myself unless death was like the way it is in my head. Which I doubt it is.
25. Can't draw. At all.
26. Love all works of art.
27. Make up for my lack of artistic talent with my fervor for writing. (All of which is not very good, honestly, but I am proud of it nonetheless)
28. Have far too much pride.
29. Believe myself to look like a mix between a hedgehog and a whale, which I refer to as a whedgehog.
30. Have two invisible friends named Delirium and Incredulity, and have had them for a year now.
31. Always dream of snow.
32. Used to be lifebonded to Elijah Wood, until I realized he was gay.
33. Often wonder if that was what made me attracted to him in the first place.
34. Have no fashion sense.
35. Have never been to a highschool dance.
36. Don't have much of a taste in music.
37. Worry about things until I get sick.
38. Have been sick more times this fall than I have in the past five years.
39. Wish that Mercedes Lackey's Valdemar actually existed.
40. Believe in my head that it does.
41. Collect names.
42. Read the dictionary when I take baths.
43. Have written two 20,000+ word stories, each incomplete and probably never will be completed.
44. Have trouble finishing things.
45. Want to go to London more than anything else in the world.
46. Have 1½ best friends.
47. Will not wear a tank top in public.
48. Hate all public displays of affection.
49. Have four notebooks that I don't write in, yet keep buying more.
50. Have two cats, a black one and an orange one, the latter of which is insane and is about to suffocate himself by sleeping in a plastic bag.
51. Wish I was a better friend.
52. Know that it's in my control to be a good friend.
53. Probably never will be a good friend.
54. Have yet to come to terms with many things.
55. Am a good liar, to myself and to others.
56. Take myself too seriously.
57. Don't know what I want.
58. Thought I was a lesbian in eigth grade, but got over that quickly when I realized that the idea of sleeping with a girl made me nausous.
59. Am very egocentric.
60. Have this problem where I like to take things from people when they aren't looking, and keep what I take.
61. Understand what William Blake means when he says "love to faults is always blind," but can't explain it to anyone.
62. Will hug simple acquaintances, but have a terrible difficulty even brushing hands with close friends.
63. Have only said "I love you" to a non-relative once, and meant it.
64. Wish on all that exists that I didn't mean it.
65. Like american-chinese food with an intense passion.
66. Follow up rather important statements with insignificant ones, i.e., #64 & 65.
67. Am quite annoyed with myself right now.
68. Have never been stung by a bee.
69. Have never broken a bone.
70. Always have a song stuck in my head. Always.
71. When I got my first video camera in sixth grade I started out by making "dirty videos" and "period information videos" with my friends, which later contributed the thought that I was a lesbian. I'm not.
72. Never called my mother "mommy" nor my father "daddy" unless I wanted something out of them, in which that epithet was used in a whiny voice as sort of a pleading joke.
73. Get words stuck in my head, too, such as "somnolent" or "reticent".
74. Only began reading for pleasure in seventh grade when I discovered that the school day passed by much more quickly when one read a book through all of their classes.
75. Used to pretend I was a dog in second grade by wearing my dog's collar to school and having people throw sticks for me to fetch.
76. Still wish I was a dog.
77. To introduce my inflatable male doll Vanyel to my parents, I chose a night they would be gone, filled the pool and surrounded it with candles, put Vanyel in the water and pretended to be having sex with him when they opened the back door. They believed me, and were so overjoyed when they realized I wasn't fucking someone that they didn't even ground me for ordering Vanyel from a sex toy store with my mum's credit card.
78. Would flash cars at night for fun when I was twelve.
79. Used to practice witchcraft.
80. Dislike it when people use bad grammer in instant mesages, or when they use word shortcuts such as "ur" for "you're", "wuz" for "was", etc.
81. Hate, hate, hate wearing a bathing suit, and as a result haven't been to a pool for three years.